“Stop teasing me, Lucas!” I said while laughing.
“Where do you want to eat?” he changed the topic. I think of a good restaurant but I suddenly craved for fast food meals.
He agreed with it and he even told me to wait for our food. He’s going to order for us. I choose a seat from the left side that is just near him.
I couldn’t hide my smile as I look at the toy that we’ve got. Before, arcades are my favorite place to go. Those place just made me feel that I can be happy even with my flaws and the things that I don’t have. But Xavier doesn’t love or even like things like this, he prefer going to a concerts or gigs. I’m totally fine with that but honestly, I miss this.
I feel like there’s part of me that I get back after years of choosing what I want instead of mine.
I love him that I am willing to let go of the things he doesn’t want doe him. But I truly miss this, I felt like I’ve been longing for this.
I suddenly think if he could do that for me too? But of course, he couldn’t. I am not Samantha so it won’t happen.
I just wish she should not give me false hopes. And yes I don’t want us to broke up but I don’t want him to make me believe that he does love me when he really don’t.
I wish he won’t do anything that will make me love him even more, I wish he stop acting like he cares for me and he stop showing me that I am somehow important because it doesn’t help me at all. It was just making it worst.
I know for sure that our relationship will have an end. He doesn’t love me and we are together because this is what his father wanted for him. If it wasn’t for that, he won’t even notice me. Maybe I won’t be an extra of their relationship.
“You were smiling beautifully a while ago, now I couldn’t even picture your face,” I was a bit shock when Lucas came back with our food.
“Sorry I remembered something.” I smiled at him and help him with our food.
“For sure it’s Xavier,” he said seriously.
“Are you sort of a seer?” I joked at him but he just looked at me seriously that somehow made me feel uneasy.
“Don’t think of him even for a while. You’ll be sad,’ he seriously said and give me my food.
I remained looking at him. I don’t know why but I suddenly appreciate his kindness. Even before, he’s always nice at me but I always avoid him because I don’t want to be friends with someone who is connected with Samantha. But now that I get to know him more, I don’t think he’s bad. He actually tried his best to make me feel better. I know he did all these to make me feel better even for a bit and I really thank him for that.
“Eat your food now, you’re hungry right? Do you want me to help you out?” his voice sounds like he was teasing me. I jokingly slap his hand but he just continues to laugh.
“Thank you,” I thanked him as we go to the parking lot.
“Why?” he asked a bit laughing.
I slapped his shoulder and pout at him, “Thank you because even though I avoid you most of the time, you’re still here being nice,” I almost whispered because of embarrassment. He stopped walking and faced me. I also stop but I didn’t try to look at him. I really felt embarrassed.
“I knew it, you’re avoiding me! But you have nothing to be thankful of,” he was smiling at slightly mess my hair. I rolled my eyes on him even though a smile crept into my lips.
He brought me home after that. We had a light conversation on our way to my apartment that made me think of the reason why I chose to avoid him. He has nothing to do with Samantha and Xavier. He also is nice to me and always stays with me when he knew I will be waiting for Xavier for hours.
“Every time you look at me that way. I feel like you were judging me,” he joked that made me look away.
“Assuming!” I said but he just made a face that made me laugh.
When we got to my apartment, I asked him for a coffee or juice but he refused. It is late at night so I didn’t mind.
“Thank you for your time. Take care!” I said as he said goodbye.
“My pleasure, Madame. Sleep tight.” 
I waved him goodbye and was about to wait for him to leave but he let me in first before leaving.
I prepared myself to sleep and didn’t take much time to fall asleep.
I woke up the next day early. I also have a good mood that made me cook for my team’s food so we could eat breakfast together. They usually skip heavy meals to save time. After preparing everything I proceeded to go to work at around 5:30 am.
“Good morning,” I greeted them. They greeted me back too. I put the foods I prepared for us to our long table.
“Wow! Vy seems to have a good mood. Hmm, do you have a great night yesterday?” Jonas, our team leader asked.
“Stop teasing her team leader! She might take away her food,” Rica told him that made us laugh.
This is a good start for a day. I hope it will last, even for this day.
“But hey! You really seems to have a nice smile. What happened last night?” Rica asked as if I did something fishy.
“Maybe they had a great date night,” Finn said. I shook my head and laugh a bit.
“No, it was postponed. We didn’t have a date last night,” I said.
“And why do you seems happy and not affected?” Rica asked.
“Maybe Xavier still surprised him!” Kley suddenly said.
I laughed and shook my head again.
“So what is it? Why are you that happy?” Jonas asked a bit confused.
“Are you guys some sort of investigators? You have so much questions,” I said while still laughing. “I’m still happy, is that bad or wrong? I got to enjoy the night even though we didn’t meet,” I explained.
Rica’s sarcastic laugh thundered, I pinched him a bit that made her laugh more. After we ate breakfast we proceeded to our work. My smile remained in my face. I honestly don’t know why I feel so light and happy. I just feel this way and I like it.