This time I intend to be braver than before. After I think back, I feel like I'm just a loser. When I started to smell something suspicious, don't know why it felt like I couldn't move my legs. Right now I see a very strange situation. It's been a long time since Liona came back, I also remember that person who said he was sick and had to be taken to the treatment room and until now he still doesn't know what happened. I feel curious about that. After I heard something very surprising, I became even more convinced that there was actually something wrong here. I can't see clearly even though I'm here alone now. As soon as I closed my eyes, it felt like I was still thinking about that thing. I feel that this is actually something strange since I myself am still curious about some of the things out there. The last time I met the nurse, at that time I still couldn't take the action I should have taken. Every second, I have a lot of thoughts and they keep bothering me. It's been so long that I can't stop thinking about one thing. A few days ago, when I was curious again, over time I felt more and more surprised. At the same time, I couldn't stop thinking about all this. At first I thought maybe I would just forget about the ending. It turns out I was wrong all this time. The more I remember, it feels like I can't think in any way at the moment. Different from what I've been feeling lately, which is easy to forget. I just feel that everything is different. I don't know why this always happens to me. Until now I hate the whole world. It can't be avoided if everything always stays like this. Not long after, I looked in the mirror and all I saw was myself starting to look shabby. Very far from usual. Now things are getting tough. After paying attention for a long time, I also had time to ask myself about everything that happened. It turns out there is no answer to all of that. Even when my eyes saw this world for the first time, I also don't remember anything. Nothing makes me feel happy. When I started to grow, at that time there was nothing amazing at all. When I was haunted by many terrible things, more and more I felt like I no longer knew what to do. After this I walked through the corridor. As soon as I saw one of the people carrying something, at first glance it was like seeing the scene in my dream at that time.
'What was I thinking? I don't have to think about anything,' I muttered to myself.
After I felt tired of this world, more and more I felt that if only I left quickly maybe I would never regret it. My feelings were mixed with the resentment that I had been harboring for so long. Not only that, I also feel like I can't live by just not knowing anything. In fact, I have never set foot outside this fortress. Not long after, I arrived right in front of a room that was similar to the door in my dream. Again, it keeps going in that direction. Immediately I felt a little goosebumps when I remembered that.
"What are you doing here?" Someone said in a loud tone and when I turned around, it turned out to be the head nurse.
“Ah, I accidentally walked here. "It's like I'm lost," I said stutteringly.
"Come back."
“Oh, yeah.”
“You don't have to be here.”
“Eh?”
“Didn't you hear? Isabella!”
"Good. I'll excuse myself," I said as I turned around and immediately left.
'Unlucky. Why is there a nurse here. Even though I want to know what I saw in my dream, why can it exist in the real world? Annoying,' I muttered to myself. Immediately I also looked back because I felt a little strange.
Meanwhile, right now in another room. Ella is drawing something. It can be seen from the face that reflects pleasure. Apart from that, Ella is also useful for something. Different from usual. Today was quite tiring but also very happy. Several times Ella received praise from the nurse because the pictures she made were really good. Nothing can beat Ella's work. However, not long after that, Ella remembered the day everything turned gray. That day, the day it all started. Not long after, Ella fell silent and did not continue with the picture that Ella was currently making. The previously bright facial appearance has now changed drastically. When everything seems like fun, it quickly becomes the opposite. There are a lot of strange things out there. Many bad memories have been revealed. Now it only makes the wounds that have been closed start to open again. Different from what is in front of your eyes, when all this becomes reality, it all only exists in your imagination. Stored tightly. Like Pandora, once opened everything that is beautiful becomes unsightly. It had been a long time since then and now the nightmares were coming more quickly. Ella then got up from her seat and now left the room again.
“Hey. Why did you just leave like that?” I said to Ella.
“I have something on my mind.”
"What are you thinking about?"
"This I can't tell."
"Does not matter. You don't have to tell me.”
"Oh yeah, do you remember that day?"
"What day?"
“When we were 8 years old.”
"No. I don't remember those times. Why are you asking me that?"
"No. It is nothing."
"There is something strange?"
"That..."
"Wait, if you think about it, I don't remember my childhood either. Strange isn't it? I only remember when I was getting treatment."
"What? Can you say more?”
“I don't remember clearly. It's just that at that time I was taken to the doctor's office and after that I forgot. Maybe I'll get treatment."
Ella immediately fell silent when she heard what I said. I was surprised that this person would say something like this to me. At the same time, I also thought that maybe this had something to do with what I had been looking for. But strangely I felt doubtful even though I actually wanted to know many things. Apart from that, I'm also curious why Liona, who is usually my friend, isn't there anymore, as if she's just disappeared. When something just comes to mind, it seems like it actually prevents me from moving any more. After this I continued to be amazed.
'What is this?' I muttered to myself.