I know that I am about getting off my path, I know that I am about making the wrong decision, but it will get my mind off my particular condition, I don't want to hate myself for making this move or have any reason to blame her for giving such opportunity to even try. 
Jack made it clear to me that that wasn't how he operate, it's never part of his routine getting off his philosophy in the middle of the week, I may have that free time, but that doesn't mean he does too, I told him that I happened to cancel today's schedule, everyone of them for emotional reasons, my mind was way down and energy lost, instead of turning me off totally, he suggested a best option for me, he invited me to come to the boxing Gym and we'll talk about this.
I made Lydia aware that I won't be returning and my schedule should be postponed to another day, she still got that pain in her eyes like it really did hurt her turning me down, I don't blame her for turning me down, I'm just not okay with her socializing around me, making me believe that there's a possibility of us dating, if she's into another relationship and giving me this kind of vibe, it's definitely considered cheating, I don't have to sleep with her for it to be considered cheating, if there's another guy out there who's in a relationship with her, then she's definitely not the person I have always thought she was.
With my gloves on my hands and fists brought up to guard my face from punches, I was moving around the ring, as well as him, both of us aiming at each other. 
“ Canceling your schedule?.... That's a first.”
“ Yeah, there's always a first time for everything...”.
He attacked me, throwing four straight punches at me, but I was able to guide my face from his punches, everyone of them landing on my guild. “ Emotional problem huh!... Never knew you as an emotional type, more like never seen that kind of energy around you..... You lost a friend?”.
“ I don't have friends....”.
I attacked, before I could throw a double punch, he intercepted with his longer arms, getting one on my face, which made me to draw back immediately. He was fighting aggressive like he usually do on official matches, he's just sparring with me like an amateur, waiting for me to come at him or grabbing the chance when he sees the opportunity.
“ What really happened?.... Maybe because it's almost getting to your turn, each day passing brings closer to your turn of accommodating our lovely sister, Benita?.”
“ I Love Benita, I have no problem living with her under my roof even for a whole year.....”.
“ LoL.... I doubt that, you wouldn't like it when she always see the way you bring ladies back during weekends....”
He made a joke, I didn't laugh about it though because I probably wouldn't feel that joy of privacy anymore, even though she doesn't care about it. The silence went for a short while as we boxed some moments without speaking to each other, making him to hit me a few more than before, I was mostly doing the guild because he's more experienced and skilled compared to my ability.
I learnt how to box too, but didn't take it to the professional level, when I heard my brother was knocking teeth out on the semi pro level, I got into training for boxing too, having quite a fun in that path, but wasn't more invested in it compared to Jack.
“ You don't want to share the issue with me then, I have no suggestions left...”
“ It's my personal assistant, I asked her out...”
You can see the shock in his face immediately I say those words, making him throw down his guild in shock, I didn't attack with the opportunity, just followed with his movements, letting down my guard too, but didn't stop with the bouncing with my feet.
“ Now I see what's happening.... She turned you down?.”
“ I wouldn't say it like that, more like I didn't match her taste I could say, you can't tell me that she's not seeing anyone out here, maybe a casual pleasure stuff.”
He brought up his guard again, making me to mirror his movements and get myself ready as well. “ I definitely don't know the reason she might have said no to you, maybe she wants to maintain that professional status between you guys or she has someone else, maybe a girl rather than a boy....”
“ Why would you say that?.” I asked.
He brought down his guard again, but this time, mine were still left up, guarding my face, “ You know.... That night we saw her with the girls at the bar.”
“ That's possibly her friends. ”
“ Sure!... But that young man that approached her there, she rejected his offer too. ”
“ How did you know that?. ”
“ You know!.... She's your personal assistant and also the lady closest to you which you also happened to accept in, that's not much like a coincidence for me, so I happened to spy a little..... Sorry about that!. ”
Hmmm, he's apologizing, as if I cared. The fact that she rejected the good looking guy too now calls to my attention, she told me that she feels exactly the same way as I feel for her, but still said that we can never work, does that mean that Jack was right about her having girls rather than boys?, I'm just confused right now.
“ I think we should get back to boxing, I've to teach you some lessons to always remember....”
Jack made another joke, getting his fists back up and I got ready too.