"You f*ck what?!" Bella almost yelled when I told her about what happened between me and Nicolas' twin. Everyone in the cafeteria was already staring at us now. Just great. "Mind your own business, people!" Bella rolled her eyes, and that made them focus on their own business. I sigh.
"How the heck did Nicolas have a twin?" Bella whispered, looking shocked. I told her the story when I first met his twin, Nolan, and Nicolas, telling me that it was his twin who drove me off to school. "I feel guilty." I said, trying my best to stop my tears from falling. "I don't know why, but I mistook him for Nicolas." I confessed
"Did Nicolas know about this?"
"No"
"Maybe it's for the best." Bella said, and I was confused. "What do you mean?" Is she saying that it was okay for me to kiss Nolan? "Maybe it's better if you don't tell Nicolas about it. Just keep it a secret. Pretend it never happened." She shrugged.
I feel guilty.
"I can't bells. I feel guilty whenever I look at him, and I'm not sure if the Nicolas I saw today or tomorrow is really Nicolas or his twin faking to be him. I don't know." I said disappointingly.
"I can't believe that he said he likes you. Nolan, I mean. Is he serious?" Bella raised an eyebrow. "I don't know." I said as I recalled what happened yesterday. "What did Nicolas say when he saw you crying yesterday?"
She asked while drinking her Coke.
"Nothing. He just told me that he wouldn't leave me." I turned my head to the place where Nicolas usually sits. He was busy playing with his phone.
Bella sighed.
"I feel like in a movie right now, being the best friend of the heroine who is stuck between two male leads who are madly in love with you her." Bella said jokingly.
I chuckled. At least she makes me smile.
At practice, Miss J told us to do the scene where Daniel kisses another girl and they end up breaking up. It's weird, actually.
"Please forgive me." Daniel says to me.
Laura pushed him.
"How could you? You kissed my best friend." I said to Daniel.
Somehow, this scene stuck with me. It feels like Miss J is doing this on purpose to let me know that I made a big mistake by kissing Nolan.
I can't do this.
"I thought she was you. please, I'm sorry." Daniel pleads
Yes. Nicolas, I thought it was you who kissed me yesterday. I was silent. I couldn't do this anymore. I felt guilty all over me when Nicolas looked at me with his worried eyes. Everyone was looking at me.
"Hey, are you alright?"
Nicolas said as he cupped my cheek. I noticed some people looking at us weirdly, probably thinking why Nicolas suddenly did what he did just now because that is not on the script.
I can't face him.
"I'm sorry."
I said as I ran to the door. I don't know why I am crying, but it just feels right. I was scared. With the look in his eyes, he will probably hate me if he knows about the kiss between Nolan and me. I was about to lock myself in the ladies room when suddenly someone barged in and locked the door.
"Rosa.. Please tell me what's wrong." Nicolas said as he went nearer. "No." He looked hurt but still made his way towards me. "Please just go, Nicolas." He sighs. "Just tell me Rosa. Is everything alright?" He said, holding both of my hands. I can't bring myself to look at him.
"No! Just stay away from me! You shouldn't have talked to me in the first place! You were right! You made a mistake by talking to me! You know what? Forget it. I don't even know what the heck is wrong with me and you don't— why or how or when but he—" I was taken aback when he suddenly pinned me to the wall and kissed me.
I can't. Why are you doing this to me, Nicolas?
"Stop saying stupid things, will you?" he whispered as he pulled away from me. I can't face him. "Rosa, look at me please."
Why does he have to sound so good?
"I'm sorry." I said to him when I finally had the courage to look at him. "Why?" He said as if he knew what w what I was going to tell him. I can't lie to him. He should know about what happened between his brother and me. "Please don't hate me for this... I don't know how it happened—" He wouldn't let me finish my words as he cupped my cheeks and smiled weakly.
"It's okay, Rosa. I forgive you." he chuckled.
I stared at him, shocked.
"What?"
I was confused.
"When I came to your house yesterday, I saw Nolan's car parked outside. I was worried, but when I called you and you answered, I have a feeling that you didn't even know who was in your house at that time. When you hung up, I heard yelling, so I was sure that you had mistaken me for my twin." he said, shrugging.
I stayed silent.
"Don't worry about it." he said, trying to convince me it's alright.
"We kissed." I said, and he was silent now. "F*ck!!" He hissed and punched the wall right behind me. I was startled. I keep my head down. I can't bear to look at his face. "I'm sorry." I said softly.
He held my chin up so that I was looking at him. I noticed disappointment in his eyes. He snuck his hand around my waist and pulled me close to him.
"This is what you get for being so irresistible."
He whispered. I was confused. I was about to ask him what he meant by that, but he kissed me again.
"You mean a lot to me."
And when he said that, I never felt so happy and relieved like this before.
I am truly blessed to have him in my life.