I saw some ornaments that looked amazing. Even this time, I still thought that maybe while I was here I would continue to imagine various other things. I was annoyed for a moment because this was really beyond my expectations. Even though I felt a little calm, the feeling of awe was still there. Every time I think back, if only I could find everything like I found something like this, I think I would be very lucky. The words that kept running through my head were that. Instantly I also woke up and I admitted it. I felt as if I was destined to see something like this. Sometimes I feel confused by what I see. I feel like this is a trap. The moment I catch my breath, it feels like I'm carried away by the atmosphere. I have faced times when everything was very annoying. Unfortunately, I only judge from one angle and nothing else. Once again I always hope for a world that I really hate. This time I looked at some of the beauty that was right before my eyes. I feel a little peaceful. After that, I also didn't hesitate to ask my acquaintance about all this. I still can't believe that this person is an acquaintance of mine. Sometimes I feel so small that I can't even believe it. I feel strangely tight, which I like. After I came home from the shop, now I walk around this area while muttering to myself. It looks like fun. Often times I feel that I might be able to get it if I really try hard enough. As far as I remember, I once said something like that. But without realizing it, I was wasting things like that and just looking at another point of view. This time I remembered another important thing that kept coming to me. Don't know why I still feel uncomfortable with such a situation.
“What should I do?” I muttered.
There is one more thing that I think is quite unreasonable. Sometimes I am under a dark shadow that I don't even know why it came. Sometimes I always hope that everything will just pass like that. As if it would never come again. The occasion where I stood up and performed a classic song as usual. However, it all seemed to just stop. I felt confused when it suddenly came to me. Without delay, I always screamed and it turned out it was all in vain. No one came. When I realized, that was the reality. When I was enjoying the breeze, suddenly I heard someone calling me.
“Maya.”
"Oh, Hannah?"
"What are you doing here?"
“Ah, just walking around. What are you doing yourself?"
“What a coincidence, I'm the same way. Who did I think, it turns out it's you. That's why I called."
“Oh yeah, did nothing happen?”
"Hah? What are you talking about? What happen?"
"No. It is nothing. I think my mind suddenly went haywire.”
“You are so strange.”
"Yes. Sometimes that's how it is.”
"But, I thought there was an event nearby but there wasn't one."
"Program?"
"Yes. It looks busy but it's not.”
"You're disappointed because of that, aren't you?"
"Not really. Just out of curiosity."
“I see.”
"How? Wouldn't it be exciting if it existed.”
"You are right."
When I realized several things, it turned out that there were some that were really giving me trouble. At least it gives an impression that I can't avoid. I feel like there's something wrong with all of this. Not only that, I also can't say many things which are quite troublesome. At that time I felt a little annoyed and that's what happened. Almost the same as I felt this was really different from the previous one and there was only one important thing. I've been feeling like there's something strange about some of the things I've noticed lately. It turns out everything is the same. I thought this wouldn't happen easily and in reality it couldn't be controlled. Hanna is still with me. This person continues to discuss events like events that usually occur in this area. Even though I'm tired of hearing it, I think there are some things I never knew. Once again I listened more and more to what Hanna was saying. Not long after that we both rested at one of the eating places here. Susana was busy and I really miss that. I haven't seen anything like that lately and now I feel very happy. After looking back several times, it turns out my life is back and I feel much happier. There was a time when I could no longer hold myself back and I really wanted healing. But I can't get that easily. Last time I just enjoyed a holiday in a small town and now I'm really back with the me I really missed. I can't imagine that if I couldn't come back, I would probably suffer even more. It doesn't stop there, I also feel that everything is never fair and of course I'm really fed up with life like that. I only saw drugs and also some people who were the same as me at that time.
"Finally I can come back here," I muttered.
Not long after that we ordered a lot of food. I already knew that this would happen and it turned out to be true. Hanna is also not on a diet and that's what makes us both happy now. There's nothing else I regret so far. There's nothing bad lurking either. So far I feel grateful because I can be myself enough to enjoy the beauty of the world today. Hanna was still rambling and this time she was talking about something that many people thought was quite exciting.
"You really don't know about that news?" Hanna asked me with a quite curious look.
"Yes. I've never heard of it. How did you know?”
"Good grief. Even though people often talk about it these days. I also know from them.”
"Ah, I guess I'm the only one who doesn't really know the latest information."
"Okay. Does not matter. Because I'll tell you. In fact, they have long been the target of many agencies. He said because he had good talent and also the perfect face to appear as a model. I admit that too, isn't there something strange that the offer is quite mysterious?”
"Mysterious what?"
"The person who offered the job only via text message and refused to ask to meet or just make a video call."
Even now, I still don't believe what Hanna said. Don't know why it feels like something doesn't make sense. Even so, I know that this person is not lying at all. It all tastes almost the same. Nothing changed even last time. Until time stops, there are some things that are very difficult to accept. This time I also agree with that. After we finished talking, I just went straight back to my house. Just remembered that there are some things I really need to do. After this I left Hanna alone. Several times I thought that there was actually something strange so far. I feel like all of this just came out of nowhere and I still don't believe it myself. To where my annoyance came from, now all I see is a world where everyone is in their own line and nothing is past that. The beginning I felt was quite strange, even now I feel like this is no different from the dark times. When I returned to my house and slowly I remembered one more important thing, at that moment I couldn't believe that something strange had happened. When I tried to wake up and see everything clearly, I felt that this might not be so bad compared to the others. At first I felt that everything would just end like that and it turned out to be a lie. I'm starting to not understand all this and instead it just leaves other things behind. I try to keep believing. When I returned home, it was like entering my real world. This time I lay down on the sofa while continuing to monitor the messages that came to my cellphone. Hanna always talked about events and over time I also started to get interested because of that.
"Wow, it's not bad after all," I muttered.
Meanwhile, right now this is exactly where Hanna is. Even though she is still in this place, Hanna is seen sitting playing with her cell phone. There were also lots of people coming and quite a few of them were quite noisy. However, Hanna was not at all bothered by such an environment. Now Hanna looked calmer than before and not long after that a blonde woman with a charming appearance came over to Hanna. The woman seemed happy when she met Hanna. Likewise, Hanna was surprised by the woman's arrival right before her eyes.
“Wow, it's been a long time Hanna. How are you?" asked the woman.
“Ah, I'm fine, as you can see now I'm really fine. Then what about you?”
“I'm the same as you. It turns out you still live in this city."
"Yes. I'm stuck here. Even though I really want to go."
“Why do you feel trapped?”
“Because there's nothing I can do here.”
“I see. At least you went to campus as usual, right? At least it's better than just keeping quiet."
“What you said is true. Honestly, I used to think that too. By the way, where have you been all this time?”
“I spend a lot of time being myself.”