It's raining again today. As soon as I entered this place, it felt like I had returned to a world where everything was vintage. I felt a calming sensation. Apart from that, I also saw something different. At that moment I was confused because this was quite strange. At the same time, I also took a short walk around the corridor of this room. The art museums that I usually go to tend to have quite unique characteristics. Myself, who previously felt hesitant about coming to this place, now I feel better. Apart from that, I also saw various amazing works. I almost felt a little surprised because this was not normal. All things that have happened in the past are depicted as works of art in the paintings displayed in this room. I started to pay attention to one of the works that made my heart feel cut. This really hurts. I still can't believe that people in ancient times were so cruel and immoral. After seeing the work in this corridor I immediately continued to another room. Don't forget that there were also other visitors there who were also seen enjoying the work here. Honestly, this is my first time visiting this museum and I hardly know anything. That's why I'm a little confused. It's been a long time since I visited a place like this. The moment I start to want to leave, that's usually when I start to get moved. This time I really felt that my world had started to change as time went by. Even though I felt like I didn't accept it, inside me it was always churning that it was all a disaster. Likewise with all the things that started to happen. As of now I am in the safe zone and may tend to start feeling a little danger due to unexpected shifts. After I finished touring this room, I decided to go to the next room to see the work there. Of the many things I've experienced, something that made me feel quite worried was when a strange sensation came over me. It felt like I was being pulled to fall. When I saw this dark colored work, I immediately thought of something. Not long after that I decided to end my vacation today. When I was about to leave, it turned out it was still raining outside. My steps stopped. For a moment I looked around, which was full of people I didn't know. I feel this is luck in my life. Remember there is no need to worry because you are bothered by pleasantries that sound quite cheap.
“Maya? Is that you?” Said a voice from the right side and when I looked it turned out it was one of my acquaintances.
“Oh, hi.”
“It turns out you also came here. How are you? I haven't heard about you lately. You're okay, right?”
"Yes. Of course I'm fine. How about you?"
"Yes. I feel good too. By the way, are you here alone?"
"Correct. I am alone. You too?"
"Yes. Me, too. What do you think? Their work is amazing, isn't it?”
"You are right. It was so amazing that I couldn't believe they were that great.”
"Yes. I'm also very impressed. Oh yeah, don't tell me you came for an assignment, okay?”
"No. I just want to calm down."
“Ah, I see.”
Again I saw something strange. This person keeps asking me lots of questions even though I've only known him for a short time. I didn't expect to see you so soon. If I had never met him while I was still in that city, I don't think I would have had to meet and talk like this. The day is also getting longer and later. The rain still hasn't stopped. Even so, I don't want to go to the museum anymore because I think it's boring. I already know everything. Now I'm standing here waiting for the rain to stop. This guy is also still here and keeps spouting that boring crap.
"So, you don't intend to continue your activities at that time?" Ask this person me.
"What? What activities do you mean?"
"Hah? Don't say you've forgotten. Didn't you go to a painting academy and intend to study art there?"
“Ah, autumn time huh? I don't remember much. Excuse me."
"Is it true? Then what are your plans these days?”
'Why does this person keep asking me things like this?," I muttered to myself.
“It seems like I just have to live my life as a final student and graduate and then work. How about you?"
“That sounds amazing. Yes, I guess I'm not much different from what you would do either. Aren't humans like that? Live according to the phase."
"Yes. I think there's some truth to that.”
"And besides, don't you feel bored?"
“For what?”
"Everything. Living in this city alone then doing everything myself and even having to fix everything alone. Don't you feel bored with all that routine?"
“Why would you ask something like that?”
“I'm just curious. Because I experienced it. Maybe other people are different. That's why I'm asking you this Maya."
"Just the same."
"What?"
“It's all the same. Just different places and conditions."
"I already guessed. This way I feel relieved. Turns out it's not just me."
"Are you happy?"
"Not really."
"So what?"
"I don't know, this is hard to explain."
The more I hear this person's ramblings, the more convinced I feel that something really happened. But I don't have to feel curious about other people's problems. As long as it doesn't interfere with my life. A very difficult situation to avoid. In fact, all humans must feel the same way. Strangely I only heard a small part of them. Maybe this sounds scary. But it's all come and it can't be avoided. This rain is getting longer and longer. I feel this is a bad sign. People also looked restless. I understand the atmosphere. Moreover, this is really surprising. I felt like there was a rock blocking my path.
"Wow, it turns out the rain is getting heavier," said this person to me.
"Yes. Looks like we're going to be stuck here for a long time."
"Speaking of being trapped, have you ever thought about what if you were in a similar situation? What would you do?"
“I never thought about it like that. I find it very evil.”
"Is it true? If, for example, someone deliberately did something like that, what would you do?”
“I will not just remain silent. What's clear is that I will finish it."
“Wow, that's great. Sounds brave.”
"If you were in a situation like that, what would you do?"
"Me, too."
Once again I feel that all this is really terrible. Slowly I felt my pulse. When the rain subsided, I decided to rest for a while in one of the places. This time I felt myself thinking about some of the things I had heard earlier. I also feel that there is something wrong with my world. But I didn't realize where it went wrong. Even though I try, the reality is still the same. At first I saw myself full of ambition, now it's all just me. I also hope that here I have a good day, it turns out that all of this requires more effort. Instantly I also stopped. Several times all this bothered me, in fact I feel that now everything is very annoying. From here I see the world, which is truly beautiful, slowly changing. I also hope for myself for this tiring day, strangely everything is starting to get better. However, I couldn't think straight. Sometimes I hope for imagination. It turns out that all of this is really not easy. I enjoy a glass of warm coffee along with the confusion that is currently in my head. It doesn't stop there, I also thought this was quite crazy and it turned out to be the same. There isn't a day that I don't complain. I've felt for a long time that something was wrong. Slowly I started to get curious about it. Music that was usually a part of my life suddenly felt ordinary. I once heard someone say that everything would become very boring if it continued without stopping. Turns out I felt it was true. Previously I thought it was just bullshit. Even though on the one hand I also started to feel that it was very true. This time I couldn't figure out what to do. The words that came out of my mouth were once again the opposite of what I really wanted right now.
'Unlucky. Why am I always in this condition?' I muttered to myself.
Not long after that I just returned home. But before that, I took a short walk around the neighborhood. The atmosphere of Tokyo is very different from the way I saw it when I was born. This is my first time traveling freely like this. That day, even though I had a free schedule, I still had to go back to the practice room, then go home, then go to campus and so on. I didn't see anything fun. My eyes feel bored. However, when free time came, I felt very strange. I really never thought about this before in my head.
"What are they doing?" I muttered when I saw several people gathered across the road.
Fun or something like that. I feel like I've never been friendly with conditions like that. Every now and then I start to want to know. But soon I realized that it wasn't important. I also want to be like other people. That thought suddenly came into my head. Strangely, this feeling is really piercing. I walked again and now found a shop filled with beautiful flowers. Yes, of course this is a flower shop. Even though it's not spring now, the flowers in the shop look charming. My eyes immediately went there.
“Wow.” I said.