It's been a month now that we have been practising for the theatre festival on June 23. I was quite nervous. It was already mid-March. I was really, really nervous. And today, Daniel and Laura will do their kissing scene! Ohmygod indeed. I was excited, and I seriously can't wait. I have been waiting for this for so long. Finally, I get the chance to kiss him. Oh god.
"Okay, Nicolas, on the stage now!"
Miss J said to him. He obeyed and walked to the stage.
"Why did you lie, Rose?" I turned around and saw Caleb. He looked angry and annoyed.
Huh?
"What are you talking about?" I was confused.
He stepped a little closer. "You mentioned Nicolas as your boyfriend. Tell me Rose, do you feel happy lying?" He said, glaring at me. Wait, how does he know? Why does he care anyway? I do feel guilty, but I never had the chance to tell him the truth.
"Caleb...."
I was about to say sorry and tell him that I did not mean to lie to him. But Miss J called me to the stage. Caleb just rolled his eyes and walked away. I thought we're good now. Laura and Daniel will kiss today, Miss J told us. At least that makes me happy. The scene is when Daniel tells Laura that he loves her and they kisses.
Why can't we just kiss right now?
"Laura, I wanted to tell you something." Daniel said.
I saw Caleb staring at us from the back of the stage . He looks angry.
"Yes, Daniel."
I tried to ignore the stare Caleb had been giving me for about ten minutes now. Daniel leans in to me. I was nervous. Nicolas also looked nervous.
"I love you. I always love you. I can't possibly live without you."
Daniel touched my cheek. We stare at each other's eyes. I was really excited. He's going to kiss me!!!
He didn't lean in.
He doesn't even move.
"Um... Miss J? Can we just skip the kissing part?"
And when he said that, I felt rejection all over me. That was unbelievable. Miss J was confused when he said that, but she told him to skip anyway.
"He doesn't want to kiss you."
My head was filled with these words. Wow, it hurt. The scene continues where Daniel hugs Laura. As he was about to hug me, I said
"Can we skip the hugging part?"
I said to Miss J without even looking at him. Miss J was staring at us weirdly. Even some students were confused. The scene continues. Daniel and Laura were laughing at something Daniel had said. I just can't. I kept thinking about why he didn't want to kiss me earlier.
Rejection hurts like hell.
Nicolas noticed I was being weird. He sighs. Did he know something?
"Okay! That was all for the both of you."
Miss J, said, as she told the other students to be on the stage. I sigh and walk to my seat. I took my phone out and texted my mom to pick me up later. She says okay.
"I don't think he was the one for you." Caleb said as he took a seat next to me. I don't need to hear this right now. "He doesn't even want to kiss you for God's sake, and you like that kind of boy?"
Caleb stared at me in disbelief. Somehow, his words make me want to cry. I was trying to forget about the fact he doesn't want to kiss me, but Caleb just had to remind me. "I'm here, Rose. I am always here for you. But you just didn't see me."
"Sorry that I lied to you. I just... can't."
He held my chin up. I was now facing him. He lean in and was about to kiss me, but I stopped him. I don't know what to do. I can't think right now. He's going to ruin everything! I pushed him away from me.
"Don't touch me!"
I didn't know why I suddenly blew up on him. Probably because I was still disappointed and frustrated that Nicolas didn't kiss me. Maybe? that was one of the reasons. I didn't notice that everyone was already staring at us. Caleb was surprised too.
"Uh, I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. "
I rabbed my bag, charging for the door. I was sad about how pathetic I am. Rose, wow. You ruined everything. I'm not in the mood to cry right now. When we arrived at home, I locked myself inside my room. About an hour later, mom was already back at the hospital. But she cooked something for me though. I took a quick shower and, after that, went downstairs. I heard a knock on the door. It was already 5 p.m. I wonder who came? I walked to the door and saw Caleb with a lily in his hand. He smiled weakly.
"I'm sorry. I don't mean to make you upset. Please forgive me?" Somehow, I felt like a bad person. He doesn't do anything wrong. I fell so stupid. "I'm sorry too. I didn't mean to blow up on you. I was just... tired."
I lied.
He sighed, tightening his arm around me. "I'm sorry, Rose."
He said it once again. I feel sorry for him because I yelled at him earlier. I'm such a pathetic person! I overreacted because Nicolas didn't kiss me. Oh God, why am I so stupid? He never says that he likes me. Gosh. I invited Caleb to come in, and he gladly accepted.
"I'm sorry for being such a jerk. I know I don't deserve you, but please... Give me another chance to fix things right?"
"What do you mean?"
"I don't like seeing you ignore me. I know how much you like that guy, but please don't ignore me. It hurt me enough to see you with him." He sighs.
I told him that I'm sorry for ignoring him.
"We could still be friends, right?" He said, holding my hands. "Of course."
He hugged me and said thank you and he wouldn't disappoint me again. It was actually weird. He didn't do anything wrong, to be honest.
I need to learn to stop being childish next time.