Apple's Point of View
"For your orientation, I'm going to give you a quick school tour for you guys to familiarise yourself with the place" The teacher brightly says. I was just nodding and hoping that this day would end. It was awkward and quiet, I was awkward and quiet. They were trying to have a conversation with me but I just answer their questions and be quiet again.
"Hi, sit here. You're too lonely there '' One of my girl classmates said and pointed to the vacant seat beside her. I willingly followed and just stayed quiet but my talkative side won't let me. I feel like I have to say something and get a conversation with them.
"Where are your homes?" I asked. The two girls that are trying to have a conversation with me look at me and answer my question. Woah, they all lived nearby as they say their places and its direction.
"And you live so far away. Why did you choose this school?" The one girl who has fair skin and glasses asks. She was at the last seat next to a wall.
"I just want to go to school somewhere far" I said. It was true but with a reason. I don't want to have people that I knew and I just want a fresh start still.
The orientation began as the teacher began her quick school tour. The three of us got to know each other as we were in the front of the line for the tour. We were just few and judging by the atmosphere it seems like we all are still getting to know each other.
"What's your name?" The girl who has tan skin and bun hair asks. The girl who pointed to the vacant seat for me to sit.
"Ayen" The fair skin and glasses stated. I got quiet, I know that there's a lot of Ayen's in the world but this feel like a familiar scene to begin with.
"Apple, how about you?" I responded. She stated her name saying it was "Geraldine" and we can call her what we want to call her.
And our last stop was the gymnasium who's in the fifth floor of the building. We get to see another class with a huge amount of students and they were so loud like they were already familiar with their faces.
I'd lay my eyes on a boy who has glasses on and he seems to have friendly characteristics as he has a lot of people to talk to. I don't want to go in that phase again, I'd like to be quiet and preserve one and meeting him feels like meeting my old self.
We walked past them almost immediately as we didn't care. The teacher told us a few reminders before she let us go. We would meet and have our first day on Monday, that was a boring one. I want to explore this place but I've met people who really didn't want to go.
So in the end, I just texted dad if he could pick me up and if he didn't I would commute. But I really don't know how and probably would ask several times for people and still couldn't make it.
It was no big deal actually, I enjoyed asking random stranger because I felt that I'm going in there but the thought of getting embarrassing moments makes me so anxious and worried but I always console myself and wouldn't think of it.
"Hi, do you know how I can get through this place" I said and showed him my phone that has my home address. He seems like a good guy since he has glasses on and he's approachable. He even stop his friend from talking to hear me out.
"Oh, you need to pass this bridge again and ride a bus and ask for their help" He even end it with a smile but I was worried if I'm going to trust this man or not since after that they laugh like they're not going to help me at all.
But in the end, I still trust him. If he were going to betray me, I would stay up all night doing my rituals for him to get good karma. But he really helped me, I was now in my house but still with the help of a few random strangers that willingly helped me.
"Wow, really. You're all goods by yourself now, Apple" My mom said as I said my experience earlier while we were at the dining table. It was really a relief that I didn't get lost or go far away from the supposed place I'm going to. People can still be trusted, but not all.
"But I don't want to be by myself. I still don't trust myself that much, Mom" I said. She nodded and looked at my dad who looked like he heard was enough for him to boost his ego. I don't know their deal.
After eating, I played online games with my brother. I forgot everything that happened to me earlier because they are no big deal at all. There's nothing to be excited about but that's also a relief since I don't get a crush anymore.
Monday came really fast like it was a blink of an eye. We went to the seats that we wanted as the teacher arrived almost immediately. We were all lost and that's what we talked about the whole day.
Nothing special but I feel like I was at the phase of that. I could be relatable now and that's what excites me. I'm going different now from the last time, I want that feeling to long for more.
"Hi, we're Alina and Mina. Let us hop on in your friendship haha" The girl introduced herself to us. We quickly accepted them and talk to them, we enjoyed each other company without feeling anything.
When I think about it, it may be because we were strangers to each other. We don't know our secrets and wouldn't plan to do so. I'm just grateful that they didn't really want to know me like the usual in my old school.
They accept what I would just tell them and I'm also like that with them. I also feel like I'm turning into a boring and casual one instead of the loud and friendly one.
"You know what, the issue is Alina and Rayver dated each other but Rayver picked and chose someone and it was not Alina" Ayen said when we were going to her place to do the project. I don't know how to react since I feel like we're backstabbing her.
"Really? How did you know?" I said. At the end curiosity hits me, I felt really sorry for Alina and also for myself as I'm still turning into a curious and toxic one. I feel like I also deserve the karma that I get because I have a really bad attitude.
"It was revealed by Mina and Alina was really the delusional type of girl" She continues. I got quiet and changed the topic as it was getting on the wrong hand. I'm not in the position to judge someone like that.
After that, I really want to be close with Alina. I feel like I'm going to see if she's wrong or right if I'm going to know her perspective. But if she's really delusional, that's not my business anymore.
I also don't get how they became mad at Alina. Like the other group was kind of bullying her and she didn't even know it, did she? I feel saddened for her as I know how it feels. I also feel like I'm betraying her when I don't tell her everything.
"She would always be proud that she's the former fling of Rayver but she's really disgusting" Mina said. Did Ayen and Jeca do this to me when all I did was tell them everything? Did they also backstab me for my annoying attitude.
And the time comes where Alina and I are going alone together. Of course she was all talkative and proud about her life. Her life is purely good and nice. I wanted to know if she knows the people around her, so I wandered it.
"Rayver was my ex-fling, you know what we even study together in a video chat. These let me get the picture of us. This, "she said. So this rumour is true, Rayver has a girlfriend now and Alina talks about is him being her ex-fling.
But it was so rude to call her delusional when it seems true. She didn't tell everyone lies with proof to begin with. She might be just proud and happy to tell everyone about her life. Looking at her makes me feel like looking at my old self, the pure and cheerful one.
"And we started playing online games then I started trash talking him but guess what he's number one all over the place so I was bit of embarrassed about it" She talks and talks about Rayver.
I wonder if Rayver also feels the same. Rayver was our classmate and he was the childish and annoying one. I wondered if he would also talk about Alina like what Alina does. But I don't think he also feels the same.
He chose another girl over Alina and he also gave her mixed signals. He can distance himself if he doesn't like Alina.
And now I know reality. It is different when you experience it first hand. When you experience mixed signal and your so confused if you were just assuming it or he gives it off on you.