The annoying days passed, when I felt that all of this never ended, at that moment I felt that in reality all of this was true. When it's just me that's annoying enough, I feel a sensation that even up to this moment still clears up in my head. I even thought maybe all of this had come so fast like what other people in the film said. I hope to myself that maybe this will be a day filled with happiness that only I know. I never suspected that in reality all of that was just nonsense and none of it really quite matched what was in my mind. I wished to myself that it all ended quickly. Today, I walked through a place that is usually used by some people to just relax. I felt that there was something wrong with me and it turned out that it was true. I felt a strange sensation when I arrived at this place and not long after I saw someone who was not much different from what I had in mind before. I have met this person before and I feel that now there is something different about this person. Judging from the looks, there really are so many differences that it makes me feel like it's like a different person. I always hoped to myself that maybe all of this would pass just like many previous things and it turned out that it wasn't even like what was in my head. This time I was a bit disappointed by what I saw and it wasn't long before the man left. I suddenly wondered why that person could just leave so quickly and I felt a little irritated.
"Julie, is that you?" said someone's voice from behind me and I seem to recognize this person's voice a little. When I looked at him and it was true.
“Oh, I thought it was you. What are you doing in this place Alona?” I asked in a slightly curious tone.
“Just taking a walk. What are you doing here yourself? What's that?" he said, pointing to the thing I was carrying.
“Ah, it's just groceries.”
“You have to spend money in this place? Wow. You seem quite tasteful too.”
“I bought all of these just because there is a need. Aren't you usually the one who's always like that?”
"What?"
"No. It is nothing."
“Don't tell me there are some things that really bother you? You've been feeling a lot better before."
"Not really. I just feel that in the end things will come back like this. I feel something really unusual. Do you know why?"
"So what?"
"I feel like I'm in the midst of a silent ocean and there's only me there, no one else."
“What the hell is that? You're always using weird metaphors again. Honestly I've seen someone who seems to like you. You know who?"
"What? Do not talk nonsense. How could that happen."
“My, you doubt yourself?”
"It is true."
Alona then explained excitedly and not long after he felt that maybe there were several reasons why this person always appeared unexpectedly right in front of his eyes. I seemed to feel that there was something strange about his attitude from the direction of speech and several other strange things. I also don't know too many people clearly what's more with each other. At that time, I again felt something pressing down on my head that I couldn't even control myself. But I've been trying to stay relaxed up until this point and it turns out that's what I'm supposed to be doing even now. I don't need to show anything else in myself that will only make other people feel confused about what I'm doing and in the end everything has always been like that even up to this moment. At the same time, I felt something was wrong with me which in the end always ended up in quite unreasonable situations and usually it happened quickly. During this time, I often feel that there seems to be something strange again with my thoughts that suddenly lead to darkness. Alona is still talking and now seems to be laughing out loud when she explains about fashion tastes which have been very popular with people lately.
“Hey, you know why they are quite unique?”
"What's unique?"
“Look, here is their latest post. Wouldn't this just embarrass themselves? Very weird. Even though many people have commented that this is really bad, gosh.”
"I don't think there's anything wrong with them."
"What?"
"Look. They look comfortable in those unique outfits and there's nothing wrong with that. Why are you even judging?"
"This is not judging. I'm just saying some of my opinion. I guess it's too weird for them. That's how it should be. Models don't always match anything."
"Yes. Up to you. Just write any comments you like.”
"You're not going to join?"
"No. I don't want to write useless things like that."
“Oh yeah, have you seen the latest news? I heard that one of the models under the same label as you is currently in trouble. What really happened? You must know something."
"Oh, about that apparently. To be honest, I don't really know much about that information myself. I think you're asking the wrong person."
"No. I asked the right people. You yourself are on the same label. There's no way you wouldn't know."
"It's true that I'm on the same label and actually I've never heard of any information let alone the news."
Alona, who doubted me again, was seen on her face which was full of curiosity. This person is always like this if not told. I had a feeling this was bound to happen and it did. After I finished talking with Alona, at that moment I decided to just go back home and enjoy my alone time which was almost wasted in vain. I feel that today is a bit more tiring than usual days. I'm always in unexpected situations like this.
'Gosh, why is this so lifelike?' I thought.