I didn't get enough of sleep after that until its already morning while Greyson peacefully sleeping beside me, I'll over think myself too much as I looked up to the ceiling thinking of what he have said last night, I'm curious about what are he talking about.
Is he serious about that?
Is he going to be straight?
Many questions running through my head, what does he mean that 'he can't understand himself whenever I'm around him?' I looked at him and he still sleeping like an innocent angel.
"If you can't understand yourself. Well, I am too. I'm confused." I said in a low voice while still looking at him.
I took a deep breath as I check my phone it was already 7:30 am so I decided to get up.
I really feel guilty because of Cody. He is good, like really good to have as a boyfriend like him, but I just see him only as a friend. I know it sucks that why would I say 'Yes.' If I don't like him right?
He courted me in front of his Parents and his Mom was really happy like you know? And I don't want to take that away to her face by saying a 'No.' To his son, it sucks I know.
I really need to talk to Cody when we got back.
"Hey." Alexa said with widen eyes, as I goes out to Greyson's room
"Hey.." I smiled as I closed the door
"Did you.. You slept with Greyson?" She utterly asked while her eyes widen as she pointed Greyson's room
"Yeah?" I said nodding at her
"WHAT?!" She almost yelled
"It's not what you think!" I said
"Then what should I think then?" She asked back as she crossed her arms to her chest while raising her both brows in me
"You're peacefully sleeping then Greyson and I doesn't want to disturb you so uhm, he offer his room but we didn't do anything s-stupid." I said as I look away really? You guys kiss! My mind says
"Reasons..." She smirk as she shakes her head from left to right "Never mind, let's eat?" She said as she held my wrist and take me to the kitchen.
Tyler was awake and he was eating a bread while Dad Scott reading a news paper and Mom Lisa are cooking, Tanner and Greyson is still sleeping.
"Good morning." Mom Lisa said and I greeted her back
"Seems Tyler had a great time with his Uncle last night." Dad Scott said and chuckle as he look at me
"Yeah they do." I smile and I saw Greyson in the corner of my eyes, he's awake.
"Morning everyone!" Greyson said in his husky morning voice, and yawn as he sit beside me
"It's too early why you wake up?" Alexa ask
"I thought you're not a morning person? It's already 7:48 am." Alexa added and Greyson shrug as he took a bread and eat it.
"Why you leave and didn't even wake me up?" Greyson ask me without even looking at me as he stood up and make a coffee to himself.
"What are you talkin-? Oh okay you're not talking to me." Alexa chuckle as she look at me, her face is fully red.
"What do you mean? She's sleeping with Alexa's room." His Dad snapped as he put it down the news paper and look at me and to Alexa.
"Mom, Dad our Greyson slept together with Khryzel last night!" Alexa blurted it out a with a cheeky grin on her face, I cough suddenly and both of his Parents looking at me surprisedly.
They look like; they are thinking some stuff that is inappropriate.
"Hey don't give her that look." Greyson said as he sat again beside me
"If you guys wondering if something happen between us last night, well nothing happen." Greyson said to his Parents
"And in fact..." He paused "Its not the first time that we slept together in the same bed." He added as he took a sip to his coffee
I bet my face was really red like a tomato, why they just cant be open minded yeah?
"So do you mean it's not the first time?" His Mom eyes widen
"Mom." He groan as he put his palm to his face like he was tired of explaining himself and they don't believe it.
"It's alright with me anyways." His Dad chuckle as he continued to read the news paper
Why this topic all of a sudden?
Greyson looks at me and he chuckle while shaking his head from left to right, his cheeks are red.
After we ate our breakfast I volunteer to washed the dishes and Greyson helped me.
"I'm sorry, I have a weird family." He apologized and he giggle at the same time
"Its okay, they're cool." I said as I chuckle
"Khryzel?" I look at him raising my both brows as I wait him to speak
"I'm serious about last night." He said as he bit his lower lip and took a deep breath
"Last night?" My brows start to meet in the middle, is he talking about the kiss?
He nod slightly. "Why what about last n-night?" I utterly ask as I look away
"That I think I'm going to changed of heart. I'm going to be straight again." He said and I look at him straight in the eye, my heart starts to beat faster.
"Okay?" The only word I manage to say, I tried to walk away and goes to the living room where his family was but Greyson stopped me as he held my wrist and drag me outside of their house.
"Khryzel we really need to talk." He said sounds more serious than lately, we're on their balcony the fresh air hit our bodies
"I want to tell ALL the thoughts inside my head last night but you were already sleeping."
"Khryzel you're the only one that can make me question myself all over again." He stated "And I think this is the dead end. I'm done running away, I give up. Because right now I don't know anymore. I'm gay, I know from myself that I'm gay but since you've came around from nowhere it all fucking change. You make me realized that I'm going to change of heart. You're like a poison to me, you bewitched me like really insane!" He hissed
"I don't know where this guts coming from but just so you know." He paused as he hold my both hands his hand are cold, his brown eyes looking in mine "I think... I think I'm ready to hear 'I Love You' from a girl again." He shake his head from left to right as he comb his fingers to his hair "I know this confession would be fucking useless because you have a boyfriend, but Khryzel can you... Can you just break up with him? Because I need you and I know that you're the only one I wanted." He said in a crack shaky voice, but he wasn't crying
My heart flutters but sank at the same time.
"Stop saying that Greyson! Feelings isn't a thing that you should can experiment with." I said creasing my forehead while I shake my head from left to right, stop that before my walls crumbled. He's kidding right?
It can't be.
"But I'm serious!" He exclaimed
"Stop playing with those games Grey." He bit his lower lip and nod slightly and smiled bitterly, I just try to play it cool but he was really serious at this moment. Damn.
"Are you rejecting me?" No I'm not. I just can't answer that yet from now. Its too complicated.
"Its not that its jus-"
"Then tell me? How can I make you fall for me?" He ask
"Hey darling your Grandpa called me and he wanted us to pay him a visit." His Mom said and we both look at her as she walk towards us
"Are you both fighting?" His Mom asked as she look at me and his son
"I'm sorry Mrs. Chance but I think I need to go bac-"
"You're coming with us, Mom she's coming with us." Greyson said and left me standing here along with his Mom
"Are you two fought?" His Mom asked but she seems she know already the answer
"Guess so?" She tap my shoulder and give me a tight hug
I want to cry but I just can't.
"Its going to be okay hun." She said
I really don't know..