Right now, when a lot of people are somewhere. At that moment Tiana saw that there were several people who were indeed gathered and they seemed to be waiting for something. When she started to be curious about this, Tiana immediately approached them and at that time Tiana saw that they were only surrounded by sellers of idol artist knick-knacks. As soon as she found out about it, Tiana immediately left because she wasn’t interested in that kind of thing. Finally Tiana just checked her cellphone and walked away leaving the crowd of people at this time. And this time it’s at my place of work, now I’ve completed a few photo shoots today and many have complimented me well. At that time I also felt happy with what they said and even made me feel more comfortable working in this place. I felt that all this time it was just a fad and apparently after accepting all their offers, I realized at this moment that this wasn’t so bad after all. When I’ve done all my work, now I decide to go home and rest again. It turns out that all of this is enough to make me feel tired even though it ‘s just posing and taking pictures. On the way home, I felt that everything that happened today was pretty good and I felt good about it. Besides that, I saw one person I did know. That person is now sitting right in a coffee shop and I slowly approached that person. Apparently when I saw him, at that moment that person saw me and in fact immediately waved his hand at me at this time. In the end I got together with this person and then talked about a lot of things that it’s been a long time since I talked much about some of the issues that are like today. I feel that this is part of the comfort.
“It’s been a long time huh. How are you Julie?” this person asked me casually.
“I think I’m pretty good now. How about you, Nora?”
“Yes. I guess I’m pretty good too. But, I hear you’re getting lots of offers for photo shoots? Wow why don’t you try walking on the catwalk?”
“Actually I’ve been thinking about it a lot but I’m still a little considerate.”
“I see. I understand what you’re saying.”
“And now what are you doing? I hear you also get a lot of offers to sing in expensive places like that.”
“Yes. That’s also because there are several projects that I’m currently working on. So far no problems whatsoever. Are you the same as me?”
“It’s the same. I also predict there are several reasons that I really can’t say clearly because this would be a bit ambiguous actually.”
“Okay. You shouldn’t say what you don’t like. Oh yeah, how about your studies?”
“That too went well. No obstacles at all. How about you?
“Yes. If it’s about me, I already know that you’re sure to ask and I’m also going smoothly. God, even though this does drive me to the verge of madness.”
“At least you don’t feel completely crazy.”
“Yes. That is very correct. Sometimes I think like that too.”
They are still talking about the same thing. The moment when a person begins to feel a discrepancy between what he wants and some things that are really strange. I see that there are many walls that separate the mind from some existing reality. I also feel that the few times I’ve watched everything feels the same. Once looked a few times and tried to tell myself what it was all about and in reality it was just utter nonsense and in fact nothing was real at all. I’ve noticed a few other strange things that it wasn’t long before I also felt that this was actually no different from a lot of things that happened. Nara was still saying a few things that were in his head and suddenly started to see from a different side and that’s what came true. I also saw that all the things that actually happened actually turned myself into something that would really be no different from how it feels right now. During my life, I never thought that all of this would happen and all I had in mind was life as usual and nothing that looked amazing came before me. I just feel whether this will all be fine or vice versa. When Nara again said many things about what was in his head, it was as if everything was starting to sink and even I also felt some solitude going on in his mind. I also had no idea what it was all about and it turned out to be just some of his slow and even inhibited emotions. I realized a number of things that until now I have never been able to achieve and even that I can only see under circumstances that are very different from all the things that always happen. I witnessed something like that in myself and it turns out that it’s not just me but other people too.
“You know why all this could happen?” asked Nara with a look that did look strange.
“I don’t know, I don’t think about it. Why do you suddenly ask like that?”
“I was just curious from your perspective and it’s true that it never changed properly and will still be the same.”
“I also don’t understand what you’re talking about right now.”
“Hah? It’s still the same as before and I’m not saying anything else that’s different from what I’ve been talking about.”
“Is that so? Then, now what are you going to do?”
“Sleep and rest at home.”
Even though Nara said some of his questions and instead invited him into other things. At that time there were also many reasons why it suddenly became like this and after that I saw that all of this had some truth in what had been happening to me. Not long after that, I started to get up from my seat and intend to leave. I already feel tired and it’s time for me to relax at home. Likewise with Nara who then immediately left too after I intended to go too. This time there were a lot of things that made me feel aware of some realities and what should I do with them.