The next morning Gail didn't let me go to work but I pushed her to go to hers. I don't want to cause her trouble so I promised her that I won't accept any visitor today. I also told her about my plan to talk to Xavier dad today while she's not here. She was a bit hesitant but then I managed to convince her that I'll be fine.
"Make sure to call me when something happened, Okay? I'll go ahead now. Love you," she said and then hugged me. 
"Sure thing. Take care, love you."
After she go, I prepared myself to go to Tito Felipe’s office, I decided to talk to him now to explain everything to him.
I don’t have any clue on what will happen next but I hope he’ll understand me. His understanding is important to me because I owe so much to him. Tito Felipe, his dad, gave me work that supported me and my studies. Without his help, I don’t think graduating would be that easy for me. Even though he did not just gave me money right away, he did not think twice to trust me and let me work for his business. And with that, I was able to save money for my apartment after two years of being a bed spacer. He’s also nice to me ever since. He always thinks of me and looks after me, there were times that he would put me first before his own son. And considering all the things he’s done for me, the opportunity that he has given me before, his opinion is very important for me. I respect him so much that I needed his approval. I needed the assurance that he understands me and my decision.
Wearing my simple plain V-neck shirt and black jeans with a pair of white sneakers, I went out of the house and go to their restaurant.
I was nervous on my way, I was thinking of the possible outcome of our conversation. I even prayed a couple of times that he would understand me even though I know that if it was his decision, he likes me so bad for his son.
“Hi Susan, is Sir Felipe here?” I asked to the waitress that is not yet busy. The restaurant is not yet busy because it’s too early.
“Oh Veronica, it’s been so long. Yes he’s in his office. You can go there, he’s not busy right now,” Susan answered. I am only a year older than her. She’s also hired to work here after a year that I was hired.
I am so nervous when I stood in front of Tito Felipe’s door but I pushed myself to calm down. It would be better if I talk to him directly before other things get complicated. I also don’t want this to be a reason of any argument between me and Xavier.
I knocked at the door before opening it. Tito greeted me with a smile when he saw me and let me come in.
“It was nice to have you here, Ija. What made you drop by? Did you eat already? What do you want to eat, tell me and I’ll have it prepared,” he said continuously. He’s better now compared to the last time I saw him. 
It’s been almost two months since we last saw each other and until now I couldn’t imagine that he had an attack recently. Considering how cheerful he is right now.
“Thank you Tito, but I’m fine. I just drop by because I wanted to talk about something. I have something to tell you,” I said nervously. He doesn’t look shock, maybe because like what Xavier said, he already knew that I and his son broke up.
“Go ahead, ija. I’m all ears,” he said.
I breathe heavily and smiled at him sadly. He was sitting on his swivel chair while I was sitting on the left side in front of his table.
“Tito, Xavier and I broke up. We haven’t told you yet because we’re worried about you,” I started. He nodded and let me continue, “I’m sorry, Tito. I think I wouldn’t be able to fulfill my promise anymore. I respect you so much Tito, that’s why I came here to personally talk to you about this,” I looked away to avoid his sad gaze.
“Ija, you know that I consider you as my own daughter right? I know my son is not the best boyfriend, but I know he cares for you. Maybe he’s just confused. Don’t give up on him just yet,” he said in a very calm voice. 
I bit my lower lip to avoid the sudden pain in my chest. I am sad to see Tito Felipe sad, he’s like a father to me.
“Maybe if you gave him another chance, he’ll finally realize things. I know you are the best for my son, ija. I know this is a selfish favor but I wanted to ask you to give my son another chance. Don’t give up on him. That man is just out of his head, he thinks he loves Samantha because he used to. But I know he has feelings for you, just choose him again ija,” he said trying to convince me.
The truth is, there’s something in me that wanted to believe on him but I just couldn’t. I am eager to end this now to help myself.
I looked at Tito Felipe that still looks sad. I wonder if my father would ever look at me like that id he knows I’m in pain. Will he be sad if he knows I’m in this situation, like how Tito Felipe is sad for his son?
“Tito, when I loved your son, I did not hesitate to give him all my all. I promised to myself that I will dedicate my whole to him, no matter what. For years Tito, all I did is to love your son dearly. I choose him over and over again even though I know that I wasn’t even part of his choices. And that hurt me a lot, that’s the truth. I was hurting but it was fine. I love him so I don’t mind if I get hurt along the way. I do not regret anything about that Tito, I don’t regret choosing to be a martyr for your son. And if ever I have something to regret it’s the fact that I tried so hard for him to like me even though I know in the first place that he won’t. I choose him Tito, a lot of times. With our four years relationship, I never had the chance to choose myself over him. I loved your son so much, Tito. I loved him so much I’ve done things I shouldn’t. Maybe I’m a bit late but I realize now that we were both old enough now, years had past but nothing changed. Tito, your son love someone else,” I said with my voice shaking a bit. My eyes tear up but no single tears come out.