Stanley let out an angry sigh. Fuck! He never felt so frustrated before but he fucking blame himself for not properly thinking things through. In his heart, he didn’t really plan to save him for he don’t have any reason to. But, damn! Even if he had wavered a bit and thought in such a negative way, the fact that he still save him cannot be denied!
And right now, at this very point he totally regretted it. Who would’ve guess that this idiot was so f*cking ungrateful to not even hesitate to leave him behind? To tell him the truth, he also had that urge last night but he f*cking endured and stayed with him until the end!

Back then, he thought he would be satisfied to see him suffer but thinking to it now, he felt a deep regret and resentment that he could never take back. It isn’t the fact that he regret saving him then but the thought of him leaving his side! He won’t care if he dies so long he never leaves.
Just that…
It just that and he wouldn’t be hurt this much.
“Stay with me…” Stanley said in a trembling voice.
He never thought that he would be this desperate to make him stay. It wasn’t just because of his annoying ability that he needed him, and it wasn’t because of the fear of being alone, it was also not his intention to chain him closely to his side, it’s just that, he don’t want him to push him away anymore.
He was always, always thinking of avoiding him. Even when the world still haven’t gotten into such a mess, he was so eager to stay away from him. He was so good at driving him mad. In his life, it was the first time he felt so crazy, he was the very first person who made him insane.
Though, he don’t understand his feeling, he was very obsessed with him. Why? He never had the courage to answer such a simple question. It was just that and he couldn’t bear it anymore. What was so bad that made him hate him this much?
Is it that night when he force himself to him? But back then, he clearly wanted it too…
He was moaning so much underneath and he can still hear his soft voice calling his name repeatedly in this very second. It was such a passionate night but after that he suddenly turned cold. He realized then that maybe, it was just a one-time thing and he was slightly disappointed. But. Can you really blame him for wanting more?
In the certain extent, he knew he already turned crazy but he really don’t understand his feelings. He don’t know why he has such an undying urge to f*ck him again. Can you really blame him for that?!
It’s totally because of him that he became like this!
“Let go.”
He heard him say. His voice was so cold, so cold that it could froze his heart. He never ever heard him let go of his words so sweet anymore and he completely hated it. Why won’t you say my name anymore? Stanley just hated the fact that he had no rights to hear his name from his mouth again.
“Answer my question first. Do you really hate me that much…?”
Byul clenched his teeth. How many times should he tell him so he can understand? How many times does he have to pushed him so far just so he feel so powerless? Why can’t you get the fact that I despise you?
“I hate you so much that I’d rather die than be saved by you.”
Those cold words left Stanley shaken to the core. He never thought that he would hate him that much. So much that he rather choose death over forgiveness. When the answer was finally revealed, Stanley slowly loosen his grip.
He never felt so powerless. It’s as if his whole pride has crumbled down with just a single sentence. It hurts. It really hurts. He couldn’t believe that for the first time in his life, he would feel his heart aches so much.
It was a suffocating feeling and was very strange…
Byul took back his arms and without sparing a second thought, he shoved him away. Actually, when he let go of those words, he felt better. He endured his wrath for a long time and now that he finally release them off, he felt comfortable.
Stanley just stayed still. He was completely shaken to the core that he couldn’t get himself to move. Seeing him in that state, Byul felt agitated. You’re the one who hurt me so what are you pretending to be hurt for? Finally felt the sting? You deserve it.
Byul had no time to be idle. Unlike a certain broken-hearted prick, he have no reason to linger on the past. He fixed himself up and inspected the shore. The previous lively environment was now filled with aura of death. Actually, he was very surprised to see that the matter has already been taken care of.
The pile of corpses were scattered all over the beach. Just as he was so scared earlier, now he wanted to laugh at himself. He never thought that he would fear such impossibility in his life.
He already knew he’ll never die.
“I can’t afford seeing you all battered up. If you have some time to sulk then go back. I don’t need someone like you.” He coldly said as he cast a disgusting glance to a certain someone. For a scum like him, he won’t even bother to feel a little bit of pity.
With that said, Byul turned away from him and simply went inside the control room. The yacht was big enough for the two of them and having someone to tag along with him for a while was not a problem. Byul took the time to inspect the yacht. From what he had observe, it was barely used and it seemed to have no problems running.
Byul just shrugged off. Stanley was still outside and from what he saw. He still didn’t move there but well, he doesn’t really care. So what if he drown in his feelings? So what if your pride was hurt? Have you ever thought about what I felt back then? Byul was so mad that he felt frustrated just by looking at him in his vulnerable self.
He wanted to punch him so much. In fact, he want to savor the time he see him suffer but he felt so disappointed when Stanley won’t refute him a little. It’s as if he was the one playing the bad guy and he hated it.
After figuring out how to manage the yacht. Byul finally run the boat and set off to the sea. Maybe after some time, just like this boat, his feelings would slowly drifted away.