"It wasn't intentional but I wouldn't say sorry," he said like a child. I just made a face and removed myself to his hug. He allowed me and watched me sat on the couch. I looked away.
My heart beats so fast. This wasn't the first time I got nervous in front of him. This wasn't the first time tjat my heart went wild for him either. But then, this feels strange. It makes me smile and amazed. This is actually new to me because I never really felt this tickling feeling from Xavier.
I glanced at him and his eyes met mine. He's looking at me intently, observing each move I make. He raised his eyebrow on me but I didn't react.
How could you make me feel this way Lucas? How come this feels like the first time I truly fell in love? Why does it feel like this is my first love? 
I looked away and think more. Am zi not sure of my feelings for him?
"Vy!," Gail shouted that made me stop from thinking about those things more. Her voice is loud as if we're really on a huge distance.
She sat beside me. I smiled at her and glanced at Lucas who entered the yatch with Ram.
"Where were you?" I asked.
"Roam around the yatch. This is owned by Lucas by the way. Tsk, I rrally thought he's poor like you said to me. I don't get it though, why does he have to work as someone's driver if he's this rich. He's really weird! Plus, he's Samantha's driver," she exclaimed.
That thought wonder on me again.
"Gail, what if I'm wrong? What if he's not really Samantha's driver?" I asked hesistantly.
"Huh? Why? Hmm, well, its possible but then you said yes always with Samantha. He's driving for her. So it's also really possible that he is. Maybe he just want that," she said.
I bit my lower lip as I breath heavily, "Lucas' sister told me that he's staying on hid condo so he could be around his cousin," I admitted worriedly.
"And?" she asked confused.
I looked away and sighed. I felt my heart ponder as I continue to think of it.
"A-according to Harriet, Lucas and their cousin is inseparable. They're always together. She even said that he's protective of her. And their cousin only listens to him. She even said that thry were only separated for years because their couisn continued her studies abroad. Lucas almost go after her, if it wasn't their uncle's decision he'd be with her. That's why he choose to stay beside her condo when she returned. They're cousins and best friends," I explainee everything that I knew from Lucas sister.
"What's your point Veronica?" she asked, still confused.
"Their cousin's name is Sam," I said.
"I don't get it, Vy. What really is your point?" she asked irritatedly.
"Sam, Gail." I stopped as I feel a sudden pain in my chest, "Lucas is Samantha's driver. I-I mean, at least that's what I thought. She's from Australia. Their cousin's name is Sam, and she's back from outside the country. Doesn't it make sense?" I asked frustrated.
I saw how she slowly realized everything that I told her.
"What the hell? Y-you mean," she couldn't continue her wodds.
I shook my head, "I don't know. I'm not yet sure. I didn't asked him, I don't think I can."
"why don't you just ask him? You should ask him 'coz what if you're right. Or maybe it's all just coincidence," she said as if she's convincing us.
I can't ask him. I can't hear him say anything that I am not prepared of. I don't want to know the truth. I'm scared.
"No," I said shaking my head. "I can't ask him. I don't wanna ask him, Gail."
Gail suddenly hugged me and there, my tears started to fall as if they've been waiting for the right timing. 
I'm so scared that my conclusion is right. And I'm so fucking scared 'coz I don't know how would I react if everything was right. How could I accept that?
He can't be Samantha's cousin. Please not her. I begged to my self as Gail continued to hug me.
I did my best to calm myself after we ended the hug. 
Should I ask him? What if I'm right? If he's Samantha's cousin then did he just play with my feelings?
I can feel a ton of pain in my chest even before I can confirm anything. 
What if this is their plan? Was he really related to Samantha? What if this is all Samantha's plan so I could be away from Xavier? How about Lucas feelings? Is that even true? 
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We arrived on the Island before lunch. Gail didn't leave my side after our conversation. As much as possible, she doesn't want me to be alone with Lucas anymore after she knew everything I told her.
We were greeted by an old couple and a kid. Food is already prepared and we just ate together.
I remained silent all through out. Lucas kept on looking at me but I refuse to glance at him. Gail is now busy talking to the old couple and the kid.
After we ate, I still refuse to speak with anyone aside from Gail. She just reasoned out that I'm not feeling well again. Then we decided to rest on our room.
I tiredly pushed myself to bed and started to think of it again.
I know I'm wrong. Lucas won't do that to me. He's nice. And he's always been mindful of everything he does. After everything he showed me, I know. He won't hurt me. 
I feel sad just by thinking about it. If this is all planned, I don't know what to feel. And I wanted so bad to be cautious but I couldn't stop myself from hoping. I already trust Lucas. 
I trust the man that he's shown me. The person who made me feel at ease even with all the storms I have inside.