The idea continue to revolve inside my head, I love Deborah and have a crush on Rose but she's my best friend's sister, making it too hard to accept the reality, and at the other hand, Deborah is showing no validation towards me, making it feel like I haven't gone into a bit of a change. Does she even care?, Isn't she seeing the way I am trying to make myself better just to have her as mine?, Did she even think about me?, Even if it's as a friend, have I ever crossed her mind as of late?.
“ What are you still thinking?, Come down from the car we are home ”.
I never knew we were here already, the way he said home made me think about where I came from, my home, my mum, I don't want to cry about the past anymore, I should be a man and focus on what's to come, Mr Peter loved my mum with all his heart, but he is strong right now, if I want to look up to him, I should be strong too and accept what reality brings to the table.
     I got down from the car, ready to proceed with my time. My life has always revolved around my mum, now I have to learn to channel to a path, a new path where I take responsibility for all my actions.
“ We leave for the gym in an hour time ”.
Steve caught me off guard, I had to turn around to make sure I heard him very well. I said that I am ready to take care of myself, but that doesn't involve punishing myself by carrying heavyweights.
“ I never said that I am going to any gym, and you know I just met Rose moments ago, I don't have to make her see me again..... It doesn't work like that ”.
He gave me that cold stare that feels uncomfortable inside my guts, I feel like averting my eyes from him but no, that's not how to live in the path I have decided to follow, with a bold face, I asked him.
“ What?”.
“ I never said we're going to your girlfriend's gym house bro.... We are going to a place with much developed equipments, so you got no excuses to make ”.
     The only place I have pictured myself in the gym was at Brian's, I felt this uncomfortable that I will be going to gym but not Rose's, another gym. I want to decline, but no, she doesn't have to see me again today and as Steve just said, where he wants me to go with him, the have much improved equipment. It would also be a surprise if Rose gets to see some transformation from me, I think that would be kind of awesome, I took my time to contemplate about it, and after some brief moment, I agreed to go with Steve.
“ Okay bro..... I'm in ”.
     Oh my God, I never knew this will be fun, the way I got acquainted to everyone at the gym was a total surprise for me, the just accepted me, spoke with me as if we have known each other like forever and they were even the ones encouraging me to push myself more and more, I really can't wait to be there tomorrow, if only theirs a way I can just pump up overnight and be like the guys I was with at the gym. I never got close to anyone at Brian's gym, maybe it was because I didn't go there to train, so none of them cared to even speak with me. I thought that I would be kind of left out when we got there, like you know, what is this small guy doing here, I was expecting criticism, instead I got an encouragement, total encouragement making me to go beyond my expectations.
“ We're going there tomorrow right?”, I asked Steve, eyes fixed on him, he wore this slight smile on his face as if I was sounding funny, I hope he's not making fun of me on purpose.
“ Tomorrow morning would be your worst, believe me ”.
He was still wearing that smile, leaving me curious with what he just said, I don't understand him but never jumped in to ask, had to break it down in my head first before any other thing.
” I don't understand you, explain what you mean.......”.
He released a relieving breathe, turned to me, probably seeing the confusion written on my face. “ ok.... Here's what I meant..... Many people usually feels this way after their first day in the gym, they tend to make plans to attend tomorrow but hardly makes it there, because their body system are weak for any other hard workouts, even the easy ones too are hard, you will understand me more when you sleep and wake up ”.
     We got back home, Mr Peter was outside drinking in his private space where he is being covered by his umbrella near the swimming pool, the sun was down already but that didn't get him to pull of the umbrella where he sat under it. We got out from the car, my body still warm and ready for another workout if possible. Sounds like trash to me, what Steve said. I'm physically strong right now and ready for another round, how can I feel stressed out tomorrow when I feel all energetic right now.
“ Hello Mr Peter........ How did it go today?”.
He seemed absent minded, did he even realize that we just came in right now?, I went closer to him, touching his leg to signal him of my presence, to signal him of our return actually, incase he was keen to know of our where about. He jumped off from his thoughts, feeling my touch on his feet. Oh my God, Mr Peter is crying.