I always thought that Nolan was just messing around with me. But after his confession last night, I was shocked that he felt that way about me. I honestly can't believe it, since we barely know each other. I wonder what makes him to be sure that he have feelings for me? but I'm glad that he's moving on from me. He deserves so much better and I hope he'll find someone who cares for him.
"Wow! Nolan truly is something." Bella said in awe when I told her about last night. "What are you going to do now?" She was worried. "I'm not sure. I needed to talk to Nicolas about everything." I said, glancing at his seat, but he was nowhere to be seen.
Bella just stayed silent while staring at me, shocked. Or to be exact, behind me.
"Don't turn around. Don't you f*cking dare!" She warned. I was curious because she rarely curses, but today I can't help but turn around. I must say, I was indeed broken.
"I told you not to." Bella hissed, staring at Nicolas.
He and Stacy entered the cafeteria together. 𝐇𝐞 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐦𝐞.
Stacy was clinging to his arm like her life depended on it. 𝐇𝐞 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐞𝐭 𝐦𝐞 𝐝𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐢𝐦.
He was smiling and laughing at her. 𝐇𝐞 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐬𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐥𝐚𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐬 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐦𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭.
Wow. I was totally heartbroken by him.
"Just ignore him, Rose. He doesn't deserve you." Bella said and pulled me away from the cafeteria.
I don't know how to feel.
But a part of me regrets not going with Nolan. I don't know why I suddenly regret knowing Nicolas. I hate feeling like this.
"He doesn't deserve you."
I tried to tell myself that every time my mind went crazy seeing Nicolas and her. I can't
"You're doing this for Noah."
I promised Noah and I can't break my promise even if I want to. It was his last wish and I will make it happen, although Nicolas will be the reason for my broken heart.
"You can forget about him."
Yes, I can. I just need some distraction and I will be fine. Maybe Nolan was right; Nicolas is better off without me. Because he doesn't want to be with someone who's related to the person that caused his mom to suffer and his family to be broken. If I were him, I wouldn't want either. But why does Nolan accept me when he can't? It hurts to know that he used to care for me 
How I wish Nolan was here with me.
"Please don't give up on him."
Noah's voice filled my mind. I was stupid to promise him something that I couldn't do. I was stupid! Because right now, giving up was the only option I had. When I reached the auditorium, I noticed my classmates looked disappointed and hurt. I was confused.
"Um.. what's happened?" I asked Violet as I reached for her.
"The festival has been cancelled and Miss J is no longer teaching us as she has to move to Japan with her husband." What?! Why is this happening?! Everything happened too fast. I can't bring myself to accept this. "How come? When did she leave?" I started to feel guilty because the last time I saw her, she wasn't very happy with me. And Nicolas... "Yesterday, She said sorry about the festival having been cancelled. And sorry to both of you and Nicolas for forcing you to act together and to everyone else." Violet said, sighing.
Oh.
"Let's head home, guys. No more practice." I overheard someone say, and suddenly I felt like everything was my fault...Everyone started to walk out of the auditorium. Why is this happening to me? This is too much to handle.
Why do I feel so alone?
I was about to leave the auditorium when my phone rang, and I was dead on my track to see the person that had been calling me.
:Nolan?
I said, and I could hear sobbing in the other line.
:Hey, are you alright? Where are you?
I said as I began to walk out of the auditorium.
:He's dying. I need you.
My heart was torn into pieces when he said that.
When Nolan called me, saying that his father was having difficulty breathing, I almost fell on my knees. Why is this happening to him? Nolan's voice makes me hurt to know that he's broken. I don't know how he handled all of this over the years. If I were him, I'm probably not strong enough. I'm planning to visit Noah today. Nolan had been there taking care of his father, and I decided to meet him since, earlier when he called me, he sounded like he needed a friend.
I heard a girl say, "You should forget about her, Nicolas." I hid and listened to their conversation. I don't feel guilty at all. "Don't touch me." familiar voice replied.
Nicolas?
"I thought you liked being with me." She says this in her high-pitched voice. Ugh, Stacy Allen is so annoying. "I don't like you." I heard Nicolas say, and I couldn't help but smile. He doesn't like her! Yes, girl, I won!
If only it was that easy.....
