After we ate lunch I feel sleepy so I decided to take a nap but someone knock the door, I tried to ignored it but it keeps knocking and knocking, the fucking door was damn open and if its Alexa she will just opened it, I groaned as I open the door annoyingly.
And to my not surprise its just only Greyson "Let's go?"
"Where to?" I yawn
"Let's stroll."
"Now?" I ask
"Now." I checked the time its only exact 1pm
"Okay wait. I'm going to change my clothes then." He nod as I close the door again
I wear simple shirt and a pants and just combed my hair using my brush, I didn't put a lot of make up but just only an eyeliner, lipstick and a foundation. Makeup makes us look pale or matured whenever we wear it.
As I think I'm ready to go, I open the door and I see Greyson standing with his hands hand on his pocket as he leaned his back on the wall, he tilt his head up and smile at me.
"It took you forever to get ready." He said as he started to walk and I followed him behind
"Where we going? Aren't we gonna do the farming?" I ask
"Stop asking too many questions and just follow me instead." He said and I just sighed and rolled my eyes on him.
"Are we going to walk?" I ask again, but obviously not.
"If we just walk from here to there it took us an hours to get into our destination." He said and I just nod and didn't even bother to ask any question
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Minutes passed and we're finally here, its not that far as I think Greyson was just lazy shit to walk. The ambiance was beautiful and calming. They are green and clean.
And there's a few people are in here too, playing a kite, picnicking and whatsoever.
"This is so beautiful!" I said as I started to ran through the grass
The air was really refreshing and its hitting my body, I look at back to Greyson who's looking at me smiling.
"Thank you for bringing me here." I said and he just smiled and nod
"There's a sunset here at 5:44 pm do you want to watch it?" He ask I turn my head on him, he is now in my back.
I nod at him. "Of course, I want to." I said happily and excitedly.
"Wait me here." He said
My forehead creased as he got back, he have a blanket and a basket to his hands, he placed the basket carefully to the grass, and it goes the same to the blanket he smiles at me as he motion me to sit.
"Great idea Chance." I said as and he just chuckle, "If you're hungry there's a bread, fruits, chips, cookies, and water in that basket just get something if you're hungry." He said and I nod at him as I look at the basket and get some chips.
Greyson was writing something important? In his journal maybe? He looks serious.
"What are you writing for?" I ask
"A song?" He said without even looking at me
"May I see it?" I ask as I lean closer beside him but then he gave me his journal to read it, his penmanship wasn't that bad after all but it has a lot of erasure.
"Can you read it out loud for me and tell me if it's okay?" He said and I nod
"I am lost and I don't know where to go,
I've been hurt but I've never been hurt like this much before,
I feel lonely, lonely, lonely traveling down this road,
They'll say through time I'll find some healing but the clock goes slow,
I didn't know that I could get this slow." My heart starts to beat faster as I've done reading the pre-chorus.
Those lines they already familiar to me, I think he sang it already before?
I proceed to read the verse 1 in the song..
"I see a dark reflection in my dashboard,
Don't even know where I'm driving to anymore,
I think about us back together someday,
What you doing this Sunday?
I need space so I left home,
But now I'm desperate for the things I know,
Like how you made me laugh on a bad day,
Where are you now? I need you babe."
I don't know but I can feel the sad vibe in this song.
Like he was really hurt at the moment and he really don't know what to do?
He was like 'he stuck on the very long road alone and there's a two path directions.' But still he can't decide whether what direction he will choose.
I sighed as I proceed to the verse 2 of the song.
"Remember older days when were so young,
Riding top down in a city that I used to love,
I hear those words you said, when you were shit faced,
Told me to stop playing all those games,
But I wasn't then and I'm not now,
Didn't know how to feel when you broke me down,
I needed time to move around without you,
But I think I'm ready to hear.. I love you."
My heart sank as I read this verse of this song, this is so really deep.
That only a lyrical composer guru would understand.
Its like he was totally heartbroken at this time but yet he was ready to love again without hesitation, his willing to take a risk and give it another chance, another time.
Those lyrics he put in this song is like very really familiar in me. But I shrug it off that thought as I took a deep breath, my breath got heavy in unknown reason.
Is he make me read it on purpose?
"So what do you think?" He ask
"I-it was o-okay." I stuttered
"When did you planning to record that?" I ask with a shaky voice, I looked away not planning to catch his gaze
"I don't know. Don't have any idea." He shrug, I just nod at him still not looking at him
"It was dope! I know your fans would probably love it for sure." I sniff, he looked at me worriedly "Hey are you crying?" He ask, damn yeah because of you.
"No its nothing it just.. The air?" I said as I wipe my tears away, his arms wrapped around me, I can feel his hot breath.
"Stop lying, Khryzel." He said, and I cried again as I started to hugged him back, I can smell his manly scent cologne that's very kinda addicting.
What if vacation is over and like what he said we're going to forget all those memories we shared here?
I'm scared for that thought that he may change someday.
What if we go back to being strangers again?
I'm really scared and afraid that the day will come.
Time elapsed as we both watched the sunset going down still sitting, his arms wrapped around me, his chin rested on my left shoulder and our hands intertwined. Like we have a thing, like a couple. But totally weren't.
I don't know what totally are we.
Holding his hand right now and realizing how much it was going to hurt when I would have to let him go kills me inside.
Can't he just wait me?
I need to settle some thing in my own...
"Khryzel I'm sorry..." He mumble but before I could say anything else, he make me turned as he lean over and kiss me, I didn't know what just happen. Because it really goes so fast in just one snap, I realized that his lips are in mine now.
His eyes were closed while his arms wrapped himself around me, his back resting in the tree, making me lean on top of him as I started to kiss him back, he cradled the back of my head just to ease me off him, making me sit up in front of him. He pulled my thighs on top of his so I was sitting on his lap now.
Our lips moved in sync, and got deeper and deeper. I hold his nape in one hand and the other was rested on his chest.
He groaned, his hands run down to my head from my back, settling on my backside, he cupped my butt and squeezed it making me tighten my legs around his middle, his hands travelled up underneath my shirt teasing the smooth skin on my back with circular patterns he drew with his fingertips, he even hit my bra line and deftly unfasten my it as he slides his both hands to the front to cup my breast.
I moaned softly through his ear. Holy shit! I really swear that I'm too innocent for this, I don't know? I shyly plant a kiss on his neck, I smiled when I felt him hold his breath and continued, I planted more kissed all over his neck and back to his lips again.
I swear this is the first time that I feel this. All the sensation was were all new to me, I'm aroused I feel like I'm going to pee... Trust me! I've never go further like this before with Bryle nor anyone.
We pulled away gasping for some air, as our eyes met.
"We should need to stop before I lose my control unless you wanna go further." He smirk, my eyes widen as I realized that I'm straddling him. I stood up from his lap as my heart beats really faster.
I want to slap myself for letting him do that to me, but why does it feel so good?
I hop in the passenger seat as I wait him, I can't even take a glance on him right now because of embarrassment that I'm dealing with it right now.
I didn't talk to him until we reached his Grandparents house, I directly goes to Alexa's room and locked myself in here.
What did I have done?! I'm almost going to have sex with Greyson.
And now what?! I feel like I don't have any face anymore to look or talk to him, after what just happened!
This day was really crazy and exhausting.