My eyes was still dampened with tears and the pillow soaked with it. I couldn't stop crying, because that was the only thing I could do at the moment, technically speaking.
I could hear the footsteps of my Mom getting closer to the room. Just as I predicted, the next few minutes she was knocking on the door. I wasn't in the mood to reply her as I never fancied her company. Please, don't blame me for that because she caused all of it herself, so it's actually none of my business and I don't care much about it.
I didn't reply when she knocked the first time, but she persisted and kept on knocking, almost getting me all pissed off.
"Sonia. Sonia, please open the door. I need to tell you something. Please." She said still knocking, this time slightly so she could hear what I was saying.
"Mom, please go. I am not in the right mood to answer you. Please just leave me alone. I want to be on my own." I shouted back at her. That didn't stop my sobbing. Of course it continued and I was still in tears.
"Sonia, baby girl. Please, don't be too hard on yourself. What ever happened was not your fault okay. I trust you, I know what you are capable of darling and I really do trust you. I just want you to be okay for me and your family.
It was nice hearing that from my mom, like for the first time in this marriage she was saying something really nice.
Well, Mom has not been a fan of good marriage as hers was nothing to write home about. Mom had been away through out my growing up. It was Dad that literally took care of I and my other siblings.
I hated her so much when I was little because she would nag a lot whenever she was around and I detested having her around then. I guess I still carried that part of me around, even though I am trying to let it go.
I felt bad letting her knock on the door for so long. She wasn't the cause of my predicament, so why let her suffer in my place, I thought.
Getting up lazily from the bed, I slipped my legs into my slippers and headed to the door. I used my left hand to dry the tears on my face, while using the other one to open the door.
As soon as I opened the door and turned to go back to the bed, mother walked in immediately and at the same time hitting the door with force. I turned around immediately to face her, with fear and shock in my eyes not knowing what was happening.
"Mother! I screamed.
"Oh my goodness baby. I am so so sorry okay. I thought you want to shut the door at my face so I wasn't going to take chances."
"Gosh. You scared the hell out of me. Why would I shut the door at your face when I opened it. I shouldn't have opened it then, damn."
"That was a mistake sweetheart. I'm sorry about that okay? My mom apologized and I started feeling bad about it.
"Mom it's fine. I was only in shock for few minutes I guess. But, as you can see, I am okay now." I answered.
"Alright dear, I am a bit relieved to hear that."
I walked to the bed and sat very close to the wall and resting my back on the wall as well. Mom sat down towards the edge of the bed, closer to the entrance of the room.
"So uhm, mom, what was it you wanted to talk to me about? I am listening now." I reminded her, just to be the good child for once.
"Yeah, yeah. Uhm, I errr, uhm. What was that again? She asked no one in particular, in an attempt to recall what she had to tell me. "You know, I had it all in my head, but I think it just skipped my mind. I will tell you when I remember okay." She said at the end.
"Okay Mom, that's fine. I just hope it's not so important that it will be too late to attend to by the time you decide to remember it."
"I hope so too."
We stayed that way without talking for a while before she finally got the nerves to speak up.
"Sonia." She called.
I looked up at her and saw that she was staring at me for who knows how long.
"Yes, mother." I stretched, now maintaining the eye contact.
"Listen. I know right now it's hard for you to think straight okay. But to be honest with you my dear. No amount of crying would solve any of the problems at hand now. You will have to do more than crying, you will have to act and do something. Do you understand? She asked.
At this time, I could sense tears forming in my eyes. "Yes mother, I heard you loud and care." I answered.
She was right. No amount of tears or cry would bring back all that has been stolen from me.
"You just need to step up your game girl. The police might not be in the position to help you. There are hierarchies and superior powers in those places and they all respond to a grand master who reports all the issue. So, the police might be of little or no help in this case. In others words, I'm just asking that you find someone else to help you. A good detective perhaps." Mother suggested.
Thinking about it deeply, I felt there was a truth in what she was saying. She worked as a top police officer during her time, so she definitely had ideas how it actually worked, so I didn't bother to argue.
"Finding someone else might be a difficult thing for me. But, if that's the only way out in this, then I don't have a choice. I would have to find someone who can work for me as an undercover to do this job." I replied.
Mother smiles coolly at me and said, "yes girl, I know that you will do something about it. I trust my baby girl." Mother said, smiling sheepishly.
"But mother, don't you think I need to talk to Alex about it first, before thinking of doing anything? Especially now that I am still constrained at home. Or, maybe you can help me on that?
Mother looked at me and understood immediately what I meant. "Sweetheart, you know that won't be possible. You know that."
"But mother! I said in a baby like manner, inorder to make her succumb to my quest.
"Okay okay. I will work on something okay. But, you will have to be patient, because I don't have all it takes to do that, alright."
"Alright Mom. As far as it could lead to something that can help me find my children, then I am willing to risk it all."
"Good! Now, about your husband, I would advice that you be lenient with him. You should understand that he is facing a very hard decision where he is at that point. If I were you, I won't bother him for the meantime."
"I am also bearing the result of that effect mum. It is not just on him alone, I am as well. So, don't make it look like he's the only one suffering it here okay." I replied her, almost in a harsh voice, but a bit conscious of who I was speaking to.
"Listen Sonia. Right now, Alex is in a big dilemma. A very big one. Remember what the note read. That you need to be released to them, or else your two employees will be killed. Who do you think will be in the next? It's very simple. Now, let's look at the situation still. If you two decide that you go, what do you think will happen to Alex. Those guys won't let him live to see another brand day."
"Mmmm. You are making a lot of sense here mom. That is so true. We really don't know the caliber of people that we are talking about here, but we shouldn't underestimate them, no matter what."
"Exactly. That's just it. If you decide to follow them the way they set their rules, you are going to get into trouble. Those kinds of people hardly keep to their words, especially when they see that their hostages are doing as planned." She continued to explain.
"Mom, how did you know all these things? I asked, quite amazed by her wisdom.
"You forgot that I am an ex police officer and I have worked on such cases before. Just that this particular one is tougher, as there is no lead. I never knew this type of a thing would happen to my own family."
"It's okay Mom, we will be fine. I just have the feeling that something good will happen to us soon. I just believe that." I said in total assurance, believing that one day all of these will be over and we turn back to the past and smile about how we were able to succeed and bring back what belongs to us.
She nodded slowly and smiled back at me.