I could see the meaning in the look on the head nurse's face who was actually telling us both to leave. At that time, Liona and I immediately left there. Slowly I felt an unusual sensation as if everything had suddenly come to grip me sadistically. At that moment I felt short of breath. After that, the two of us still discussed several things related to activities in this place. It felt very strange when I heard Liona's previous words. This person felt trapped and honestly everyone our age felt that way. For a moment I was silent and then it made Liona feel surprised. I came back with full thoughts and now we went to the hall. At that moment, I forgot that there was actually an activity that I was supposed to do. After I remembered that, I quickly left. Meanwhile, Liona was silent and gloomy and not long after that, Liona saw someone who then asked Liona about the head nurse. At that time, Liona immediately told the person and took the person to meet the nurse who then sent the person along. Liona left the place again and was now seen heading down the hall. Arriving at the hall, this time no one appeared and not long after that Liona also went straight back to the rest room. I'm still in one of the rooms where I now have to deal with various objects that are like these valuable items. Actually, I feel a little annoyed because I have skills in crafting and I have to take part in several activities like this. It feels tiring. When I see other people's work, I feel a little disappointed in myself. Previously I just made what I thought and didn't intend to make something much better than them. This is indeed very different and strange. Today, there are many things that make me feel that life is not that bad. I felt a little relieved before I finally felt slapped by Ella's words. This person doesn't seem to want to say things that don't disturb his mind. When I heard the words that came out of Ella's mouth, I didn't like it a little, but slowly when I thought back, what I just said wasn't wrong. However, I really want to know all the things I never knew. All this time I only wrote my wishes in my diary and never told anyone about this. I still don't have the confidence to admit that.
"They said a foreigner had come to see the head nurse," said Ella while sitting on the bed.
"What? Who?"
"Don't know. What is clear is that this person is an outsider. I think there's a new child or maybe someone among all of us will have a family."
“How can you be that sure that someone will come just because of those two things?”
"Yes. Easy. What else would a foreigner do if it wasn't for that kind of purpose. After all, everyone hopes so, right? Nobody wants to stay here forever. Including myself. This is just my confession."
"I understand that. It's just that it's not easy for us to get out of this place. It seems quite impossible.”
"Why do you think so pessimistically?"
“I just imagined it. Apart from that, I've never heard of any of us going and getting a new family. Well, at least I haven't heard that in a while.”
"Good grief. My head hurts so much."
"Really? How about going to the infirmary?”
"No need. Soon it will definitely heal again. It's true that when I think about it, I also feel annoyed. Why should it be like this? I'm so bored never going around the city, no, that's not all. I also want to go to school like ordinary people.”
“No matter how many times you say everything you want, it feels like nothing will change.”
"You are right. that's not fair at all.”
"Since when is it fair?"
"Never happen."
"You still read that novel?"
"Yes. Still not finished. Why? Do you want to take it from me?"
"No. I'm just asking."
“Hey, why is this place all filled with women? Why are there no men?”
“Don't ask me. I also do not know. And to be honest, I've been wondering about that for a long time.”
"Is it true? Why didn't you tell me?”
“I told you just now.”
"Ah never mind. I am dizzy."
“Maybe there's something behind it.”
"You think too negatively."
It's true, so far I don't know why everyone in this place is all women. Not a single man. After I think about it, it's very likely that this is specifically for all women only. I tried not to think about silly things like this and after that I said several other things to Ella. This person also kept talking to me until it didn't feel like we had been talking for an hour. Sometimes time is not important and sometimes I also feel that every day time goes by and I don't even feel it at all. Even now it turns out it's still the same.
"If, for example, you were allowed to go on holiday or something, where would you go?" Ella asked. This person's questions continued to go in an incoherent direction.
“Maybe I'll go to a crowded place. A place where there are lots of people and then go to a place with lots of books like a library or just take a walk. How about you?"
“I think I want to go to the beach after that shopping. There is nothing more enjoyable for women than shopping.”
“How do you know that?”
“I know from the sentence fragments in the novel. Have I ever felt that? Never."
"Yes. It turns out your wishes are different from mine."
"Of course. There's no way it will be the same. Because every person is actually different.”
"You are right. nothing is the same.”
"Yes. That's why I still don't understand why the nurse forbids us all from going out, even if it's just for a holiday. Don't they feel bored or something? Don't tell me they don't care at all about how we really feel?”
"How could it be."
"So what?"
"Good grief. I don't know the reason why either. This is just my assumption, maybe so we can stay here and study.”
"Hah? What kind of command is that? It sucks."
"Please swear. All the same there will be no miracles.”
“Ah, damn. I'm dizzy with life here.”
When I think about some things that are even quite disturbing, I feel like this is the first time I've deliberately sunk into confusion like this. To be honest there are some other things that even I don't understand at all even though I try to understand them. I feel a little bad at this. As soon as I heard what Ella said, it felt like the child was saying something quite reasonable. So far I have never thought about such a desire at all. On the other hand, I also feel a little curious about something. After I talked to Ella, apparently I realized that I would have to have dinner soon. When I took part in this activity together with the others, I felt happy because they were all always cheerful and even cracked lots of jokes. I could feel their sincerity and not long after that I saw that the stranger looked like he was just about to leave here. That person was none other than a man together with a mature woman who appeared to be a couple. I paid a little attention to them for a moment, because there was something that made me feel very curious. After that, they immediately left and suddenly I could no longer see the two people. The two of them left without taking anyone from here with them. At this time, my mind was again led into a confusing puzzle. I still think about that and now I even feel unfocused when I want to study. Ella then looked at me with an astonished look and it made me very surprised. After that, I went back to continuing the lesson I was studying tonight. Ella is seen playing with several books, which is always like that. This time I felt a little unconcentrated and ended up feeling really annoyed. Ella then approached me and it turned out that this person was also curious about what was happening to me at the moment. Ella's eyes seemed to be trying to threaten me to explain everything.
"What is it?" I asked Ella while rubbing my face.
“You seem very tormented. I saw you earlier as if you were thinking about something. What were you thinking that would interfere with your studies like that?"
“Ah, it's not a big deal. So don't worry.”
"Is it true? I don't think so. What is this?"
"Hey, did you see a stranger come here this afternoon?"
“You mean this place? to this foundation?”
"Yes. Where else."
"Ah, I didn't see. So what?"
"They seem to have something to do with this place."
“Then what's the problem? Does that have anything to do with what you're thinking right now?”
"Yes. Unfortunately it has something to do with it."
"What's that? You just make me curious. Tell me quickly, don't let me die of curiosity."
Even though I was really hesitant about saying this to Ella, apparently this person always told me to say everything. Ella was just silent as if she was thinking about something too. Not long after that, I gave up on this and then closed my textbook and just wanted to sleep. Ella then started saying several things that only made me think even more. This person has quite a wide imagination and sometimes that just adds to the burden. I felt like nothing was right and right then and there I started to decide to just forget about it and then sleep.