Today feels so strange. Since there were a lot of things stuck in my head, I felt something that was really uncomfortable. Different from before, now everything feels so tense. Today, I went for a walk around the park near here again. The sun shone brightly as if to welcome me warmly. I haven't been this relaxed in a long time. Time goes by and everything is the same. Today I didn't see Liona. At the same time, I also feel that something is strange lately. Just kept going like that until my curiosity peaked. A different situation from before. This time I moved a step away from confusing things. However, my heart still felt uncomfortable. Several things might happen. I've forgotten so much. At the same time, I also couldn't avoid all of this as if there were some strange things that were coming. This bright morning slowly began to make me feel like I was under darkness. Not long after, I walked slowly and after that I saw several other people sitting and they seemed very happy. Every now and then I want to ask them something, strangely I feel uneasy and then leave again. That's how I feel. Many things have been missed and I am still a coward among many geese. The dream I missed, I don't know why I feel like I want to see it again. Usually I can't accept nightmares that have so many question marks like that and now I really miss that kind of thing. It's strange, but I can find out various things that are in my imagination right now. This time I walked slowly again and not long after I saw Ella who was with the nurse. From the look on the child's face, it looked like he felt guilty and not long afterward he started to lower his gaze. I felt a little curious and tried to eavesdrop on what they were talking about there. This time I can't miss this important thing. From a distance I already thought something was happening. Usually the child always looks cheerful and as if nothing is bothering him. This time I saw something different from the child. The Ella I know has always been someone who complains a lot but never gives up. Today I watched a show I never understood. It was as if there was a wall blocking me and that actually made me feel a little disappointed. After looking at it several times, now I really wanted to go to Ella who was standing there and it turned out that the nurse immediately left. This is my chance to ask something.
"Ella," I said cheerfully. While waving.
“Oh, Isabella. You're here too apparently."
"Yes. What a coincidence I was passing by and I saw you here. What are you doing?" I asked pretending to ask that. I see this kid's eyes are quite good at hiding secrets.
"Actually, I just met the nurse."
"What?"
"Don't be so surprised. I was only called because my performance was said to be declining. Do you know what this means?”
"No. So what?"
"Good grief. That means I will get punished. If I am punished, how can I have a chance of being adopted by a good family.”
“Eh? You still expect something like that?”
"Of course. We all lived in orphanages and you know what happened after? We must be adopted. That's what we live for here. Have you forgotten that important thing and become complacent because you already live a fairly comfortable life?" said Ella, screaming a little.
"Excuse me. But what you said is not wrong. I think I admit it too. It's just that it's not easy to get that right and just because it's a matter of being punished I don't think it will have any effect. Turns out I was wrong, huh?"
"Good grief. My head hurts so much. Yeah, I don't really know either. I just don't want to be labeled ugly. Just that."
"Okay. I understand. By the way, if no one wants to adopt me, can I live here forever?"
"Hah? If it's about that, maybe it can be done."
“Or do you have to leave because you're old enough?”
“Hey, I don't know. You can ask the nurse directly about the problem. Don't ask me.”
"I don't want to."
"Hah? So what?"
"I don't believe what they say."
"What are you saying? You're so strange."
“There's nothing strange about me. I just followed what my heart said."
“Wow. Interesting. It turns out you've developed quite a bit, Isabella. Unlike me, there are still many things I'm afraid of. Will this stay forever lodged in me? Oh damn.”
“I don't think so. You can change whenever you want.”
Even though I said a few things to Ella, it felt like this child was indeed in trouble. I already thought that everything would be like this. I can't keep pressuring this kid to be frank with me. If you think about it, it won't be any use. His attitude tends to be temperamental and there are lots of other scary things, I don't think he can give me the answer that I really want. So far I have never insulted anyone and I will never do that in my life. If I could live longer, I think I would be very happy and continue to feel happy throughout my life. But, there's something stuck. One day passed. Now I'm still the same as before. I didn't do any activities this time and just watched what other people were doing. It feels a little empty. When I came to the room, the atmosphere seemed different because Liona was not here with me. Again I feel bored. It had been three days since the child was still nowhere to be seen. I keep wondering and the more things I think about. After this I returned to my room and it turned out there were still things that kept bothering me. I want to know what Liona is doing right now. But I also don't know where Liona is.
"Unlucky. So boring," I muttered.
Unconsciously, it was getting dark. This time several people who were still in the front yard immediately returned to their respective rooms. Meanwhile, Ella, who was seen walking towards her room, accidentally ran into the nurse who had previously criticized Ella. Her heart felt a little depressed and not long after, the nurse passed by calmly and ignored Ella. Quickly, when this happened, Ella felt a little relieved and now ran towards the room. When she arrived, Isabella was surprised by the arrival of Ella, who looked like she had been attacked by a ghost. The eyes that looked full of pressure made him even more curious.