Apple's Point of View
"For real sir, it was just a prank?!" Says Danielle. We are all shocked by the sudden announcement of our teacher who says that there's a debate.
I'm relieved that the debate won't be held because I didn't have time to prepare for it, I even forgot about it being important school work. I have a lot on my mind right now and thinking of it would make my head hurt.
"Why do you really want a debate? I can go on" The teacher says and the majority refuses. I also shook my head in disapproval. I'm not ready to go into battle without a weapon to fight so I refuse.
"Okay, let's start the discussion" He said after looking at our disapproving faces. I keep on thinking something that there's no more lesson that's going on in my head.
I hate to admit it but there's a change in our family once we come back. I don't know if it's because I unravel the truth or they really just change because of the problems that's in our way.
One more thing is the question: what am I supposed to do to forget and erase these feelings toward Frederic because I still caught him up and he's running to my mind. I don't want to feel this feeling and I can guarantee that if anyone was in my place they've already made up their mind and just moved on.
I think it was because it is me, the girl who always assumes. I've searched through the internet and found this mental illness called delusional. I don't want to self-diagnose but I have hunches that I might have this thing.
Uneasy feeling when I saw Rena's mom sitting on my favourite bench looking through my soul like it wants to eat me out, I'm afraid. I thought of backing out but then I saw Frederic and all my classmates going thru my direction, maybe because they were going home.
I don't have a choice but to go in the same direction. I sent a message to my dad but because of nervousness, I couldn't type it well.
I was shocked when she grabbed me and told me to stay quiet. I was shocked by her bold behaviour, she didn't even fear me shouting out loud to gain the attention of the public. I really hope that she won't harm me.
"Hello again, Apple," She said. I lock my eyes through her to let her see the emotion that I felt. I hope she sees that braveness that I could release anytime so people would back me up. But she got his knife out and point it at my belly.
"I know what you do, little child but if you would shout I would kill you instantly so I can take revenge on your parents who think you're a precious gem" She stated. I don't fear death but thinking that my parents would cry and blame themselves would make me want to back out.
"You should also think of your daughter's reputation once I clearly shout and kill me. Your child won't go places and would live up to people bullying her and that's because of you" I said. If you go lower, then I would definitely go lowest.
"That won't happen if you stay silent and don't dare to manipulate me because in order to manipulate me, I would bring your whole family. My child was only one person but yours is let's count, your mom, dad, cousin, aunt, uncle, brother. Six people would have vanished" She said.
"What do you want?" I said. I'm afraid that she's going to be tortured or worse killed because of this stupid argument.
She's clearly ahead of what she's doing. That's why she's bold enough to grab me in the crowd but I'm not going to let my fear eat me up. I'm still going to stand if she's going to harm me.
"I'm just going to say if you have a plan of dropping out in this school, I'm warning you I have my ways to go against you and your whole family so don't even plan it" She said. I roll my eyes.
I don't even plan on going out of this school because it's so hard to become familiar with the place. And it's also hard to find friends.
"What am I a fool? I'm going to graduate in less than three months and I don't even think of what you're thinking. You're clearly very ahead of your plan so get lost" I said. She was clearly embarrassed. All that manipulation just for stupid warning, I'm out.
When my dad arrived, I became silent. All the ride after that incident, I became silent. I don't want to ruin what they were thinking and I don't want them to worry for me. They had enough of this cruel world that couldn't get a hold of them.
"I'm still your dad, Apple," Dad says when we enter our subdivision. I just nod and look through my view, trying hard not to cry.
In simple words, I want to cry and hug him. I miss him and Mom. I miss when I'm innocent and naive about people. That I don't know that people can be cruel and the world can be mean. I miss our bond together, me, mom, dad and Paul, my brother.
"You can still say your thoughts and I'm willing to listen to it" He still persuades me in opening up my problem. But that's what I'm most afraid of now, to let him know what's going on. If he would know, he would worry and think about it.
"I'm okay, dad. We know that you had it worse than me so I don't want to bother you. I just hope that it will stop now" I said. He patted my shoulder as a sign to comfort me and I look at him.
"Yes, we're getting there, Apple. I hope for that too" He said before parking the car but I know that it's not just gonna stop there. I still had my problem with me and that would be the thing I'm afraid of.
Tomorrow came and I had my school schedule so I wore my PE uniform and let my dad ride me to school. I'm so energised right now and I don't know why. I thought that it was because I was comforted by my dad.
I'd go to my seat and prepare for the Uno game. It was an everyday routine for us and we're okay with it. We didn't find it boring after all and we bonded with it. But it's different right now, Mina brings Jenga and it's a new game so we played with it.
It's so different right now because I don't think I still find Frederic. I'm fine with being me and I don't want to find him anymore. I guess it's all anxiousness towards the debate that I feel and not really real feelings.
I'm happy that I'm finally being able to uncrush one of my crushes, which was a good thing for me. Finally having progress on my feeling makes me want to jump and be over at places.
"Miss Lopez states that we should have one individual task for ourselves that our group wouldn't do in our PE class" The class president announced it. It was later said by our teacher in the group chat.
I was more thrilled just by thinking that I'm in the same group with Renz, I don't really know why I'm thrilled and I'm not sure of what I'm feeling now. Is he the replacement of Frederic? Well, I guess he could've been better than him.
Ayen, Mina, and Alina were in the same group because that's an alphabetical order and our surnames are close to each other. We discussed our own individual task without making it announced to the whole group.
We're not still close with each other and I feel like it would hurt us if we talk to each other. We're close with Danielle and his friends but it's just them that were closed with. We don't really talk with other added classmates that we have.
"Uh, excuse me what are you going to do?" Renz made the first move as he tapped Alina and Mina. They all state their task and I'm nervous. I don't know why I'm being nervous, it was maybe because it would be the first time that we were going to talk on it.
"How about you, Miss?" He asks while looking at me. I even forget what I'm going to do and I was helped out by Ayen which was an embarrassing thing. I rolled my eyes badly, I was embarrassed.
How can I forget those tasks of mine? I don't have the opportunity to talk to him because of that. But I shook it off and started my own business. I somehow did forget my embarrassing moment as I'm totally focused on my task.
After that I called him, signalling him that he would be the next to do his individual task and he smiled at me. I smiled at him too and shrugged it off. After all, I'm still his classmate and I'm still his groupmate. So that means nothing to me and him.