Backyard. Whenever I feel a little bored with some things, I come to this place to relieve that boredom. At this time, I saw something that looked interesting. Just like spring. This place always gives a very peaceful impression. I feel that I would most likely be very happy if I were here. After that, I also wondered why there were only a few flowers growing and they also looked like wild flowers. My face, which radiated the light of happiness, slowly became brighter and at that moment I felt very happy. There is a little hope that I can make myself feel a pleasant sensation like this every day. At that moment I felt that there was a big possibility that I could also do something like that if I really intended to do it. From here I started something very important. I feel that the truth is real and I dare to do many things because I have my own courage. Now I just sit there and don't really care about it at all. I myself was surprised and in reality it turned out to be the same. There is not a single difference. Slowly I began to understand the current situation. If none of that happened, I think I would just be in this beautiful light. Slowly I returned to indecision and strangely it couldn't escape. Currently, Liona and I are picking some wild flowers in this park. I saw Liona who was cheerful and full of enthusiasm. Until finally we sat down again and then talked to each other again. Really fun atmosphere. I feel that this is really my life. I can't stop thinking about this anymore. I feel very happy. For a moment, I also thought that maybe what I was worried about was actually there or vice versa. I feel like something is wrong lately. Mistakes that I didn't understand at all and several times even made me wonder. At that time I was thinking and couldn't sleep soundly. This time I also saw some of the activities carried out by them and that also made me feel a thrilling sensation. It feels like our lives just keep spinning like this. As if no miracle could come and change some of this boredom. Sometimes I really want to get out of here and I also realize that if for example I leave, I don't have a place there. That thought continues to haunt me to this day.
"Wow, the flowers are a little weak," said Liona.
"Weak?"
"Yes. Looks like there's not enough water. "Then I should water a lot in this garden."
“Ah, you're right. "It turns out it's actually lacking in nutrition."
"Hey, why are you only thinking about it now huh?"
"What?"
"Why didn't you come and play in the back garden yesterday? I'm starting to forget the memories here."
“I also just remembered today. Looks like we should come here more often.”
"You are right. But, it's strange why the other children don't want to come here?"
“How do you know that?”
“I once talked about this park and apparently they didn't seem interested. That's why I'm lazy when I talk about it."
“Maybe they just aren't interested. Different from the two of us."
"Yes. I think there's some truth to it. Oh yes, I once dreamed that I saw a girl walking in the middle of a field of flowers. Her face is very beautiful with a smile that is so charming. I, who saw it clearly, was amazed. But, it was just a dream.”
"Wow, your dream is very beautiful, isn't it."
“I thought it was more confusing than beautiful.”
“Confusing what?”
“I looked at the girl as if she was trying to tell me something. I feel the code. It's just that I also don't understand what the girl means. in dreams everything is just imagination and I don't really think about it myself."
“Ah, I see.”
“What do you think that means?”
"I don't know. What is clear is that it might just be a dream. You don't have to sink into thinking like that.”
"Yes. I think so too. I think the more I come here, the more thoughts I have. I don't know why it suddenly happened. Could this be due to the process of self-maturation?"
"I can't say yes or no."
"Hah? So, how is it?"
“I don't know. I think you're just thinking too much about something that's not important. That's why you ended up in a dream."
"Yeah, right?"
“But, maybe there is some truth in it if it wasn't just a dream. Just a hint."
“Pointer?”
"Yes."
“Wow, it turns out you two are here. I thought anywhere. "I've been looking for a long time and it turns out it's here," said someone from behind who was none other than Ella.
"Oh, you came here too," said Liona.
"What are you doing here?"
“We just picked flowers and talked. Do you want to join?"
"Gosh, you guys shouldn't be here."
"Why?" we said in unison.
"Sister will be angry if you know."
"Hah? You're right."
"That's right. I myself heard that the nurse recently forbade anyone from coming here and I also don't understand the reason why it's not allowed. "Anyway, let's go before anyone sees," said Ella, pulling both of our hands.
Honestly, I've never heard of this ban. I'm always in a zone that I never knew I had. This time it felt the same. When we had returned and were now gathered in a seat on the terrace. I myself still continue to question this and slowly I am starting to try to swallow and no longer need to ask questions that are not very clear. Even so, I also feel like I've experienced this kind of situation. I felt something confusing again. Liona was still babbling and didn't seem to believe Ella's words.
"Why don't you believe me?" Ella said to Liona in a slightly annoyed tone.
"Because I've never heard of that rule."
“Hey, listen to me carefully. Actually, lately I also don't understand why so many facilities are limited. I was also disappointed because a few days ago the library on the top floor, which was usually freely open, was now not allowed to go there. As if they were hiding something. Believe it or not but that's the fact.”
“Then why?”
“What, why? Of course we can't enjoy life.”
"For a long time, it was like prison," I said spontaneously.
“You're right Isabella. "I agree with that," Ella said to me.
"What are you two talking about?"
Now I'm with both of them. Although actually I don't know for sure what I said earlier, I just feel that there has been something strange lately. I feel that way now and the more I think about it. This time we were all on the terrace and not long after that we remembered that it would soon be time for lunch. We quickly came to the dining room and after that I saw the other people who had been there earlier. At that moment I felt that this time there was something I had to do. When I came back with those thoughts, I also felt a little strangeness that kept following me and I couldn't forget it. This time I muttered to myself and as if I was trying to convince something inside me. Until I felt a little relieved that there was actually nothing wrong with all of this and it was just my worry. Recently, I also felt curious about what Ella said this afternoon. I always want to know many things. Although in fact it might not be important at all. Apart from that, I also felt that if something went wrong with this situation, I thought about just running away. The thoughts that came into my head were just that and slowly began to take me into an imagination that felt real. I thought again that maybe this wasn't just a prohibition but actually had a purpose. Until I really wanted to find the clue and then my curiosity began to be satisfied. Arriving at my room, I sat back in the chair and this time I intended to write my diary. It's time for me to do this activity again to save a lot of my daily memories in this book. Not long after, apparently Ella had just come into this room and from the appearance of this child, it seemed like she was frustrated.
"You are okay?" I asked Ella.
"Yes. I think I'm very good. Yes, very good.”
"What have you been up to?"
“Ah, there are some duties from the nurse. It wasn't supposed to be for me but because I happened to be nearby it was given to me."
"Oh I see. Is it finished now?"
"Yes. It's finished."
“Oh yes, this is what you said this afternoon. Actually I want to find out what you said. If there really is a rule like that, why don't you ever say the reason? Isn't that strange?”
"How do I know what the reason is. "What is clear is that at that time I accidentally heard it, maybe it was just a fragment of the actual conversation."
I fell silent again. As if all this leads to one very important thing. Previously, when I was little I often felt something was wrong from time to time. Unfortunately at that time I didn't have the strong desire to find out. Until finally I just forgot all about it and never found out anything. However, currently the situation is different. I was no longer a child at that time. Now I'm very sure of what I thought and it's possible that it's true. Only time remains to determine. Evening has come, even now I'm still writing in my diary until my eyes start to get sleepy.
'I want to sleep,' I muttered to myself. While rubbing his eyes.