Apple's Point of View
"For real?!" I was shocked when I confronted my brother. He already knew who Renz was and he added him on social media. I was not really in a good mood when I found out because we're not really on good term right now as we fought.
"You left your phone open, sister so I got curious on who you are talking to" He explains his side but I'm still left dumbfounded. I was at the verge of lashing out but I knew it wouldn't end up good so I just got his phone and removed the request.
"Next time, don't interfere. You might get into trouble if you do that to a stranger" I scolded him and he just nodded at me. I got his phone and blocked Renz there so he wouldn't see it next time.
After that, I just went out and helped my Aunt do the chores. She's been doing the work since my grandmother was the one who's at my grandfather's wake and funeral. We didn't even get a chance to go to the wake and funeral.
I blame it on our Uncle who's still free out there and threatening us. We still had no news about my parent's whereabouts and it's been a while now. I really hope that they won't get bruises or they aren't in pain.
"Aunt, isn't there still no available information about my parents?" I asked my Aunt while cleaning the floor.
"Your Uncle was doing his very best to get the information that we needed. Your Uncle on the other hand was still very secretive. I really don't know how he does that, Apple like how he get hidden so well" She explains her frustrations.
That's what confuses me too. He was a fugitive and the fact that the government still couldn't keep up to him was very confusing. He had nothing, I guess because he hadn't earned anything and was kicked off by his parents.
"What can be the possibility that he's still not caught yet, Aunt?" I am full of confusion. I may have an idea that he has a gang full of fugitives and they are the one who's helping him with all this work.
"I don't really know, Apple. One thing is possible, he has his connections and that was what was left on him" She answers. That gave me goosebumps honestly, I didn't really think of that possibility.
"Does he have connections even before?" She then glance at me and I saw fear in her eyes as I thought she was thinking about the past.
"You wouldn't believe it but he also was the one who ruined us because he had connections to illegal stuff" She responded and continued cooking the dish. I'm not surprised anymore because he was jailed because of that. He got cut off from their family tree because of that.
After cleaning the floor, I get my phone and play games. I was so shocked that Renz was online and inviting me for a game. I was nervous but still accepted his invite.
"Hornet?" I was confused as to who this other person was. They have the same profile as a cat. The difference is the cat's variant like him was an orange cat and the other one was white cat.
But still, I was hurt. That's why I preferred to play by myself because my brother doesn't want to play.
I was thinking of it the whole day. I even asked my cousin who has the same profile because he likes cats to search for that person. I was shocked to see that account was great, she was great at playing not like me.
"Okay, that hurts me" I said and stopped playing games for the meantime and lay on my bed. This is the first time that I was really hurt by my crushes, I didn't even care for them but Renz was the exception.
He really makes me wonder about him and sets boundaries. I can now know that he didn't like me and I'm not assuming that he is. I'm assuming by his acts but other than that, there's somehow a chance but I always shook my head on those thoughts.
Then my other crushes who I really thought that they like me because of the eye contacts that they share with me.
"Sister, let's eat!" Paul said. I went with him and hugged him. I said sorry for my actions earlier because it may bother him and he might cry. He hugged me back and tells that he was okay and it was somehow his fault.
I'm really glad that I may haven't had luck pulling boys but I had luck with my family and that was the best feeling that I had.
The announcement of honours is going to happen and I am confident that I am there and I'm going to get it no matter what. But things didn't go in my way as always because my name wasn't there and even how many times, there's no Apple there.
I was more devastated by the news. I worked hard for that year so that I can get a medal and my parents would be proud of me. I want them to go to my graduation after this things that happened to us but now that things happened this way, I don't know what they're going to feel.
Anxiety was already building upon me and thinking about how I would say it to my family, I can't. I feel backing out with that thought. I was thinking of ending my life because of that, there's no way, I was this unlucky before.
This may be the karma that I get upon all those bad behaviours I did in the past. But that wasn't even that bad to get me these cruel things. But I think this is the real world and I'm blind because I was a child before.
Now, I feel like I don't want to grow up anymore. It's hard to be adulting and I feel so depressed. I hope that mom and dad are here to console me with everything that I feel right now.
I disguised myself so that I could go to my grandfather's funeral. I feel like I want to release my feelings to him. I sneak out while they are sleeping and use my window to go out. I also have my knife to protect myself in case.
"Where are you going?" I was caught up by a stranger. I was surprised and pointed my knife to him. Anxiety was building up, I was getting ready to kill him when he showed himself and even raised his dad, my dad.
"Dad! I missed you so much!" I said and hugged him. I even threw my knife out so he couldn't get hurt. I really miss him and hugging him makes me want to cry like a river. I'm so happy that he's safe.
"Where's Mom?" I asked after hugging him. He wiped my tears as he also wiped his own tears.
"Where are you gonna go first?" He asks. I bite my lips so hard. I don't know what to say because I'm not ready yet to say it to him, that I failed them even if they don't really pressure me to get something.
"Sorry, dad. I was just going to grandfather's wake, your dad's wake" I honestly said. He seems confused but it feels like he got a thought.
"I'm going to, let's go together" Then he held my hand and we went together to my grandfather's wake. It feels weird and confusing that he didn't have my mom beside him. And he didn't even answer my question.
And we're here. I feel sad while slowly walking to see him lying in his coffin. Even if we just met for a while, we got to be close with each other. I didn't even got a chance to let him look at my crush's picture.
Seeing him peacefully lying there makes me want to cry but my tears won't escape so I feel that my heart was heavy. I close my eyes and feel my heart heave. God knows I'm really tired and I really am.
"Grandpa, let me have your courage to speak about what I just failed. I feel like a failure now to my family" After that my tears escaped my eyes and now racing with each other.
I let myself quiet and after that I sat down beside my grandmother to give way to dad who I see quiet at the same time sad and depressed. What happened to my mom? And what happened to him? I'm concerned.