“You two should talk. Call me if there’s something wrong okay? I’ll leave now,” he said in his deep voice. 
After that, he left without looking at me. I couldn’t do anything but to watch him leave.
“What the fuck is that? We just broke up, Veronica!” Xavier shouted.
I looked at him in disbelief. What the hell is he thinking again? I controlled myself and looked away, what is his problem?
“Tell me honestly Veronica, do you have a relationship with that man?” he asked mad. And I almost wanted to laugh with his reaction.
My heart hurt with that, there’s a line of hope that wanted to rose on my heart. Why is it that every time I accept that he doesn’t love me, he will give me mixed signals? Why do he have to do this?
“He’s the reason why you broke up with me?” anger is very obvious in his eyes. 
I sighed heavily, wanting to calm myself and my system.
“It wasn’t like that, Xavier.”
“Tell me honestly Veronica, do you have a relationship with that guy?” he said with a hint of anger. I almost want to laugh with his reaction.
I also felt my heart hurt a bit, in the very corner of my heart, there’s a bit of hope that wanted to come out. Why does he have to react this way every time I start to accept that we weren’t for each other? Why do he have to confuse me?
“He really is the reason why you broke up with me?” he said angrier.
I took a deep breath and calm myself to bits, “That’s not it. You’re wrong with whatever you’re thinking.”
He laughed in sarcasm. I rolled my eyes out of frustration and irritation. I’m pissed that I’m hoping again, even though I don’t want to, anymore.
“Then why are you together? Why do you have to be with him all this time?”
“We were friends,” I answered him.
I don’t know why but it suddenly felt wrong to say that. I don’t understand why.
“And you think, it won’t risk my father’s health? You know this could reach to him, right?
I looked away and bit my lower lip. I understand his point but I hate the fact that he has to talk to me this way. It was as if he is blaming me for the things I cannot even control.
“You know I can’t let that happen to your father, Xavier. I owe him a lot; I owe your family a lot. You know that so you don’t have to say those things to me. I am not doing anything wrong,” I couldn’t hide my irritation anymore. I feel really mad and insulted.
“Stop being selfish, Veronica. I just want to make sure that my father is safe, so you better stop flirting around and act like a decent woman.”
He looked really mad but I am too that the next thing I know is that he was shock. I slapped him. I couldn’t hide my shaking, I’m done. I can’t believe he could say those things to me.
“Leave,” I firmly said while looking at him.
“We are still talking, Veronica.”
I shook my head despite his authority.
“Leave. I don’t want to talk to you anymore,” I said coldly.
He still couldn’t believe so he stared a bit to me before finally leaving me alone.
When he finally left, my eyes suddenly teared up. It was as if he stabbed me straight in my heart while he says those things. Never did I imagine him saying that to me. I didn’t know he could do that to me even though he doesn’t like me.
I felt even more tired after remembering the times I spent with Lucas. It was those times I genuinely felt happy. I laughed with him; those were the times I allowed him to take care of me. The times we allowed ourselves to look at each other.
Am I flirting with him? Am I not a decent woman?
I don’t remember how long it took me there. But I helped myself to my bed and allowed sadness and pain took over me.
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The next day, I felt heavy and almost want to not do anything. And even though I woke up early, I almost run late to office. 
I wanted to set aside my argument with Xavier but I couldn’t. It just won’t go away easily.
My phone rang for Lucas’ call but I couldn’t pick up. I couldn't talk to him after everything that Xavier told me.
Even when the time that I have to give my teammates all the stuffs I have for them, I feel like I just wanted to go home. And when they asked me about what happened, I couldn’t give them full details. I just answered whatever question they have and space out.
When its time to go home, I have to hurry and make sure Lucas won’t see me. Even though I am not sure if he’ll come to pick me up, I just have a feeling that it would be better if I go home straight and avoid him as long as I can.
I took a bath and prepare for dinner after that. Then took my time in doing some chores before going to my bed. I tried hard to sleep but I couldn’t. All the sadness suddenly took over me again and all I could do is cry.