Should I be pissed off right now or should I just laugh it off?, did he just... wait, he just told me all that right now and right before me took responsibility for it like he was supposed to. This is so funny, I am confused on the reaction that should come from me about this, not that I am angry or mad at him, but because I don't know what to think, I just think it's best locking myself in here in the room than reacting negatively, after all, it was all for a lesson like he said.
The truth about this is that I am no longer concerned about it, I guess that's actually why he made up his mind to tell me now, if I was still suffering from the heartbreak I went through, I wonder what my reaction would've been then.
Francis and the others were playing their adventurous game with Stella while we were still dating and then she made it clear when she was done with me, was that really the reason why David wanted us to break off then, he was even feeling depressed that getting involved would turn out wrong for both of us, I just don't know how to feel or what to think, he just told me before my face that I shouldn't trust him too, that he did the exact thing as the others by hiding such an information from me, I just sat on the floor of my room, my back resting on the wooden part of my bed as I began laughing, so many emotions running through my mind, I was just played, I was just played by everyone around me.
Uncle Dale made me want to leave home, David hid such an intense secret from me, Jack threatened my identity where I was forced to go back from where I came from, Jackie wanted to stay alone only to join hands with her brother in giving away my identity, I don't blame anyone of them though but that's reality, that's what happened and I can't deny it, Stella cheated on me with my friends, she stabbed me on the back and made a fool out of me in front of everyone, My so called friends stabbed me on the back by using my girlfriend.... Ex girlfriend, they knew how much I loved her, yet decided to be the ones to show me how unreliable she was, I thank them for letting me know what a sl*t I was dating, and I am here playing the role of an honest boyfriend. All of them hurt me in their own ways, but at the same time taught me a memorable lesson which I will never forget, just so funny.
“ Hey Jackie... How are you doing today?”, I asked her, as I came to seat beside her, her brother no where to be found. She came alone to watch the basketball training and we will be resuming in some minutes time, guess I can spare a few to hangout with her. She couldn't hold an eye contact like always, she was now looking down, fidgeting, fingers twisting the other as she was looking down, he innocence just makes me smile sometimes, she was the only one I have seen between all of us that still has the same traits as we were raised with from the Orphanage, though I can remember that Day, the very first day I went out to swim with David and the others, I couldn't believe my eyes at first when I saw her wearing that swimsuit, but as time keeps going, I have realized that it's just one of the norms here.
“ I'm doing good Jones.... Guess you guys haven't begun practicing yet?....”. That's obvious, but I won't make it look creepy for her because that's the only thing she got in mind to say right now.
“ You guys are always training late, aren't you always gassed out after training?..”, she asked, eyes kept down and away from mine. “ You speak as if you're always here to......”, “ I'm!..... Oh... Sorry for interrupting you ”, she apologized. With little time I have spent here, her behavior now feels so foreign to me, I know she has always been like this all her life, but why does it feel so foreign now?, I smiled because of her apology, she probably couldn't see them because she was keeping her face down, very submissive to me, guess she's the only one out here that still have that childhood respect she was trained with, when I was with Stella, she always boldly looks into my eyes while she speaks, we both find it romantic then, boys out there finds it romantic too, but little do they know that looking into their eyes means that they aren't afraid of them and whoever doesn't fear you hardly respects you.
“ I can't believe that of all my time training here that I never for once saw you here, that's just unbelievable....”, I said, hands spreading on the chairs wide, one of my arm was on her back and the other spread the other side, but she looks too afraid to stay comfortable around me, she wasn't resting her back knowing that my arm was behind her, she was sitting up, her back straight. “ It's probably because you were always focused in training.... I wasn't expecting you to see me anyways, just glad that I am always here to watch you train....”. I smiled hearing those words, but knowing my time was up, I guess I have to go join the others.
Her being there made me watch here often, my performance in today's training was top notch and I was glad she was there to watch, I can see the cheerleaders all sitting at the extreme floor side watching the training, my eyes never traveled there again after I noticed their presence, just happy that someone deserving was already here watching me play.