After we came back and had to go back our separate ways, I returned back at the hotel hoping on what to do with the limited time that I've got. As much as I knew David, I never knew him the way his father does, Uncle Dale knows of David's capabilities and flows, I never saw David as one who could be bossed around, I took it that he was a respectful son to his father and God fearing, but now have I realized that those times he wasn't just listening to his father's command, he left the handle and gave it over to uncle Dale to control based on his own decision about him.
Uncle Dale went out of the picture leaving David with no one to control his handle, I can once swear that David is his own Boss, but seeing the kind of life he has been introduced to with just spending two years with his mom, David I once thought about was nothing but a fairytale, was nothing but the thought of my mind.
David was once under the influence of his Dad, not he's under the influence of his mum when he couldn't ever get into the influence of Francis and the others, if I am to guess, I will say he only give vulnerability away to anyone he can trust with it. He trusted his father and lived by his command and in that mindset never liked women or girls all because of what his mother did or because his father never gets himself involved with women, maybe. Then Uncle Dale later thought he was the reason David prefers living in the shadows, so he gave himself away hoping that David will find a Life of his own, instead he never had anyone else to offer his vulnerability, then he picked his mother knowing there was no one else to give away his trust to, if his mom wasn't available, he might've possibly went under the influence of Francis and the others.
I think I have to make a gamble about this, with just few days left here, I will put an effort to see whether I can take David away from his mom through his trust, if I ever accomplishe such raid, then it's all settled because David changes like the weather, he's like water that flows towards the direction it's channeled to, if I get him to follow me, then fixing him won't be a problem because he will put in the work himself.
I know I made a mess on my visit today, but I am going to change that tomorrow, and to do so, sacrifices must be made, sacrifices that involves activities, but what was I taught?, Take responsibility for your actions, that I have to do, it now depends what I should pick, save a brother and cancel my upcoming schedule or focus on my own life and hope David finds a way back?.
What is a goal?, It's a struggle where efforts need to be made for success to be achieved, both options I made falls into this category, but now I should be the one to choose and my decision says who I am. I brought my phone out and dialed my manager's number, “ Cancel my schedule for next week, I have got a task in hand ”.
If I'm to leave the city again with a good name this time, why shouldn't I gamble with it?. Life is a gamble where choices are continuously made but responsibility for the choices are rare, if I am to do this, then I am as well going to lose something, something that's worth it.
It's a New week and I'm supposed to already be chasing a new set of goals today but no, I'm doing this, I know that the chances of winning are rare but I have to try, right now Should I confirm whether I can seat for my Dad in his absence or keep standing in his absence because I was never worth his presence.
I can see the shock in his eyes when he saw me again, not just again, but on a period when I possibly shouldn't be seen.
“ Now son, I'm really confused, I don't know why or what you're doing here but I don't know whether the reason is worth it....”, he said, putting the telephone across the glass on his ear, I was listening through the other side of the telephone too and eyes staring into his and hand placed on the glass.
“ Yeah Dad, you're correct, I also asked myself that and couldn't believe that the answer couldn't be said outside, not even as a whisper, it is meant to stay in there up my head, but a blessing of luck is still needed for me to carry it out....”. I said, hoping that this time I am really not sending myself to ruin.
“ I don't know what this is that you're planning to do, I'm am already feeling scared of this stunt from you, but knowing it's Jones that's doing this, I guess I have to put in a ton of hopes on it and pray for whatever it maybe ”. He said, looking into my eyes to see whether I still have the assurance I came in with.
I know exactly what he is seeing now, that moment in the kitchen where he said I changed his mind, that's exactly the same point we are at in now, that scenario where I am about to change my decision and ready to take responsibility of it, but his fear isn't whether I am about to lose my way, but, is the reason for the decision worth it?.
It's up to me know to worry about that, but the blessings to proceed is all I ask for. I'm about to get into a war with a woman, and inside that woman, there's a man locked in there who really needs saving but doesn't really know whether he needs it.