That evening, Nicolas and I walked home together. He said he didn't want to take the school bus and wanted to walk me home. Okay, this is seriously new.
"Hey, do you remember when I dumped the soda on you? Ohmygod, I'm telling you. You look so funny." I laugh while telling him about that fun old day. He just rolled his eyes.
"You're just annoying. Remember when you bumped me and I dumped my water on you? Oh you look hideous." He said, scrunching his nose. I hit him on his shoulder playfully.
"It's weird," he said. "What is weird?" I replied as he gaze at me. "This, us. It felt weird having someone to talk to... " He shrugged.
"You'll get used to it soon enough." I said, smiling. He didn't reply to me, instead he just rolled his eyes and chuckled. I started wondering... Doesn't he have any girlfriends before? in kindergarten? He said he's not used to this girl friend thingy.
"Oii. We're here." I heard him say Oh.didn't notice we had already arrived at my house.
"Okay then, See you on Monday!" I waved at him and walked to the door. He just scratched the back of his head and turned around. I smiled and turned to look at him.
"Nicolas, wait!"
I said, and he stopped and turned to look at me. Before he had the chance to ask, I hugged him. Smiling. He didn't hug me back at first. I bet he felt it was weird. But soon he hugged me back. He has hugged me before when he was as Daniel, though, so why does he feel weird? I closed my eyes while hugging him. How I wish he was mine. How I wish he knew my feelings for him. I wonder what his reaction will be when he knows that I liked him. Will he like me back? It's frustrating. We pulled away from each other.
"What was that for?" I loved it when he smiled. Especially when I'm the one who makes him smile, and not to mention his dimple! "Friendly hug?" He nodded in disbelief. "Okay, I guess bye now."
"Bye!"
I said as he left. He rolled his eyes when I said, "Don't miss me too much't miss me too much." He just waved at me. I like it when he's like this. I like him more like this. It's confusing when I say 'this' too much. It looks like he really is the one for me after all.
On Saturday, Bella came over, and we watched a movie and talked about yesterday.
"Wow. What was new?" She said, shocked. "I think you should tell him that you like him."she added. "I don't know... It feels like the right moment, but I don't know. What if he doesn't feel the same way? "What if he doesn't like me back?" I raise an eyebrow. "How do you know he doesn't like you? you haven't told him your feelings yet," she said. True, but... I don't know. "Maybe later? I don't know. Don't you think it's too soon?" I sigh. She shrugged.
"I guess you probably need more strategy." she chuckled. "Since you're doing well making him hate you, why not try to make him love you now?" She wiggled her eyebrows as I rolled my eyes. "It's not that easy, you know." I told her truthfully. "Well you should try it. Maybe miracles will happen." she winks.
If miracles do happen, they should have happened a long time ago.
"Maybe you should try seducing him."
 
What? That was weird.
"That's a bad idea. He'll definitely run away from me." I scrunch my nose thinking about what's going to happen if I seduce him. "Ohmygod, he's going to cry!" She laughs, saying that he's going to have a nightmare tonight because we keep mentioning his name.
An hour later, Bella goes home, and I am left thinking. Nicolas is just so different from the other boys I used to know. That's why I find him attractive. He is just so innocent yet with a sexy attitude and a gorgeous face. Gosh, I can't possibly breathe. What would he do if he knew that I liked him?
But what got me thinking was..
Will he like me back?
Because I remember him saying those cruel words to me.
"I'm never going to like you."
It still hurt like hell every time I thought about it.
That night, Nicolas called again.
:Hi. What are you doing?
He asked on the other line. as I sigh.
:Are you okay?
He added
:I thought we're okay now.
That's cute.
"We are. I was just wondering...
I told him truthfully.
:About?
I sigh again.
:Stop sighing. It's annoying.
At least that made me chuckle.
:Hey, Want to play 10 questions?
I decided to change the topic.
:I thought it was 20 or something.
I knew he was probably confused by now.
:I don't care. Do you want to play or not?
:Fine! You go first
He said, and I smiled. what should I ask him? This is the time!
:Favourite colour?
He chuckled. I was just curious, don't blame me.
:Seriously?
He said.
:Just answer the question!
He chuckled again.
:It's red.
Red huh?
:Okay, my turn. What's your favourite color?
He chuckled.
:Seriously? You're copying me.
I said, chuckling.
:Just answer it, Rosa.
I miss him saying my name. Somehow, I love it when he calls me Rosa.
:Hm... Let me think. I don't actually have any favourite colours.
I told him truthfully.
:That's not the answer I was hoping for.
He seriously is a weirdo.
:Fine, maybe brown?
I said, remembering his eye colour. He didn't know that.
:Okay, now it's your turn.
He said. what should I ask him? Let me think...
