I was like a baby crying on his chest. All we could hear is my sobs and his soft curses sometimes. He hugged me tight and I felt like he was doing that to protect me, and just like that he calmed my mind and my heart even though my tears continued to flow.
“Come here,” he said softly and tapped beside him. I was sitting calmly on the single sofa while he was sitting on the long sofa. 
After I cried, we decided to go inside my apartment and stayed in silent. I didn’t say anything and just let him wonder his eyes on me.
He walked towards me and sit in front of me to match my gaze. He tucked some on my hair behind my ears and sighed. He looked at me softly, wanting to start a conversation.
“What did he tell you? What’s making you upset?” he asked softly. 
My eyes started to tear up again but I manage to stop it from falling.
“Let’s stop this,” I said feeling heavy. I saw how his jaw clenched and how he looked at me deep. I couldn’t look back so I looked away.
“What did he tell you?” I could hear how much he tries to calm himself. I could calm myself and felt my heartbeat faster. 
“Nothing,” I lied.
He touched my face and softly shifted it so I could face him. I could feel his forehead on mine, he closed his eyes and calmed himself more. With that, I could feel my heart beat louder, I also felt my face heat up with the thought that he might hear my heartbeat.
“You ignore me, you weren’t answering my text and calls Veronica. You are staying away from me so I don’t believe that it’s nothing. What did he tell you? Baby, please tell me.”
My heartbeat as if it’s the last time I am able to hear, I suddenly felt weak. I feel like I couldn’t talk anymore. He was just staring at me and I wanted so bad to stay away but I couldn’t. And I couldn’t even move a little because we were too close. One move and I could kiss him.
“Don’t look at me like that. I feel like you were scared,” he said. His eyes looks sad and weak.
There’s a lot of things that is running through my head since last night. Xavier said things that made wake me up on my reality. All of his words feels like it was meant to wreck my world. He said it to make me feel like I am doing something wrong even if I know to myself that we’re done already.
Xavier could make me feel that way. He could make me feel that my feelings for Lucas was wrong even though I know it’s not.
I wanted to be angry at myself because I couldn’t help but be affected by is words. But I couldn’t do anything because I also couldn’t deny the fact that I am really affected. It was Xavier who told me that, I know that I don’t love him the way I did but still, he’s special. I couldn’t say that I fully moved on from him because I loved him for years.
“I’m confused, Lucas.”
I bit my lower lip after saying that. I feel so weak that my words almost sound like a whisper.
I wanted to cry because of all the things that is in my mind. I wanted to vanish like a bubbles so I wouldn’t have to be confused about this. 
I am hurt because of what Xavier told me. It was like a dagger thrown directly at my chest. It was too painful and I couldn’t hide nor deny it.
I felt Lucas soft touch on my cheeks, “What did he tell you? Come on, tell me.”
My eyes started to tear up and in a snap I would cry for sure. I don’t understand myself. I don’t know why I feel this way. I don’t even know I feel something for Lucas.
“Is he bothering you?” he asked seriously when I didn’t answer his first question.
I looked away, I don’t know what to tell him.
“Did he hurt you, Veronica?”
I looked at him when he stood up while asking me that. We finally have distance between us while he wait for my answer.
“No he didn’t,” I answered. He sighed and calmed himself again. He closed our distanced again and made sure to match my eye.
“What did he tell you then? Why are you avoiding me? What’s wrong baby, please tell me.” 
He looked at me straight in my eyes as he asked that. I couldn’t breathe properly because our face is too close.
I wanted to hit my head for some reason but I remained calm. Even though I could feel so nervous for I don’t know why.
“Hey, please look at me. What are you thinking? Tell me please,” he pleaded. I could hear how frustrated he was. I bit my lower lip and forced myself to calm down. I couldn’t focus because of my loud heart beat, he might hear it and it’s embarrassing!
“He’s mad, Lucas.” I said after a moment of silence.
“He still affects you this hard, huh?” he chuckled without humor. He stepped backward that made distance between us. He sighed and looked at me again.
“Do you still like him?” he asked seriously.
I couldn’t answer him right away and I saw how his jaw clenched a couple of times. He looked more serious trying to be patient for my answer.
I swallowed hard and nodded.
“I still like him, but ah-.. I think I’m..,” I tried coming near him but I couldn’t finish my word when he started talking.
“Right. What do I expect? Okay then, I think I should go,” he said seriously trying to avoid my gaze. He nodded and then left.
I was left there in froze.