Right now I feel something that just came out of nowhere. It all seemed to come quickly and then made me feel uncomfortable. After I think back, it felt like I was above the clouds and after that I was confused about how to go down. This strange thought really bothers me even now. I tried to stay calm and it turned out that all of this only made me feel more complicated. Several other things also appeared and as time went on they made me wonder more and more. I really don't know why I am like this now. The sun, which previously looked bright, is now starting to set. This day passed quickly. My eyes were slowly starting to feel uncomfortable. Suddenly I felt the same thing too. When I started to look like this, there were several things that continued to bother me. I don't know why it feels like this feeling comes with a specific purpose and I always feel crazy. Some of these strange things still accompany me and until now I can't overcome all this. I felt there was something else and when that happened, I also couldn't understand all this. Slowly I started to hate this and it turns out that this is indeed useful. I feel as if now I'm really crazy. Suddenly I woke up and then looked around. Some things that were previously very strange have now become shadows around me. I myself can't handle all this because it's quite strange. Many reasons and even so on. I hoped for myself to get out of this strange situation and it turned out that it never happened. I couldn't understand it myself and now I don't know how. Just imagining it makes me confused. I saw Ella walking out of this room and suddenly I remembered something quite important. Recently I was told to come to one of the rooms that Liona and I usually always go to. When the child told me earlier, I was in the knitting room with Liona. This time I felt a little doubtful and I slowly tried to stay calm. If what I'm worried about is true, I feel like I can't do anything even in times of crisis. I really suck. I think I have the right to say such things to myself. After this, I arrived at the room and then saw Liona who was playing the piano.
"You come too Isabella," Liona said to me.
"Yes. I'm definitely coming."
"Hey, why do you look so tense?"
“Ah, I guess I was afraid that we would be found out. What if that happens?”
"Don't worry. No one will know. Oh yeah, I just discovered something.”
"What do you mean?"
“This is the doll I found.”
“Wait, this is just like what that guy has.”
"That person?"
"Yes. Our friend is sick."
“Ah, you're right. I just remembered that. but why is it here?”
“Uh, I don't know. Didn't you find it?"
"Correct. but this looks strange, doesn't it?”
"Actually there are many things I want to ask you."
At first I didn't expect this at all. Slowly I also felt strange. If something were to happen, I can't imagine how dangerous it would be. However, here I can't just sit there and do nothing. My thoughts still haven't changed. If I think about a lot of things all this time I will just become stressed. At the same time, I can't accept all of this. Strange facts and several other things actually made me feel curious. This time I walked slowly and instantly around this room. I didn't find anything suspicious at all. After I started thinking again, it felt like I was always worrying about something that was uncertain. There were a lot of things I shouldn't have thought about and it turned out to be the opposite. Liona who looks like she's having fun reminds me of something. At that moment I felt that something had happened. I still can't remember everything now because there are a lot of things I've forgotten. Memories that have been used up and strangely I don't remember what happened when I was little. The memories seemed to fade by themselves. I also felt useless because I couldn't look after it like a very valuable item. Even if I try, it still tastes the same. There's nothing different.
"What do you want to ask me Isabella?" asked Liona who then looked at me with a serious look.
“I don't remember my childhood. Isn't it very strange? I should be able to remember all the memories that have happened and I think I might also feel very happy because I can live in this environment.”
“Why do you suddenly want to remember the past?”
“Ah, that's because I want to know. What I've been through in my life."
"Then, you just have to try to remember it, right? Why are you asking me?”
"Because I can't do it."
"What?"
"I also do not know. I think there's something.”
When I said what was in my head, at that moment I felt guilty. I can't believe I've always been like this lately. At this time I just didn't want to say anything strange and after that I kept quiet while pretending to be fine. Liona seems increasingly surprised by me, I also feel the same way. All this time, I myself couldn't find the answer I really wanted. I feel very doubtful about many things and keep hoping that things are different. For a moment I took a deep breath and not long after that I changed the topic again. This time Liona seemed to smile.
"It seems like you're not the only one who feels strange because you don't remember your childhood. Because I can't remember either.”
"What are you saying?"
“I don't know why either. It felt like I had just been reborn and after that I just did what I was assigned to do. I don't know how I got here and I don't know where I came from. Are they all the same?”
"Wait, you're not lying, are you?"
"Why would I lie? I just said everything honestly.”
“This is very strange. Maybe something has happened."
“You still think that? I think we should just forget it and live in peace.”