It was a moment to remember seeing myself walking out of the gate, each step leading to freedom. I'm not on a high mood because I'm leaving as a freeman today, rather I am curious about how things have changed, as well as having that pain inside my heart because what I own when I was brought here and what I am coming out with are totally different.
I went in here when I still got parents, children, some people to call family, but now, I'm coming out as a Man who has nothing to lose, it's such a beautiful feeling, but it comes temporarily, being alone is the only thing I know now.
The taxi drove me to the office, my office. I believe I've got a lot of work to do in there, it's the only place I own now, since I no longer have somewhere to call home, those things where rented in Jessica's name, all in the name of love.
On opening my office drawer, it turns out that Ryan can never lose track of his responsibilities, he doesn't just work for me as my lawyer, he's doing more for me than any of his clients, he's more like a personal assistant because he runs my life.
Everything was in there, My driving license, my wrist watch, and few other things, but I believe he's holding the more secure stuff with him, my account informations, documents and few other reasonable things.
I just took sometime to organize my office. I wanted to vacate this office before, believing that I really don't need it, I'm just a writer and could possibly get a room as my office at home, but no, I decided to leave home, to get myself somewhere to always go to during the day, now here's the benefits, I have myself somewhere to stay in until I get myself a home.
Home?..... should I really get a home to live in?..... I'm no longer a married Man who's just going to settle down again after coming out of prison, this is like a one time life opportunity, if I am to think clearly, I believe I should get myself to enjoy a bachelor's life for the meantime, build something, create a life goal and chase after it, become someone that I was not before, I am still twenty eight, maybe I should look into this stuff in some years time, maybe two, when I turn thirty, then I'll decide.
I took a seat, wanting to sit down and think this through. I married so early in life, I dived in into marriage at an early age, missed a lot of things I should have spent time to enjoy, I thought I was making the next step into life, but now I just realized that I was heading in too fast, my time in jail should have taught me a lot, yet here I am about to repeat something that is right, but on it's own time.
There's one thing about getting a home, when I get a home, I wouldn't want to live alone in there, repeating all day as the same, that might possibly make me into looking for a woman, another Jessica to settle down with, I should have learnt from my past and know how to recreate my future with the new opportunity given to me, and to do that, I believe I know the first thing to do, getting back to my close friends, friend actually.
I looked around my office, taking my time to think this through, I'm in no rush to anything, I just have to relax and plan it all well, it will definitely turn out right.
Ryan might possibly be waiting for my call now, he's the first person I am to reach out to, he's the reason I served only six months, as well as the reason I learnt all that I know now, from Karl's teaching, he said that I shouldn't rush life, I should just do the reasonable and see how the results turn out, maybe it's about time I set apart that marriage mindset and live the life of a single guy I am now, no commitment with girls, goal oriented, value the little time I have on this Earth.
Prison made me realize what I had outside here, freedom, my time there was me serving, getting my punishment for my mistakes, now that I'm out here and free, I believe I know one thing now, live your youth to the fullest, go on road trips, fishing, gold trips, sky diving, many things I should enjoy and be able to tell my own children the story, you can hardly find time to do all those things when you're inside marriage.
My phone started ringing, still the same ringtone that I remember, it was down the lower locker, I have to bend low to fetch it from in there. Opening the lock, I brought out the phone to see an unknown number calling me.
I was just staring, I wasn't the type that answer calls from an unknown source, only few have my number and I know them, I don't even put my contacts on the cover of my books, only email, but seeing the number calling me, I have that feeling that I should answer this one.
“ Hello..... Who am I speaking with?.”
“ This is the lawyer responsible for your parents properties, I heard you came out from prison today, was told all that you've went through this past months..... Anyways, I'm calling to schedule a meeting for us to meet, I just want to know when that would be possible....”
I was stunned, like this was totally out of my mind, I already forgot that my parents has their own possession that would become mine now that they're no more, knowing how rich they were and also all I have lost, I can't believe that I would be getting this opportunity to recover myself, I believe it's about time I give Ryan a call, it's about time to build a new me.