"Light...let's talk somewhere..." i weakly suggested just to stop him from crying.
I stood up while he's crying, i couldn't accept that he cried for me. It made me think of being with him forever and disregarding Blaire but i know I shouldn't. I'm a decent woman, i can't do it.
"Great idea," he huskily said but still not let go of me. Not raising his head from my neck.
"Light stop c-crying...for me..I-i'm not worth it..." i hurtfully said because it's true.
They said a man's tears are worth it, so it should be shed for worth it reason also. And it's not me.
"If you're not, then who will be? I couldn't think of someone else rather than you, love," he exhaustedly said that his voice even cracked.
I shook my head and hardly swallowed. "Let's go somewhere please..."
"All right," he said in almost a whisper then quickly pulled his head from my neck. Without looking at me and not letting me to look at his face, he directly turned back and softly held my wrist then pulled me towards his car's direction.
I bit my lips and go with his hold. The only thing i can see is his back so i just move my eyes towards his hands who's pulling my wrist.
Will he still hold me like this after this day?
I bet not anymore. Light will be out of my life and i'll be out of his life after this day.
I just hoped, he'll still forgive me. Even his whole family, even if it will take decades or centuries. And if his family needed sue me just for me to be forgiven or if i needed to die for them forgive me, then i'll willingly do and accept it.
But one thing is for sure, even if how old i am and where place will destiny bring me. I'll never forget that, once in my life. I met him. I met a person who became a light in my dark life. My life was too boring and dull way back then but when Light arrived it glows. Even in just a short while, it became the most memorable happening in my life.
No one talked while we're walking towards the parking lot. Even when Light opened the door for me, silence is still overruling us. And without talking, we reached an unfamiliar place to me. Or it's more like a subdivision, but there's only few houses.
I scanned the whole place. And noticed that this place was so breathtaking. There are only five houses, behind the houses has barricades and if you go closer you'll realize that there was a sea.
I sharply exhaled and hold the barricade while facing the sea. I got relieved while looking the solemn scenery in front of me and feeling the salty air. Plus the sun rays was reflected on the sea because the sun's setting down. This place is for the best view for sunset.
"What's this place?" i can't help but to ask and slightly looked at Light beside me who's also looking at the view in front.
"My family's own subdivision. In this place, we'll also build our house. You mentioned you like to build a house in a highland, right?"
I stilled a bit.
He still remember it? He keep it? My heart started to pound loudly that my situation more difficult to overcome. Oh gosh, Light! Stop doing this to me!
But despite of having my heart panicking, i stared at the horizon. It where the sea and the sky met. The horizon serves as their boundary, so that they don't go with each. They just met but they aren't meant to go together.
I mentally smiled bitterly when i realized that the scene i'm looking was like the situation i'm in.
Me and Light are the sky and the sea, and our fate is our horizon. We were destined to met, but it has a boundary. It has a limitation, we aren't destined to be together. Simply because we doesn't matched. Sky and sea are different to each other, same with me and Light. And the horizon is where the meeting of sky and sea ended. Same with us, that the time finally come where about to be in our horizon. What we have right now should be ended already.
"Light. We should stop this..." i started when i found a courage to do it.
I heard him frown. "That wouldn't be happening,"
I bit my lower lip and forcefully face him. "That should be happen." I gritted my teeth while on the other hand, my heart is like being grated on that moment.
"And why? Hmm?" He soothingly asked.
I bitterly shook my head towards him and pointed the houses. "There would be no house of ours that will be build here,"
"Lov–"
"There would be no family growing in this place, that was made by us both." I added not letting him to talk even a single.
"Because there's no us. We don't match, this is our horizon. And we're bound and about to end." I meaningfully stated.
"Sumer, what the hell are you talking about?" he frustratedly asked. And just like what i did earlier, he immediately made my mouth shut when i was about to talk. "Love. Sumer...Damn baby! Damn, i don't know what to say anymore," Light frustratedly ran his fingers to his hair.
"Light, let's end this. This...this relationship is forbi–"
"Ssshh..." he huskily hushed through pinning his finger on my lips.
"What were doing in this last was all weird. It drive me nuts while thinking i have done to you. But i let it pass, but this? No. I'll let this pass. Love. We are just starting, why are ending it immediately? I don't what up on your mind right now, but i'll never let you break us apart." Light said.
