'Love, please. Where are you? Is our baby alright? Please I'm fucking worried.'
'Love, what's really happening? What's your problem? This isn't good anymore.'
'Are you the one sending me those boxes about your best friend? What is it really?'
'But don't mind it. Just please show to me, or at least reply me.'
'Just one fucking reply. Just one reply, love. Then i'll be all right.'
'Please reply to me, please.'
'Love, i'll fucking die with this.'
I weakly put down my phone and gathered my knees then buried my face on it.
It's been a week since i keep on avoiding Light, everytime he'll go to my boarding house our landlady would say that i'm not here because i told her to do so. I'm not also replying to his messages and calls, i even turn off my phone sometimes.
I just keep on sending him some boxes containing information about Blaire. Thankfully the guards seems to understand me.
My relationship with Light is starting to ruin. i forced my self to be happy with it when a big part of my soul was suddenly goes missing. While on the other hand my relationship with Blaire goes stronger. Our bond goes firm, that we're like already sisters. Miraculously, i already perfect my acting skills, it even look like it's already my second skin because when I'm in front of Blaire i always manage to be cheerful and happy, i can even tease her with Light but without Blaire my tears would aways go out. Thinking about Blaire and Light falling for each other and living together.
Minutes later, because my phone was open. A caller ID that keeps on flashing my screen everyday, flashed again. Of course, it's Light but what i name him in my phone book is 'Love'. The reason why my lips stretched bitterly.
I admit, i already love him. What others said, that the more you were distanced to someone, the more you will fall deeply, was really true. From just a simple attraction to a worst affection in just two weeks.
But thankfully right now, my self already learned. I shouldn't continue loving him, it would just go to nothing. We're not on the same level plus he's my best friend's match, i will never betray Blaire again because of just a guy. I know that after all this, i can move on from him. It may take time, but i know i'll move on.
I watched my fingers as it pressed the erase button on its keyboard to change Light's name on my phone book. From 'Love' to 'Blaire's Match'. Yeah, i'm fund of hurting my self these days, because i realized that through feeling pain we'll learn.
I leaned back to my headboard after doing those, Light's call became a missed call already and he didn't called again. Thankfully. And...Sadly.
The surrounding was too serene and peaceful when a sudden loud bang made me stood up from seating on bed.
"What was that?" i curiously asked my self.
"How many times do i have to tell you that she's not here?!!" i heard a loud shout.
I creased my forehead because it sounds familiar but I can't still recognize it.
"She's here i know that!! Stop hiding her!!" another familiar voice shouted and after i heard another sound bump again.
"This is already trespassing, get away from here or i'll call a police!!" a lady exclaimed.
My eyes widened and i shakingly covered my mouth when i realized it was our lady and she's talking to–
"Go on!! The hell i fucking care!! Love! Sumer! I know you're here stop doing this on me, please! I'm begging you!" Light shouted.
I tightened my hands on my mouth and broke down again. Light sounds so exhausted and tired, i can't imagine how hard this was for him. I just left him hanging, without any words and explanation.
I bit my lips while they are still quarreling outside before standing up to face him. I think it's time.
It's time to kill my self.
I weakly tied my hair and put some make up on in a hurry way, to at least look good even in just this day. For the last time, i want to look good towards Light. I want to somehow have a space on his heart even just a little, even if Blaire will take over it soon.
After putting some makeup, i bravely opened my rooms door and walked towards outside. Where they are still shouting.
Even from a far, i saw a helpless but wild Light who's forcefully hold by my men boardmates. And our land lady in front of him keep convincing that i'm not here. But when Light's eyes flew to my direction, he suddenly stopped letting go from my boardmates hold and stand still, just staring at me. That made my heart heavy again, and the side of my eyes heated.
Because of that act, they got confused and followed where Light is looking.
"Sumeria Hija!!" Our Landlady exclaimed and approached me. "You should have stayed inside!"
I weakly smiled and my head. "No need Madam. I already come up with my mind to fix this. I'm so thankful for what you have done, this past few days. I don't know how pay you with that."
"You don't have to. You're like a sister to me and i like protecting you but you're also old enough to decide and if that's what you want to do. Go on, just be safe okay? And always remember that, every problem big or small will be solve through talking." She smilingly stated that i couldn't help to embrace her.
"Thank you so much," i whispered.
"No need for that. Go on, face him. I saw that he really loves you. Now fix this," she answered. I smiled bitterly because of what she said on the latter before letting go of her.
I smiled again to here before facing Light. I saw a lot of emotions on his eyes, some can name like missing and worrying but some can't.
I step closer from him and because of it, my boardmates move away. And soon as Light was freed, he immediately ran unto me and jailed me on his arms.
"Fuck!" he whispered and find a space my shoulder to bury his head.
For the first since last week, i felt heat. These past few days, it seems like cold was my companion. I have never felt heat and comfort until this day. Inside Light's arms.
I tightly closed my eyes and savor the heat, his body could give me because i know this would be the last. I know after this, cold will always be my companion forever.
Thinking that this would be the last, i raised my hands to embrace him back.
"L-love, why are you doing this to me huh?" Light whispered and tighten his hug even more but i didn't feel pain because of his tight hug. Instead i felt heaven.
He buried his face on my neck even more and minutes later, i just find his shoulder shaking and i just felt my neck is starting to wet.
That made me like a statue. "L-light," i whispered.
He tightened his hug against me while his shoulder continued on shaking. "Are you crying?" i weakly asked and couldn't help my tears to fell.
"Tell me you're not," I beggingly said.
He's tough! He'll never cry just because of me!
"Then I'm not telling you," he whispered that almost made myself fell into the ground.
I made him cry.