:Are you gay?
I was already laughing when I said that. I could hear him groan.
:very funny.
He is indeed annoyed.
:Answer me, Nicoooolas.
And yes, I really am trying to annoy him.
:For your information, I'm not. I still like girls.
I could sense that he was rolling his eyes by now. Ohmygod, he must look so cute! I can't stop laughing.
:Okay, my turn. What do you think of Caleb Martin?
I was confused. Why did he suddenly mention his name?
:Why did you suddenly ask about him?
I was curious.
:You are supposed to answer, not question me back.
Nicolas said on the other line a si rolled my eyes in disbelief.
:Fine! I think he's okay.
It sounded more like a question, but eh.
:Okay.
Okay? just okay? He seriously is weird.
:My turn. Why did you suddenly ask about Caleb Martin?
He was silent. Okay.......
:Just wondering.
He said, and I was curious.
:You're not lying?
He's I was supposed to ask now, but eh
:Nope. Why would I?
He said, popping the letter "p".
:Okay, then.
I decided to skip this topic.
:My turn. Hm.. What do you think about me?
I was silent. speechless, to be honest. Should I tell him that I like him? Ohmygod
:I think you're... cute.
Yes, I was telling the truth. He chuckled.
:That wasn't what I expected to hear, but it's fine.
So, what exactly does he want to hear? Should I tell him how sexy and beautiful he is? I'll pass. Maybe next time.
:My turn. Um... What do you think about... me?
I was biting my lip while waiting for his response. He chuckled.
:Now who's copying who?
I didn't reply. I was preoccupied with my thoughts, considering his response to my question. I was nervous for his answer.
:I think you're annoying. At first.
He chuckled.
:But now, I think you're okay, tolerable. I like your hair. Like I said, red looks good on you.
I felt so happy and I wanted to scream when he said that, but I kept it cool. Tolerable is still an improvement, right? I thank God that he couldn't see me because I was blushing like crazy. Our game continues with him asking stupid things like
"Why are you so annoying?"
"What do you think about an elephant marrying a monkey?"
"Do you like onions?"
"Do you prefer cats or dogs?"
And yes, All that. I told him I liked dogs more than cats. I'm not a cat person. I just don't like them. It was already 12 p.m. Thank God tomorrow is Sunday. Or else I would be late to school.
:Why didn't you sleep yet? I mean, don't you feel sleepy? I noticed that you didn't sleep at night.
I was curious. I don't know. I was confused.
:I'm insomniac.
When he told me that, this got me thinking. So what was he doing at night when he didn't sleep?
:Don't you feel bored? Lonely? Don't you feel scared? Being alone?
I was curious as hell.
:I got used to it. I feel calm and relaxed at night. I like being alone. To be honest, there's nothing to be scared about.
I was silent.
:Why did you ask Rose?
It felt weird when he didn't say Rosa.
:Just wondering..
I told him truthfully.
:Can I ask you one last question?
I don't know why I said that. Oh god
:Sure. What is it?
I bit my lip. Should I? Oh God, I feel really nervous. Ohmygod
:What would you do if one day, I told you I like... you?
He was silent. Did I ruin everything?
:Don't take it too seriously, Flynn. I was just asking
I feign a laugh. He chuckled. What should I do? I didn't get what he was trying to say.
:That's impossible. Right? you will never have any feelings for someone like me.
He chuckled. I bit my lip. How I wish I could tell him that I seriously and honestly love him.
:Why did you say that?
Gosh! I didn't mean to say that!
:You're funny, Rose. I dislike you. Don't you remember what I said when we were at the park that night?
I tried to hold back my tears. He laughs. I was silent. It hurts so much.
:Why the sudden silence?
He chuckled. He could still chuckle. Wow him. I sighed and decided to end the call.
:Goodnight, Nicolas.
I said as I was about to hang up, but he stopped me.
:I was just joking.
And when he said that, I swear that my heart just stopped beating. What?
:I have a feeling that you are secretly in love with me.
I could feel him smirking. He started laughing. like really, really laughing.
My eyes are widening. I could feel my cheeks getting warm.
:What?
I was shocked. How did he know? Ohmygod
:Relax, Rose, I was just joking. You're just so much fun to mess with.
And I can't hide the feelings that I'm feeling right now. I don't even know if I should be happy or what.
:It depends.
He said, and I was confused.
:I don't get it.
I told him. And he chuckled. What's so funny?
:Maybe one day I'm the one who's going to fall in love with you. And I was the one who told you that I liked you. Who knows...
I was absolutely shocked at his answer.
WHAT THE HECK JUST HE SAY?!
:Goodnight, Rosa.
He added, and I just can't stop smiling. I even feel like crying, but Ohmygod, this is the happiest day of my life!
Did he really say that?