Time keeps moving. Even so, I still think about one very important thing. Not only that, I felt that something was actually wrong. I've had this feeling over and over again and don't know why it feels like it's not just an imagination. This time I really felt there was something wrong with some things in this place. As long as I've lived here, I've never felt anything strange before and I don't know why. When I saw one of my friends who suddenly got sick, even at that time I couldn't do anything. I immediately started to feel something was wrong. Even now, I still don't know any news about the child and it feels strange that no one has asked about the child. When I asked Ella about this too, it turned out that the child didn't know at all. Slowly I felt sure something was going on but didn't know what it was. Now I woke up again and actually I couldn't sleep. I felt uncomfortable and repeatedly woke up from my sleep. I feel like something is bothering me right now. As soon as I looked at the clock it turned out it was still midnight. Immediately I felt that there was something wrong with me and slowly I started to feel uncomfortable about this. Often I feel something like this and don't know why the atmosphere seems to take me into something I never expected before. I feel like someone has brought me into this strange thing and I don't know why it feels like I can't get out of it. I've tried many things and it turns out it's the same. As if it wouldn't bring any change to me. I also had time to ask myself and until now it turns out it's the same and that really makes me annoyed. I kept thinking to myself that maybe my premonition had led me into some pretty strange situations. That same day I saw the nurses entering their special room, at that time I accidentally saw this and strangely enough they seemed to be trying so that no one saw. Even though I actually witnessed this, I tried not to be seen by them and also not to say this to anyone, including my two friends. Until now, I am still haunted by curiosity. When I tried again to close my eyes and rest, I felt unsuccessful. Once again I was just trying to stay calm and not have to wake up my roommate.
"Why can't I always sleep?" I muttered.
This time I really couldn't sleep and kept thinking about several things that had recently happened to me. I felt there was something even pulling me there. Until I thought about it for once. I also hope that if I could handle all this well, maybe I would feel very happy. It turns out it was useless and even now I'm still like this. Such a quiet night. I only heard the sound of the clock ticking and nothing else besides that. Even I felt like I was in a different world. The next morning. When Ella woke up and not long after that she saw me who had just woken up too. Right now I have just woken up from my sleep but actually I am still not satisfied with resting. My eyes still feel tired but I can't just stay here. The nurses will be angry and maybe they can take me to their room and scold me. After I tried to collect myself, I saw Ella, who was apparently ready to start this morning. Meanwhile I still wanted to be in bed because previously I woke up at night and had a hard time getting back to sleep.
“Aren't you going to shower?” Ella asked me.
"Soon."
“Hey, how long are you going to keep going like this? Get up quickly and take a shower."
“Wait a little longer.”
“By the way, there is something I want to ask you.”
"What?"
"You didn't sleep all night?"
“Ah, about that. I just woke up in the middle of the night and had trouble sleeping. That is it."
"It turns out your illness keeps recurring, right?"
"What's the disease?"
“I mean your habits.”
"Are you ready?"
"Yes. How long are you going to lie down like that? Fast wake. Good grief. Do you want to get angry, nurse?"
“I don't care about that anymore.”
"Hah? What are you saying?"
“I think there's one thing that's been bothering me.”
Even though I've said things like that to Ella, I still don't think I believe whether what I'm feeling actually makes sense or if it's the opposite. On the one hand, I really feel very annoyed about this. But on the other hand, I just hope that maybe I can find a clue that I might be able to believe. There are only a few things that are the reasons why I continue like this and none of them are the same. This time I walked and then went to the bathroom. I already feel better than before and now I'm ready to start the day too. After finishing, I went together with Ella and now I also saw the others. They seemed very enthusiastic in contrast to me who felt very lazy. Not long after that I also joined the others for breakfast. After I enjoyed this busy morning, suddenly my worries came back. I tried to restrain myself and it felt uncomfortable. Every now and then I have to restrain myself and it turns out that until I feel much better it actually becomes very clear. Ella looked back at me as if she felt something was wrong with me. In the end, I'll just be honest.
“By the way, I'm curious about that friend who has been sick for a long time. until now there is still no news. What do you think his condition is like?"
"Are you still worried about that person?"
"Yes. I haven't heard from that person for a long time. It would be very strange if there was no news like this. Aren't we all family?”
“Ah, when it comes to that I also feel a little strange. But I don't want to interfere. I think there is a reason perhaps.”
"Reason?"
"Yes. It's like keeping your health condition a secret so as not to worry others. I think it might be possible. I also do not know. That's just my guess.”
"Let me just ask, okay?"
"Up to you."
The day feels very short. I feel that there is actually something strange about all this. My thoughts returned to something quite important. At that time I was very annoyed by this strangeness. I feel that this will only lead me into quite strange situations. I felt that way and as if I was fed up with everything. At the same time, I was annoyed by this. Slowly I returned to going through all the days calmly. As if I felt like I never cared about some of the things that happened. This time I noticed something different from usual. I felt something that was quite strange. At that moment I felt a little disappointed and there was even something else. I was a little disappointed about that. Now I just sit there and just watch what they have been doing lately. At that time I also expected myself and everything always sucked. This time I tried to find out for myself some of the things I really wanted to know. I always ask myself that too and now I just need to explore it further. From now on I started to move on my own. My curiosity pushed me to do it. I also know that something might go wrong and I don't care about any of that. After I finished my activities for today, I returned calmly and after that I just remembered that now I also want to go somewhere. I slowly walked down a hallway and now I intended to go to the room Liona had previously invited me to. Arriving at this place, I took a deep breath and felt at peace. This time I sat right in one of the seats here. After I walked around, that's when I felt a little surprised. No one dared to come here except me and Liona. This seems very strange. Some things that have been seen, it all feels like a puzzle. I also don't know what some of the nurses who looked after us actually did. At first I just thought that they were good people and kept trying to make all the children at this foundation happy. Apart from that, I am increasingly convinced that everyone here is like a savior. But, slowly I also felt a little curious about something. Not only that, I also asked about friends who were sick and there was no news until now, strangely they always said the same thing. As if no one should know.
"Oh, it turns out you're here," said someone from behind. That person was none other than Liona.
“Ah, it's you. Who do I think.”
"Are you bored?"
"Yes. that's it. I guess I have a lot on my mind right now. Is this going to go away, huh?”
"What were you thinking that made you look so tired?"
“I just didn't do anything. it's strange."
“Ah, damn. I'm even confused."
“You yourself must be the same. That's why you came here?”
"Yes. I'm bored out there. I think this is indeed a suitable place to relieve frustration.”
"It's quite effective too."
“Isn't that right? Wow then I'm relieved."