For the first since we met, i never heard him saying such long phrases. But right now, he speaks a lot that made my heart feels like someone soothingly touch that i wanted to cry harder and louder, because i can't take this anymore. I haven't told him my secrets yet but i'm already melting just because of those words. Oh please help.
"Light stop being too stubborn, please! This is for your own sake and happiness also–"
"This is for my happiness?" Light cutted me. "You're my happiness, love. What about that huh?" he tenderly asked.
I closed my eyes of out frustration and sharply looked at him. "No. I'm not worth it to be your happines–" i was suddenly silenced when Light made me quite using his lips also. My eyes goes wide when it happened. Thankfully, the kiss didn't long. He immediately withdrawed his lips from me after some second with a victorious smile of his face. "Just tried if it works on you," he swiftly stated and winked. "You're already my source happiness and strength. No need to be worth it, you're beyond that," he added.
I bowed down my head to stop my tears and gather my courage again. I know that i'm starting to melt, that's why i need to fight this feeling. Silence filled us in a matter of seconds.
"Come on, love. Let's stop fighting over this unknown reason. We're just making this hard for us both," Light stated.
I shook my head. "You don't understand..."
"Let me understand then–"
"I'm not really pregnant." Finally, i got the courage to tell those words.
My heart is bursting because of nervousness but never listen to it anymore. I just listen to my mind, and to the hope that after this everything will back to its proper places.
"Love. What are you talking about?" Light asked starting to be confused.
I bravely stared at him. "I lied. I'm not pregnant. Nothing happened between us except the night when we met your parents. I faked my pregnancy to make you notice me, because i'm matching you with my bestfriend. I'm gathering informations about you and at the same time i'm making you be with me to match you with Blaire. Remember her? Blaire Apasill. She's the truly one for you." I bravely stated that made me catch my breath after.
After saying those, i looked at Light to see his reaction. But his lips just rose that eventually it turn to a bark of laughter. "Damn, you're joking right?" he asked while laughing like what i said was a really nice joke.
"Love, come on. Stop doing this nonsense. Did i do something to make you like this huh? But i think i didn't, what i just do is loving you. That's all," he playfully asked while his lips is still curving.
"Light. Listen to me please! I lied okay?!" I exclaimed and held my stomach then eventually started to punch it.
"What the fuck!!" Light exlaimed also because i forcefully punched my stomach.
"See?! There's nothing i here!! I lied. I lied everything!!" I said and stop punching my stomach and searched my phone on my pocket.
"Are you still not believing?! Here, that's my messages to Blaire." I made him face the screen of my phone the reason why he stilled and stared at my phone.
He took so long staring on my phone that made me shiver. I saw his face, it's starting to change. Gone the loving and caring Light i used to.
"Matchmaker," he disgustingly stated.
I shakingly put down my phone and stared at him who has a pure disgust on me. I knew it.
My heart started to broke and my lips started to quiver.
He slowly walk towards me that made me step backward. His face is dark and his eyes goes black, with no emotion readable that me shrink in fear.
"L-light..." i nervously stated.
"What did i do to you?" he coldly asked.
I swallowed hardly.
"No ones gonna decide for the woman i'll gonna live with forever, except for me. No one, not even a damn matchmaker like you." He stated and stop walking towards me.
I bowed down my head because it's true at all. No ones gonna decide for theirself, but just them. Who am i after all? I'm just a nobody, that's making a matchmaking a bussiness like i'm one of cupid's people. What i did is pure stupidity.
His words hit me hard to the point that it's like killing my soul.
"Fucking matchmaker," he awfully stated.
My heart clenched because of it, i continued bowing down not letting him see how affects his words to me. This is what i want after all. This is my fault after all.
He then turned his back to me and steadily walked away. Because of that i slowly lifted my face to looked at his back. Light just walk away, not looking back at me even just one time.
The side of my eyes started to heat up while looking at his back. So, this it? We already reached our horizon?
Because of that thought, i finally let go of my small sob. That eventually turns me broking down.
But minutes passed my phone rung, that me stop crying. I wiped my tears away to see who sent me a message.
Blaire: Samy? How's Light?
I closed my eyes after reading the text.
I'm tired.