This is what happens when you attack someone, if you strike with the knife, the knife will also be striked at you, If you attack with the gun, you will be attacked with the gun and if you threaten someone, you will also be threatened. I have heard that it is called karma and you can never escape it, Jack threatened me, now he has been threatened, I took Mother Superior's peace of mind, Now I can't get the peace of mind I seek.
I went on my way in search of Stella, I couldn't see her, I have been getting past her for some time now, but today I seek her, she can't be found, not even her friends agreed to tell me of her whereabout.
Today's turned from good to bad and with my identity left in the wrong hands and our relationship not being the best right now, it might be too bad for me, maybe I should go and apologize like I was ordered, this situation isn't going to be about pride, it's about my safety and that of everyone around me.
“ I can tell you've been hiding from me.... A misunderstanding leads to an undeserving judgement and disrespect, yet here I am coming to apologize for something I never did...”, I said behind her, her friends now staring at me. She turned around, hands placed on the side of her hips as she looks straight up into my eyes like it was a challenge, “ What're you doing here?....”, she asked me, now acting bossy in front of her friends, can't believe she was the girl I went on a date with some days ago.
“ Jack told me what happened....”, I calmly said to her, locking in the rage burning inside of me that I am brushing myself on the face just because of another's decision, and it was a girl's.
“ I don't think I remember that name.... Have any of you heard of it?....”, she asked her friends and they acted like I was acting nothing than rubbish, making a caricature of me like they want me to go into explanation. To hell with this, I turned around from there, trying to stop all this embarrassment, walking away from there, that's when I heard her voice scream behind me.
“ You never told me you ran away from the Orphanage, quite embarrassed that I got to date such a loser....”, she said. Those words pierced in, I never knew that something like that coming from her would hurt, I loved her, I really do, I was hoping that time would heal our differences, but right now, it's over, it's all over.
It was a painful night, I have never gotten hurt like this before, this was the first time I felt such a sting in my heart, I couldn't even eat dinner with my family, just locked myself in the room carrying a heavy heart with grudges, I can remember the first time we met, how genuine her smile was, how appealing she was when she was around me, how she approached me comfortably and how we got together.
The first kiss I got from her has always been in my mind, I sometimes thinks about it every night, despite the fact I hide my true feelings around her, this time, I have lost it, I can't believe that she would break my heart this way that she would attack me with a weakness that will ruin my life if gotten into the wrong hands, maybe she was the wrong hand after all, she and her friends.
Our time at the beach was my favorite in the City, the smile on her face, the playfulness she brought in into the the relationship, the funny behavior she exhibits around me, was this what David saw when he asked me to break off with her, did he really saw this coming while I was blinded by the love I have for her, am I ever going to make it through the night, maybe I should call her, we would get through this on the phone tonight, I will try to convince her that she was mistaken, that I can never cheat on her with anybody.
It's almost 10:00p.m. She never picked any of my calls until now, I have called for thirty seven times already and she's not picking, I have inboxed her with 9+ messages, but none have been replied, she never even viewed the messages, maybe she's already asleep, I will see how it goes tomorrow.
It's almost lunchtime, my efforts to see her has been a waste until I viewed her from a distance chatting with her friends, maybe they'll help me beg her to accept my apology, she has been a good friend of mine, I am willing to forgive and let go of everything she did to me, the only thing I wish for is for us to go back to how we was some days back.
As I got closer, I saw that my friends were there too, but except one, one who has never been there all this while, David, he's no where to be found around Francis and the others for sometime now, but I believe I can get her to forgive me as far as I still got Francis and the others there with me.
“ Stella, Stella.... Please Stella can you at least hear me out?....”, “ What?!, What is it Jones,why have you been pestering me all this while?....”. I closed my eyes feeling the sting, should I walk away or can this ever be resolved?, I asked myself, thinking on what I should do about this. After a few moment on hold, I began to speak, even though she wasn't looking at me.
“ I don't know what happened or what brought this upon us, whatever it is, please can we put it aside, I am sorry for causing the misunderstanding between us and vow that it's never going to happen again, please can you forgive me, I would never let such thing happen again please?....”.