I dialed Val's number but unfortunately Val's phone cannot be reached by this moment, and I really don't know what to do. Maybe I'll just bear this pain for awhile? I wiped my tears away as I sniffs but it all came back, I feel like the old man driver was looking at me crying.
He gives me a tissue and smiled at me when he started to talk, "Broken hearted?" He asks, he glance on the mirror but back on the road again
"In the look of your face, I think you are." He mutters, "I'm not going to ask you, what happen but... In my 47 years existing in this world, I'll do had my heart broken when I was 24 and I can say that it hurt so bad. My girlfriend well let me say my ex was cheated on me way back then well, to be honest all of my friends dislike her and neither of them telling me that she's a cheater, so I thought they are all just saying that because they don't like her for me, but then a months later I finally figured it out all by myself, well. Its really sucks when love fucks everything up at the very last minute. Like; why can't we just tell people who they're going to end up with to avoid all these heartaches right?"
"I actually realized that all of my friends are telling me the truth since day one and here am I so blind for the love I had for my ex. I'm in a moving on process when I finally realized that I was in love with my wife. Its kinda funny that she's my best friend and she's always been my crying shoulder whenever I and my ex had misunderstandings, and to think that she used to be a lesbian way back then." He chuckle as he shakes his head from the both sides, I think sharing his life story in mine makes me kinda think of him, their story was like almost close to ours, but no! I'm.. I'm still mad at him.
"But she totally changed because of me well its just kinda funny to think when I always recall that moment, and now we're have 3 kids and we're living happy family now. I know our love story wasn't the bests or greatest among at all."
"I don't know what should I'm going to advice you since I don't know what's the reason why you're crying, but this a little piece of advice that I'm going to tell you, that learn when to fight and when to give up. I don't know if that make sense. Well I can say give up when you know you lose the battle. Give up when he or she must give you up first. Give up when you know its time to let go. BUT if the love of your life is truly love you and there's one trying to ruin the love you have from each other then fight for it! That's the thing you needed to fight for. And after that I'll guess you guys are going stronger than ever. There's not a perfect relationship though all you must to do is to trust your partner and listen to his or her sides although, may it hurt your feelings by their honesty but that's really a part of it, if you want a relationship to work. You can't love without getting hurt." He said, I don't know but he's right anyways. Love is not only include happiness but also heartache.
I directly went to my room lame, tired and exhausted. I locked myself there and spent my time crying. I even off my phone so no one can contact me, and I didn't know that I even drifted asleep.
I remembered when we was in the 9th Grade. Leslee and I used to have a same crush in a one guy and Ian was his name. He likes me and I like him too, I won't denied that. But I don't want to hurt my cousin's feeling because I dated her crush, so instead of me I refer Ian to my cousin which is Leslee. Whenever Ian and I went on somewhere I always drop Leslee's name in our conversation. But unfortunately, Ian doesn't like her and he even got mad at me by keep pushing him away, just because of Leslee.
And that happened she become wilder, she become something that we've never expect right from the start, and I blame that just because of me.
I woke up with a loud thug in my door like its an earthquake itself, I look through my wall clock and it was almost 1am in the morning, "Khryzel please let us talk?" I just stare on the wooden door, not sure if I want to see him nor talk to him. He keeps knocking and banging his fist on my door.
"Please Khryzel? I want you to talk to me, please let me hear out first? Please..." he said while his voice are shaky and husky is he crying? Should I open the door and forgive him? I walk through the door and wondering if should I open this or not
"Okay.. I know you're mad at me and I know that you will not going to open this damn door but... Khryzel please listen to me.. Just listen and you don't need to say anything but just listen." He said as he took a deep breath, while I start to lean my back against the floor
"I met your cousin Leslee in LA at the club before," He started so he's the one that Leslee was talking about on the reception before?
"If you're going to ask me what am I doing at the club? Alex, Jason, Will and I celebrating my new upcoming EP because it was done and Leslee your cousin was there.. She even try to get my attention and tries to flirt with me that night." I bit my lower lip as my eyes start to form a water again and it rolls down through my cheek
"And I can say that.. She was pretty drunk that night and wasted.." hearing those words from him, it makes my heart bleed and break.
