What is going on?, Like, what did I just saw?. He was quick to clean off traces, but I am no child to trick. I saw him clearly, he was in tears, he was in pain. Steve was not here to see his Dad broken, he went inside immediately he came off the car, I was the one who actually decided to come say hello and ended up seeing him drinking away his pain. 
“ How are you Ben?..... When did you came back?”.
I didn't answer that question, he too knew that if I answer that, that means the issue at hand will be pushed over like it never happened, like I never saw anything. I just stood there, waiting for him to start talking, I believe he knew too by the look on his face right now.
“ Take a seat Ben ”.
I sat opposite him, staring right into his face, no one can ever tell me that Mr Peter I knew can cry and I will believe it because it sounds more like a trash to my ears. This was not the strong Mr Peter I knew, this one sitting across me is in emotional pain, a pain I never knew was there.
     “ I know it might sound a bit funny or unreal, but I miss her, I feel like she went away with a part of me, a part of me which I don't know or feel like I want to replace, a part of me I want to leave empty....... Very unreal, It wasn't the best memory losing Steve's mum either, but I never felt like this at that time, the feeling were different, something I can't decipher ”.
I continue keeping my eyes on his face, taking in every expression on his face, did he love my mum so much?, If he happened to move on from Steve's mum, he can still move on from losing my mum, he deserves someone who can care for him, he has been the one standing here for me, he's the one who kept my mum alive for the few weeks she stayed, he was part of the reason why my mum left with a smile knowing her son is in good hands.
“ You can go find another woman Sir, I believe there are many more like my mum out there, you deserve someone who can make you happy, who would stand by you in this tough moment, you.........”, “ No! No!! No!!!, You don't have to talk like that...... I'm not mad at you kid, it's just that you don't understand ”. He interrupted my statement, maybe I was actually talking out of cue, he knows more than me and I believe him if he feels like I was stepping out of line.
“ Then make me understand Sir ”, I requested from him. He gave me this sudden intense look, a look which feels more like admiration.
“ You know something I love more about you Ben?”, “ No ”, he was smiling right after I replied him, he stayed quiet for few seconds before proceeding with his speech.
“ You are ready to learn, you want to learn and I love that...... You are growing into a man, so I believe I should give you some tips. Losing a loved one doesn't guarantee you to go for a replacement because you are feeling that person's absence, because at that point, you will end up making a great mistake which will become a regret you will always live with, mourn those you lost so that you can come back strong, don't try to replace them because when you do, you won't stop comparing the present person with the one you lost, you won't love the new person genuinely like he or she wants and that would make him or her feel heart broken and depressed just like you, and the second thing about this is that despite replacing that person, you still won't feel better, theirs always time for sorrow and time for joy, after enjoying the presence of the person you used as a replacement, when he or she leaves, you will return back to your sorrow, just like a person who got himself drunk so that he would forget what reality brought to him, when he became sober, he realized that the problem never left, it was still there waiting for him...... You can't run away from your demon, face it and learn how your demon operates, if you run away from it, you will still come back at the due time and believe me my boy, your demon will still be there waiting for you, ready to welcome you back to exactly where you left him, my boy ”.