"You still owe me a kiss since you didn't want to kiss me yesterday." She started giggling.
What? He doesn't kiss her?!
"I owe you nothing. Stay the f*ck away from me!" He raised his voice at her. Ha! serve her for being so clingy! I heard Stacy cry and stomp her feet before running away. Wow. That was good to hear. That was a relief.nI can't help but smile, knowing that he didn't kiss her. I honestly thought he didn't see me, but I was wrong.
"What do you want?" He said as he suddenly stood in front of me. Dangerously close, and I really missed him being close to me.
"WHAT DO YOU WANT?" he repeated when I didn't reply to him. I miss him so much. "Nothing." I said as I took a step forward. Wrong move. Gosh, I feel like exploding right now. I needed to get the hell out of here! I started to walk away from him, but he grabbed my wrist and forced me to face him.
"What do you want from me?" He asked again, but this time, angrily.
You! I want you to know that your freaking father is dying! I basically scream that line in my head, but I can't possibly say that to him. I don't know why...
"I... uh... you... why?" I don't know why I am feeling so nervous. He just rolled his eyes and started to walk away. Tell him, Rose! It is now or never. "Your father is dying!" I bit my lip hoping that he wouldn't yell at me in the face.
He turned around, angry.
"I don't f*cking care if he dies." he said in anger. I was speechless. I stared at him, shocked. I never knew this side of him. He scared me. "How dare you say that to your own father?" I was furious at him. "Did you know he's going to die?! He's waiting for you, for god's sake! He just wanted to apologise and you never gave him the chance. What kind of son are you?!" I don't know why I blew up on him and I could feel my face heating up.
"Me?! Was it my fault that my mother is dead? He can't move on with his f*cking life? It was my fault that he was dying! I don't think so, Rosabelle." His face was also red from yelling too much.
Please don't cry. Please don't cry. Rose
"Please, Nicolas. Please just meet him before he dies. I beg you." I honestly don't care if he saw me crying right now. If he wanted me to beg, then I would. "Why are you so crazy?" he said as he hugged me. I can't help but cry even more. I missed him so much. I guess crying really is the key to making any guy feel weak...
He never really said that he was okay with me now. But I sure hope he won't hate me. He drove us to the hospital using his aunt's car, and I feel so grateful that he decided to meet his dad. At least I fulfilled my promise to Noah, and I am thankful that I did. "How did you meet my dad?" He asked, eyes still staring at the road. "Nolan... He told me everything about your dad the day he saw us at the park." Oh my gosh, this is awkward. Why did I have to remind him of that?
He doesn't even say anything.
"I met him yesterday... He doesn't look so good." I added, and looked at him.
Still no response.
"He was surprised to see me." I said, smiling weakly as I remembered the fact that Noah called me Roxy. "He said that I shouldn't give up on you." I said softly don't even care if he heard me.
He chuckles and rolls his eyes.
"That old man." he sighs, and I was confused.
When we arrived at the hospital, Nicolas just followed me silently. I saw Nolan sitting on a couch looking like a mess. I tapped him on the shoulder and when he noticed it was me, he attacked me in a hug. Nicolas was watching us silently and rolled his eyes. Nolan was surprised to see him as he let go of me and whispered "sorry" in my ear.
"You came." Nolan said to him. "Yeah, you think? As she was begging me to come and crying like crazy, how do you think I would react? And here I am looking like a fool watching you stab me in the back." Nicolas raised his eyebrow and was staring at him in anger.
He seriously doesn't have to mention anything about me crying and all, but he just had to embarrass me. I bit my lip and looked away from him since the last time he mentioned that he hated me, so I was scared...
"How dare you?" Nolan was furious.
"How dare you?!" Nicolas said and walked to his father's room, glaring at his twin brother.
I don't know why, but he is being weird. Nolan told me to wait for them outside, but Nicolas suddenly grabbed my hand, pulling me inside his father's room. I was confused and shocked. Does he want me to be with him? I am happy indeed that he decided to bring me, but Nolan wasn't happy. He just sighed and followed us from behind. Nicolas squeezes his hand and I notice him... He's scared. Maybe because this will be the first time he will meet his father again after a long absence... I really don't know, but I just wanted to hug him so badly.
Well.... Here goes nothing.