Walking into the school, I was putting on a pull over, trying to cover my identity from everyone, I must definitely be recognized one way or the other. The image presented to the television station was not a new picture of mine, that was a picture I took when I still got a long curly hair which ran down the front of my face, covering my forehead. I walked past the lockers until I got to mine, opened it up, checked my lesson table for today and picked the books as I put back the ones I went home with yesterday.
Turning back, I noticed few peoples staring at me, but no, I know those ones, they're just kind of fans or something who seems to be obsessed with me, it was the girls from the junior classes, I closed back my locker and walked away from anyones view. 
I was sitting inside the class when my phone lit up, I checked the sender and it was Jack, a message from Jack, definitely wanting to know on how the date with Stella went, he's kind of into us or something, always trying to here about the story of the hottest pair in the school, that's what they call us, everyone student in the school.
I didn't open the content of the message, just checked the screen and saw something that reads like, can we see after, the rest part were dots, not showing the full content of the message, hmmm, I don't mind meeting him, he's the one that gave me the idea that I should go out with Stella anyways.
I was cautious with my moves, the image was a pretty old one, like that of two years ago or a year and few months, maybe, but the kid there doesn't look much like me, I have gotten quite mature with my look, I have been lifting weights, no longer looks skinny like before, I guess no one would recognize, except some similarities between us, only if they even saw it.
“ Hey Jack....”, I dropped my books on the desk, making it sound loud making him realize that I don't actually like our secret meetings that was only to talk about my private life, not that I have something I still have to ask about him, he's an open book.
“ I think you should go get yourself a girlfriend Jack, if you're this obsessed in hearing about me and......”, he took words away from me by only one move, raising a picture to my face, shock gripping me. I could feel my legs shake but I am trying my best to stay strong and see what he's going to do about this.
“ I saw the News last night and Mother superior wasn't looking happy, looking happy is an underrated word for her current situation, she was looking sad and broken like a mother who lost her kid....”, he said, tears gathering in his eyes while he speaks, no one was here and no one was listening, so he's letting it all out.
“ You should calm down Jack, I didn't ran away if that is what you thought.....”, “ Then what?.... Then what Jones?.... Can't you see that you are breaking Mother Superior's heart by sitting here, living and enjoying your life while she's back there suffering, looking everywhere for you, don't you have a reasonable explanation for this?....”, he kept pressing.
“ Calm down Jack, I know everything that's happening, I know how she feels, I truly don't want her to be that way, I don't want her to suffer in pain because of me, I am not intentionally putting her in that situation, there's a lot in which you can't understand.....”, “ Then make me understand Jones!..... Make me understand!....”, he cuts me off again, now going rogue as the situation intensifies.
“ Jack.... Jack.... Just, can you let this go please?, I can take care of it, I will find a way to take care of it Jack....”, “ But how?.... How are you going to when you're still here?, She's my mother Jones, you are hurting my Mother....”, “ She's my mother too Jack!.... Don't you get it?... I'm not happy seeing her like that too, what else do you think I should do?, I am trying to handle the pressure of my situation alone and you just can't understand anything about it, you only see how she feels, do you know how I feel too?, Do you even care?.... All you want to know is about my relationship Life, you don't even know what I am going through myself.....”, I screamed back at him, my sadness replaced with anger as I threw him a bit of my life on the face.
He didn't say a word more, he just got up from the place he sat, eyes looking into mine with anger rather than understanding, he opened the door and walked away from me, that's when I caught Jackie's presence outside of the door, I ran to him, holding her by the wrist, and looking down at her, she wasn't meeting my gaze, looking away from my face as she was looking down, I know how she felt, she's feeling the same way as us but she wasn't trained like the boys, she was trained like a girl, a girl who knew that she always have to keep her lips sealed.
“ Please don't hate me Jackie, it wasn't something I wanted too, it wasn't something intentional, you have to believe me, you know that she means a lot to me too, I can't just leave her just because I wanted to, there's a reason for that and it's something I can't explain about, please try to understand me ”.
Her silence was taking a toll on me, girl this days used to say how they fill and you would know whether to keep pressing with the apology, but her silence, her silence was feminine and it was eating me up, that's the power of a woman, like Mother superior taught us.