"But I swear to death that there's nothing happen between us. I've never took an advantage on a drunk people I know you know that... And back there when you saw us.." He paused a seconds and sniffs.
"I didn't kiss her back, she's the one who kissed me and to know that I'm the one who pulled away because to be honest with you Khryzel.. I don't want to kiss any another girl but you.. Because it makes me threw up for some reason, maybe because I'm gay?.. But whenever we kissed damn, Khryzel.. That's opposite, you make my day and night better with that only just kiss.. And when we shared our love together? Its more like an ecstasy... And Its kinda crazy that I feel... Butterfly in my stomach.. I even tell your cousin.. That I didn't like her and there's no way in hell I'm going to like her because... I'm already so fucking in love with you and there's no one can make it change.." He said as his voice are still shaky
"I love you Khryzel... I really do, but if... If it makes you feel better that,.. You don't want to see me then, I will go and give you some spa-" but before he could even finish his words, I twist the knob and opened the door and it reveals Greyson face he almost fell but luckily I caught him. I didn't know that he was leaning against my door. He look straight to my eyes his eyes are red but there's no tears on his cheek. He cupped my face with his hands and lean his forehead against mine
"I will hate you to death if you're planning to leave." I said almost in whisper feeling his warm hands on my both cheeks, he shut his eyes and kiss my forehead, "But I thought you don't want to see me." He said as he opened his hazel eyes and stares to mine, I shake my head from the both sides
"The memories hold me under, the way you saw me with your cousin, knowing that you're mad at me and walking away to me it takes the breath out of my lungs. I'm really sorry if I was the one who let you down." He said
"It's okay you're already forgiven but I'm going to hate myself if I may not be able to see you again, and I'm scared that it happ-" I was cut by his lips crashing in mine.
XXxxXX
Greyson takes it upon himself to sweep me into his arms and press his lips against mine with reckless abandon. His hand tighten around my waist pressing his hips against mine and merging our bodies into almost one being with the intensity of his kiss.
He pulls me back on my room as he close the door and locked it, wondering if Val or Casey was here. I'm going to be so embarrass when they finally knew what we were doing. But I shrug it off the thought. He pulls me up into his arms carrying me over to my bed and placing me carefully without even breaking the kiss.
His hands hover the hem of my shirt slowly sliding the cloth off my frame and pulling it over my head. His hands cupped my cheeks as he stare his hazel eyes in mine before he pecked a kiss on my lips.
"I love you so much Khryzel, I'm really sorry for what had you witnessed." He whispers to me, throwing my shirt somewhere on my room, his taking his own off, after kicking off his shoes.
He grabs my arm gently and pulling me towards him so he can resume kissing me.
His touch...
His touch is driving me crazy and its really hard not to think about the way his skin feels against mine and how we are really only separated by the jeans and the undies beneath.
His hand slips into my jeans , moving down to my panties, he then move his hand to the front of my panties rubbing his finger along my core to get me with just simple touch of his hand.
"Can I take this off?" He ask and I just nod as an answer, he quickly pulling off my jeans and panties one fell swoop and throwing them across the room without even care.
He stands up stepping out of his black skinny jeans and returning his attention back to me, his hands traveling up my thigh, reaching up and cup my ass and give it a good hard squeeze.
Being almost naked to Greyson Chance was like...??
Well I don't know? Maybe a pleasure? But I feel lucky somehow because.. I have a chance to have this kind of moment with him.
I couldn't imagine him as a gay friend of mine before, I imagine him now as a man who can melt you by just his stares and he can get you lost of your thoughts because of his touch.
He grins at me like he is aware of my thoughts inside my head, he returns to his spot next to me on the bed, pinning my arms over my head and looking at me with an intense hazel eyes
I just relax my arms letting him hold my arms above me and waiting to see what exactly he is going to do next because he really piqued my curiosity at this.
This is just our second time sharing our love together and I wasn't that nervous than the first one. And I'm not regretting that he's the one who took my v-card.
He shimmies out of his boxer using just one hand, while the other was still holding my hand above me.
