“But we were not there with Samantha, Gail. Even though they have a plan he can just simple be with me and not do those things he did for me. He could just be there and let me do my own thing because Samantha’s not around,” I explained.
She looked at me with so much suspicion, “So you really have something for him huh?”
I smiled at her even though I know she could see how sad I am, “Gail, with that short period of time, I knew him unexpectedly. Even though I do not know much about him, he made me feel that I am safe with him. That he will protect me. Those times that I am hurting because of Xavier, I didn’t expect him to be there but I am so thankful that it was him. I didn’t felt alone. He guided me and took care of me. I’m not sure if I’m just assuming things or he really did made me feel that way. Except you and Sister Mona, he was the only one who made me feel that way. That’s why I am confused now. Knowing that I still have feelings for Xavier even just a bit. I have loved him for years, Gail. It wasn’t easy for me to move on. But I couldn’t deny the fact that I am starting to feel something for Lucas. I have never felt this special for Xavier, Gail. You know that right? But I don’t want to be reckless, I don’t want to end up being hurt again,” I said almost tearing up. With that, I felt Gail hugging me.
“Shh, don’t cry. I’m here, you don’t have to rush anything. I won’t let Xavier talk to you like that again, okay? And for Lucas, let’s see if he’s really trustworthy,’ she whispered. I felt at ease hearing that.
“For the meantime, I will be staying here so you wouldn’t feel alone. Okay? Cheer up now. I hate to see you crying. I wanna beat them up,” she joked even though I know for sure that she mean that. She gave me the food she prepared again.
She feels at home here so it was easy for her to move around. She’s also the one who updated at my work that I couldn’t go because I’m sick.
I held her hand and thanked her for always being there for me.
The day went well, we did not do anything else but to talk about random stuffs. At around 3:00 o’clock in the afternoon their driver brought her stuffs in here. She was going to stay here for a while to be with me.
I told her that it was fine even though she wouldn’t stay here but she insisted. Since it was just the same that her house and my apartment is far from her work she just choses to stay here. The truth is she wanted to stay here so when Xavier came back, she could protect me. She’s always like that, every time she knew that we had a fight she always fought back for me. And especially now that we really broke up, for sure she wouldn’t control herself anymore and another thing is that she knows that somehow my feelings for Xavier did change. 
Since my apartment is not huge, we are sharing a room. Even though there’s another room we don’t have extra bed for here. That is just an empty room since I moved in. And besides were used to sharing bed every time she stays here.
I felt better now and my fever is gone. After we ate our dinner we decided to watch some movie in the living area. We were both silent and serious on watching when Xavier came.
Gail wouldn’t let him in but I told her that it’s okay, so she had no choice.
“What are you doing here, Xavier?” she stayed standing near the door while still looking bad at Xavier.
“Stay out of this, Gail. Veronica we really need to talk,” he turned to me and didn’t mind Gail that tried to step in between us when he tried to come near me.
“Okay fine, Xavier. We’ll talk while Gail is here,” I said calmly. I let him sit on the single couch while Gail guided me to the long one.
I can see that he wants us to talk alone but he couldn’t do anything. Honestly, I don’t want to talk to him but since Gail is here might as well give him a chance. He couldn’t hurt me anyway.
"Look my Dad already knows we broke up and he's mad. He wants me to drop the contact with the recording studio. He wants me to focus on business unless we get back together Veronica," frustration was written on his face. I sighed, very disappointed. I thought he'll say sorry for what he accused me the last we talked but he didn't.
“Is that a part of my friend’s problem? You really are an asshole!” Gail shouted at him. 
Xavier then looked at her sharply.
"I'll talk to him Xavier. I'll explain everything to him don't worry," I said. He groaned and shook his head.
"Stop being selfish Veronica. He wants us together so stop playing hard to get. I know you love me, so why are you being so hard? Why are you like this? Is this really because of Samantha or because of that asshole?" his tone is angry and accusing as usual.
I'm not being selfish Xavier, I am never been.
“What the hell? Are you serious, Xavier? My friend is selfish?” Gail’s voice are very angry. I know she is, so I held her hand and asked her to stop. I don’t want her to be this stressed out because of me.
Xavier just looked at him even mad as she keeps on saying things on him. I can’t blame my best friend though I faced him again to endure conversation. I don’t want to keep this any longer.
"Xavier please understand me. This is not about Samantha nor Lucas. I broke up with you because we both know you love someone else and she loves you too. If you're worried about your career then I'll try to talk to your father. I respect him so much that I can explain everything to him so he'll understand us both."
I don't have the courage to get back to him now. I have chosen him over me for years and he never really cared. He never loved me. He just needs me so he can fulfill his father's want and I was too greedy. I let my emotions win over my sanity. I let myself believe that we have a chance. That he can love me back, but he didn't. After all he never stopped loving Samantha so how will he love me, right?