“ We have been a hell of students this term, both of us serving multiple suspensions..... Just wonderful ”.
Both of us laughed at his joke, as funny as it may sound, it's actually true, we have definitely been a hell of students this term, I wonder how it is really going in school. What are people going to say?, I know I shouldn't listen to what people are going to say about us, but there has been a rumor before, a rumor licked by Steve, saying my mum was chasing after Mr Peter, it's definitely going to resurface, and this time, Steve himself would have no control over it.
     We got to the mall, taking our time in getting things I find great for myself, he's the one to pay and this is one of the ways of asking for my forgiveness, so I am going to make sure I got a lot out from him, he knows that already because of the way I am almost packing everything in the mall.
“ I guess I brought this one upon myself ”, “ yeah..... You definitely did ”.
Steve can be a great soul when he's in good mood, I can be too, depending, but avoid getting on my bad side because I will hunt you down.
“ I guess I'm done here ”.
I carried everything I got as we went for the payment. “ Take this too, you will definitely need it from now henceforth ”. Steve gave me an iphone, a new one still on its package. I'm dumbfounded right now, he got me in the box right now, I never expected this, definitely the last thing on my mind. I thanked him this time, this was not part of my payback to him, this one came as a free gift.
     It's been a heck of a day going shopping, now I am to learn and understand my new environment, the house is so big that it is definitely going to take me some days to get used to the areas of the house. Steve helped me in getting my things in order inside the room they had prepared for me for sometime now, but I know that Steve was definitely not in support of this at first, but now here he is helping me to settle in.
     I'm now alone inside my new room, Steve is long gone after helping me with my things, I sat on the bed, folding my legs together and my hands on my face, there's always pain after pleasure, and right now, my mum is the one on my mind. I just thank God for helping me on this rocky journey of mine, if this incident had happened all of a sudden without me bracing up for it, I wonder how miserable I would have been right now. I looked further in front of me and saw my gem still as brand new as ever, a special gift left by my Dad, I can feel the side of my lips twitch higher in a wide smile as I take in the picture of the piano right before me and on the wall is his favorite suit hanged at the perfect spot where it should be.
     The suit was actually left for my mum and the piano was mine, but now, I own both but I own no parents. Tears came down rolling down my eyes as I began sobbing, if only I could feel my parents right at my sides, giving me a hug right now, that would be the greatest gift of all.
     This is it Ben, this is the tool I would need to push myself, it has been handed over to me, from now on, everything I do is on me, no one to pour my anger on, I have to begin taking responsibility of all my actions, I shouldn't be swayed by the situation that occurs around me, I should learn to blend in on any situation that comes up, that is a kind of man my father would be proud to have, that would give my mum a peace of mind that I can take on anything that is being thrown at me, mourn for your loved ones when they are out of reach and never stop respecting the dead, wake up Ben, time to pick up on this journey, they would always live in your heart, cherish what you have when they're still under your leadership and appreciate their purpose. This words have always been with me ever since my father left and right now, I guess its about time I stop playing around and wake up, time to set goals for myself, never care about those who doesn't love you and appreciate those who do, time for a new Bernard.