This is really bad. All day I feel uncomfortable. There are many things that keep me distracted. In the end I just kept quiet. There's nothing else that makes me happy enough. Even though it's like that, I really can't control myself. This time I also thought about Ayaka. That person doesn't usually talk to me. Remembering that Ayaka has achieved many things. It will definitely be a little difficult even just talking. That person has become famous. But, since that incident I feel a little sorry. I don't know why it must feel very heavy. I'm willing to bet that it's really hard. As soon as I saw Ayaka in person, I felt happy again because it turned out that Ayaka's condition wasn't that bad. It's starting to be like before. Now I'm confused about what to do. Today it's very cold outside. Rain continues to fall in this city. I can barely go anywhere. Until now, I am still sitting on the sofa watching my favorite film. Even so, my mind wasn't focused on the film. I always imagine other things that even damage me. I can't explain why I feel this way. After that I got up from my seat and took a glass of warm coffee. This morning was quite impressive for me. I can't do anything now. My feelings are still uncertain. When I was trying to do something good, something was bothering me again. I never thought that it could come to me. I also can't waste time like that because I don't know how to throw it away. After finishing watching the film, I walked to the room where I usually paint. I looked at some of my paintings and when I looked again it turned out they weren't that bad. Slowly I also started to find ideas for my next painting. This idea that crossed my mind is quite impressive. If I start doing it, I don't think it will waste my time. So far I have always been faced with many choices. I'm always confused about deciding what to do next. At that moment I felt as if my world had just stopped. Time quickly froze making me feel panicked. Apart from that, I'm also not used to scary atmosphere. After this I started to take some painting tools. Now is the time for me to get back to work. After a while I felt a little doubtful, this time I shouldn't be like that and continue to do what I should do for myself. There are many things I missed and I will make it into a work that is very beautiful to look at.
“I feel like myself,” I muttered.
At the same time. Lucy is seen hunting for items online. This could be seen from the look on Lucy's face, which was very happy. While she was busy shopping, Lucy suddenly remembered that today she had a schedule to go to the hospital. For a moment, Lucy started to look at herself in the mirror and noticed that her face looked pale. Slowly, he immediately took his jacket and umbrella. Lucy moved to get to the hospital as quickly as possible before the doctor contacted Lucy. It was very cold outside, but Lucy had to go now and couldn't wait any longer.
'It will definitely be fine. Calm down Lucy,' Lucy muttered to herself.
Today Lucy went to the hospital for the first time. Arriving at the hospital, Lucy immediately entered the psychiatrist's room. After that, a doctor was seen waiting for Lucy to arrive. That person seemed to already know what Lucy was feeling. The two of them started having a talking session. Lucy just said everything she experienced and it wasn't an easy thing. It started when Lucy was in a group with people who were involved in art. They were there like they were celebrating a party. Not only that, from the looks of it, they had a lot to talk about. More and more bad things happened, until that moment Lucy just sat there holding back the anxiety that was getting more and more torturous. Not only that, Lucy also drank a lot of alcohol because she felt uncomfortable. From the other side, it looked like Lucy was trying to restrain herself. No one was on Lucy's side which made Lucy feel frustrated. At the same time, they talk more and more about unimportant things. At that moment Lucy began to feel excruciating pain and quickly went home. Some people who witnessed this just watched and didn't care. Once Lucy explained everything to the current doctor, Lucy slowly felt the heavy thoughts begin to lessen. Not only that, Lucy also doesn't hesitate to say everything. The doctor just listened and didn't ask Lucy anything. Today's counseling session was quite ordinary. Nothing happened or made Lucy feel particularly upset. Every now and then it makes the mind start to split and it seems like it wants to erase it forever. The doctor advised Lucy to attend as much counseling as scheduled and it will definitely make Lucy feel much better than usual. Don't forget, Lucy felt happy about that and now it's the same. Meanwhile, I'm quite bored at this house. There is nothing that can be done and all of this makes the mind confused. There are so many things that are noisy and disturb the peace. All this was done by neighbors who were constantly making noise. They don't seem to care what their neighbors feel. I'm fed up with humans like that. It wasn't long before I remembered Ayaka's words that if anything happened, Ayaka would want to be petrified. But I feel it is very bad. Not long afterward Ayaka contacted me. I quickly picked up the call. I already knew that this would happen.
“Hello Maya?” said Ayaka via telephone call.
“Ayaka. It just so happened that I wanted to call you. Now you call me. I feel very happy."
"Yes. It's been a long time, yeah. The last time we met was by accident. I also feel that right now there are a lot of things I have to forget.”
"Why? Did something happen?”
“More like everyday problems. I'm so bored I'm going to die.”
“Ah, I see. If I may, do you have an event tomorrow?"
“After I looked before, there wasn't any at all. Annoying isn't it? I feel like I can't live.”
"What are you talking about? It seems like going to the sauna is much better. How about we go there tomorrow?"
"Okay, I agree."