Shortly after what I had done, it was at this moment that I felt that there were indeed some conversations that really involved common sense. When I started to feel dizzy from the alcohol I was drinking, at that moment I started to be between the midpoints where disbelief with all of this slowly came back to me. This time I feel that those things are what I regret the most, in which there is only a speck of light that I might be able to reach even though it's actually just an illusion. After that, I started to look around again which my head still couldn't control. After that I began to realize that now these are just some things that are not worth worrying about in any form. The event I attended tonight, previously only intended to just come and do nothing else. However, in the end I felt that it would just be a waste and that's why I started drinking a lot with them this time. Not long after, I decided to just go back because my current condition couldn't be said to be fine. Even my head can't think straight anymore and all there is is pain. Arriving at home, I started walking into my room where it had been a long time since my head almost exploded and indeed this is what happened to me at this time. I feel that indeed everything in this world can only be seen clearly after several times showing strange things. Something that is already such a bad thing. At the same time, I also felt that it was all true. When my head couldn't take it anymore, I immediately went to the toilet and vomited everything. I was starting to feel relieved after removing all of my stomach contents and after that I returned to my room. This time it felt much more relieved compared to before. After that, I started to take deep breaths.
"Finally I can feel so much better," I muttered to myself.
Meanwhile, it is currently elsewhere. Some people seem to be in the same place. They are full of passion and continue to drink a lot of alcohol. One of them was none other than a person who was quite popular with everyone on campus. Those who were seen together with him had been screaming and singing in this place. The nightclub atmosphere that showed their freedom, at that moment one of the people who were there started to get excited and until they could barely stop because of it.
"Wow, it looks like it will be more fun if we add more people," said one of them, who was none other than a young, blond man who was currently drinking alcohol while standing.
"Why add people? The five of us are enough. This is just the start of the party,” said the young man who was now surrounded by hot women.
"Gosh, even though it would be more exciting if the number of people increased, let alone people who fit my type."
"Hah? No kidding. Where would someone like that want you to come here?”
“Hey, watch your mouth.”
“That's a fact. You want to refute the facts? Wow, you're so stupid."
“Jeez, how long are you two going to keep fighting like that?” said another person who is none other than a person who is quite popular.
Dark night. Right now, I'm just lying down and then I remember that there's an early class tomorrow and I have to get up on time anyway. After I tried to heal myself who couldn't move anymore, it felt like I was being pulled into an abyss where there were lots of rocks and maybe I would die right away. After that, I felt that there really was something that didn't make sense, so I tried to stay sane again and after that took some hangover medicine. After what I did before, it felt like I couldn't stop thinking about it and after that I also started to get annoyed with what I had done recently. I, who am currently out of control, still feel that there are other things that I should throw away. At almost the same time, I also felt that there was some truth to it and I had to forget about it. As it is past and there is no need to see it again. I felt that it was just an impossible powder that would make me feel even crazier by having it right in front of my eyes and even now. When I had time to see some things that were quite strange, one of them came to me and slowly made me feel uncomfortable. As with some things, I'm starting to not know what to say and that's exactly how I feel. This time I feel that everything in this world cannot be separated from the so-called strange things and it's even like some of the things that have been attached to me. Not long after, I also saw one of what had been inside of me, instantly I felt that it would all come back like a nightmare that always haunted me.
“Shit, I can't think about that,” I muttered to myself while covering my ears like a madman who was hallucinating.
From what happened to me this time, even though the effects of the alcohol had started to wear off and I still looked the same. After that, I felt that the frustration that I had been harboring for so long began to slowly show itself to the surface. At that time I also started to feel unsuspecting of this and until now I don't know how to deal with it. When I started to feel messed up, suddenly I felt like someone else and not myself. That's when I called my friend.
"Yes? What is it?" asked Irisa who was none other than my only friend in campus.
"I think I'm going crazy."
"What? why are you talking like that? don't tell me you're drunk
"No. Now the effects of alcohol have decreased. I'm only getting reminded of events in the past that I've wanted to forget. What is this?"
“Jeez, then you better not drink so much. Actually what have you been thinking? Why are you drinking everything?”
“That's because there's an event I attended. If I don't come those people will bury me alive."
"Seriously?"
"That's so true and even now I'm almost going crazy with it all."
"Unlucky. Then you just treat yourself," he said as he ended the phone call.