Geo
Gwen grew up to be an angel and I just love her so much, I’d do anything for her. Anne and I would do anything for her of course. In fact, Anne decided to go back to the Silver Moon Pack to somehow find some means for living when Gwen was just a year old. She just can’t bear the scarcity of food in here and I think she made the right decision.
“Mommy are you leaving so soon?” The now 3 year old Gwen asked, seeing Anne putting on her coat.
“Mommy will be back soon honey be good to daddy and Ma and Pa.” Anne said, crouching down to give Gwen a hug. My heart warmed at the sight and can’t help but join in the embrace.
When we pulled away, Gwen waved goodbye to her mother and I did too. She walked a few meters away before shifting into her gray wolf and speeding away.
“When I grow up, I want to be like mommy.” Gwen said as we headed inside. “She’s cool and always brings delicious food.”
I smiled at the pup. “Do you not want to be like daddy? Daddy’s cool too.” I said.
“Nah, I do want to find a guy like you daddy, you’re strong.” She said cheekily.
“Find a guy? Where’d you learn that huh? You’re too young to find a guy you know?” I said, playfully pinching her cheeks.
She giggled and the sound is music to my ears. She’s a melody that heals everything, I can even say that I’ve already truly forgiven Anne for her betrayal because after all, Gwen was the fruit of it and she’s like, my salvation and I don’t want to ever lose her.
A month later, when the moon shone its full light once again, I tucked Gwen to bed and headed out for a hunt. Being left to babysit her gave me less time to spend outside and be one with nature and my wolf, so I occasionally left her with Ma and Pa and go out for a run.
After locking up the kitchen door, I crouched down and unleashed my midnight black wolf. Feeling a surge of stored up energy within me, I wasted no time and leaped into the moon lit forest. I let the wind cool my fur coated body and let my paws pound on the mud as I zigzagged from tree to tree. After a while of running, I decided to rest beside a river and drink water. When I walked on its bank though, a sweet scent of lavender hit my nostrils and I raised my head to the other side, expecting to see a garden of some sort only to find a pair of ocean blue eyes staring back at my hazel brown ones. There’s something about that wolf that I can’t quite point out.
And then our staring contest was broken by a howl and I quickly turned towards its direction to see the silhouettes of a male and a female wolf in the distance, doing their romantic business which immediately made me cringe. When I looked back to the other side of the river though, the wolf with ocean blue eyes disappeared.
I didn’t get a good look at that wolf. I can only remember the way its eyes stared back at mine. And I don’t even know if it was a he or a she. A part of me wants to know though, yet another scent caught my attention making me turn towards the direction of the two wolves earlier. Honey and rain, Anne’s scent. It wouldn’t have been a problem it wasn’t mixed by a strong minty one and the smell of arousal. Anne, she’s mating with a male wolf.
Furry burned within me that I decided to just get out of there in bullet speed and hunt elsewhere. After finishing off three baboons, I finally called it a night and went to lay in bed, keeping Gwen close to me with tears streaming down my cheeks.
“Daddy! Daddy! Wake up daddy! Mommy is here!” Gwen’s excited cheer woke me up and I lazily dragged myself out of bed to follow her into the main hall. Sure enough, Anne was there, unpacking the supplies she brought. I can smell the difference in her scent now and just can’t brush away the scene that I saw last night, so I just gritted my teeth, not saying anything to her as she and Gwen talked and talked.
“Hey, is something wrong?” I cringed when I heard Anne’s voice behind me and felt her hand on my shoulder as I was washing the dishes that night.
What’s wrong? Is she really going to ask me that? Does she really think I’m oblivious to the thing that she’s doing behind my back? “Nothing.” I calmly answered.
“I know that calmness in your voice Geo, that’s not nothing.” She pushed through and I just went out by the kitchen door while she followed suit. When we were a safe distance away from the house, she asked me again. “What’s wrong Geo?”
And I snapped. “What’s wrong? What’s wrong is that I saw you last night Anne.” My first statement alone made her eyes widen. “You were entangled in a male wolf’s arms somewhere in the forest-“ I couldn’t even finish my sentence because the anger I felt made a lump form in my throat and I have to swallow it. “Who is he? Is he your mate?" I just have to ask.
I thought she was going to deny it and say that nothing could break the bond that we chose to make against all odds however, “Yes…” She mumbled in a quiet voice, looking down, afraid to meet my gaze.
That statement broke my heart all over again and I dropped down to my knees, yes I may be angry because she cheated on me, but there’s something more important than my anger, Gwen. “Please, I know this may be too much to ask but just please Anne, stop messing around and just come back to us, me and Gwen. Whatever you’re doing will ruin her too, please I can’t afford to lose the family that we built.” I pleaded despite wanting to scream at her for being a slut after leaving her daughter with me, and not thinking about the consequences of what she is doing.
Tears started rolling down her cheeks as she sobbed a response. “I would come back, if I’m not pregnant…” That shattered me because right at that moment, I heard it again. That little sound that devastated me three years ago, it’s there again, and this time, I don’t think she’s going to deny its father.
My body trembled at that thought. What’s she going to do now? Be with her mate? And what about Gwen? Would she take her away from me? No! No! Just no! I can’t let that happen. I just can’t. So I rushed back inside the house and just like last night, I held my angel tight while she sleeps, not wanting to let her go.
“Can you believe it daddy? Mommy’s finally going to take me to see Silver Moon Pack!” Gwen’s cheerful greeting made me froze as I looked at Anne already putting her clothes inside a suitcase. “It would be nice there daddy. I wish you could come, but you have to take care of Ma and Pa, but don’t worry, I’ll tell you all about it when I come back here daddy!”
I bit my lower lip, holding back the tears that are threatening to fall as I carried her in my arms. “Okay kiddo, just promise daddy you’ll come back okay?”
“Of course daddy! I promise!” But I already know what’s going to happen and I just looked at the daughter that I raised one last time, making sure to remember every detail of her as I fear that this may really be the last.
Anne. I can’t believe she would do this to me. But a part of me believes that she’s actually capable of such an action because she already did this before, she cheated on me! Yes I forgave her, but I guess I shouldn’t have because she used that forgiveness as an advantage. She made me raise her pup despite all the hardships that I have to endure, let the kid make her way into my heart, and then pulling her away all of a sudden because she found her mate now. If she schemed this up, she really did a perfect job of ruining me.
I forced a smile as Gwen waved goodbye at me and my parents, my heart so heavy, I can’t even properly breathe anymore. And when they disappeared in the forest, I stormed inside the house and into my room, burying myself in the remnants of their scents.
It's too much though, this is too much, I can’t bear it. In a fit of anger and pain, I started throwing all the things that I can get a hold of into the wall and screaming like a mad man.
“Stop it Geo! Calm down! The kid’s going to come back soon.” She stated.
“No Ma, she’s not. In fact, they’re not…” I sobbed and she looked at me confused. “Anne found her mate.”
Without waiting for a reaction from her, I threw the lampshade on the closed widow, breaking it, and then I jumped out of the broken window, unable to contain my wolf anymore.
Is this the Moon Goddess’s way of telling me how a same sex relationship on werewolves would never work? Is this her way of punishing me for even trying to bend the odds just to get my heart’s desire? If so, it really hurts a lot and I don’t think I’d be able to take it.
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