"I wish we can do this more often." He whisper to my neck, I don't know but all of my angered to this guy just vanish away.
I think maybe this is what they called a make up sex?
"You know that I love you right?" He said, but there is no chance for me to reply as his lips cover my own lustfully.
When he break the kiss, he let's go of holding my arms. "I really love you so bad, Khryzel. Please do something about it." He murmured, running his hand along my ass to give it a squeeze. He nudges my legs to open with his foot positioning himself right above me with his hand wrapped around his length in anticipation.
He then seductively lick his lips slowly before teasing me with his tip, rubbing along my slick fold to prolong the wait just a little bit longer. Then he shifts his weight slightly, pushing himself fully inside me, I don't know that its still hurt but not that hurt when we did it on first.
My hands move up to hold onto his arms, trying to adjust the feeling of being so full for him. He hold himself up with both of his hands, waiting for me to adjust so he can keep going. Once he seemed pleased, he readies himself and begins to roll of his hips against mine to find my pace, he moves slowly, his eyes never leave mine as he gets deep and little harder with each thrust, I bit my lower lip just to holding back my moans, I don't want Val and Casey nor the neighbors know that I'm having a sex, because its quite embarrassing if ever.
My mind is spinning, I don't know how to feel at this moment trying to take all that is happening again. He is huge and I can feel my tight walls hugging his length with each movement of his hips and the deeper he goes I can feel him against in my sensitive spot more and more. I know he's not going to keep going slowly because he is going harder and moving faster which causes me to bite my lower lip harder just to handle all of him.
"Y-you like how I feel inside you don't you?" He question me between the deep grunts of his own
I nod. "I... Yes.. I do.." I trail off digging my fingers into him when he manages to got my g spot and caused me to scream his name suddenly, I wonder if they heard that.
He shifts me so I am on my side, lifting my leg so he can slide into me in a new angle and begins to slam his hips against mine without any intention of going gently. He moves against me quickly, hitting my spot each time and tangling his hand in my hair to keep my mouth pressed against my mouth, the bed is squeaking in every moves he made and it keeps banging against the wall.
I didn't know that rough sex was really a good sex after all. Its just new to me, when we did it at first he was so gentle and slow but I can say he just did that because that was my first and I can say that being gentle and slow wasn't his style.
"Is it good?" He ask, snaking his other hand around my waist and running his thumb over my clit to make this whole more intense.
"Oh.. Shit!!" I gasp, trying to not lose myself completely but I guess I am. "Hollyyyy fuck... Oh., my.. gosh!!!"
He smirks at me, "You're waking them up." Greyson murmurs against me, his hips slowly down his movement just a little but his thumb still rubbing my clit like he wants me to bring me over the edge like never before, "Grey... I'm getting close.." He speed up his movements, the bed is banging against the wall, clearly wanting to reach his released
"Go cum for me, love."
I know there's no way I am going to be able to hold on much longer, between his thumb caressing my clit so perfectly and his cock hitting my g-spot; the knot is building inside up inside and I can feel it getting closer.
I bite my lip to hold on a little longer, "Go love, cum for me." He murmurs in my ear circling my clit even faster and helping me reach the peak I have been dying to reached since he entered me. "Finish me please.." he let's a low groan, as I said that.
I didn't know that he bring this kind of me, seriously. His hips slamming hard against mine until I finally reached my high, he pulls out in me and cum in my stomach.
The only sound for a moment is our panting and the rapid breathing in our heart neither one of us able to form a words, for the moment. He composed himself as he lies down next to me pulling the sheets to cover our naked buddy as he pull me again closer to his.
"Its only you that I wanted to love, fuck, kiss and everything, always remember that huh." He whisper, and I just smiled. "I love you too." I said as I tilt my head to look at him and give him a pecked kiss on his lips.
~~ I'm sorry if I'm not good in this rated R scene, its y'know? Awkward that I even borrowed a men's magazine to write this chapter for a friend but duuh there's nothing there its just only masturbating and stuff that only men's do, I feel so really totally embarrassed now but there's no turning back now. ~~