I took a bath and wore comfortable shirt and short and decided to sleep. When I woke up, Gail is already prepared for our dinner. 
At dinner, I was able to talk to the old couple and knew that the little girl was their grandchild.
We were happy even though I'm secretly trying my best to ignore Lucas. He kept his eyes on me though. After we ate, Gail and I decided to spend some time on the shore.
"It's so beautiful here. Their life here is simple even thoygh the mansion is extravagant. I don't think I'd ever be stressed in here," Gail exclaimed.
I agreed. "Who would be stressed with this kind of place, Gail? The place is beautiful, peaceful, and the air is fresh. Plus the fact that it's away from the noise of the city."
She laughed at my words and glanced at me,"Let's enjoy our stay here, Vy. Let's swim tomorrow," she excitedly said.
"What is this? Vacation?" I asked a hit laughing.
"What's wrong with that? Don't tell me you'll be a kill joy?" she teased. I frowned and shook my head right away. She knows I hate being called KJ!
"Swimming? Fine! I saw some pair of swimsuits on my luggage, you prepared that? You knew we were going here?" I asked teasing he rback. 
Well, I know how she packs her things. Always complete. I mean, complete in a way that you could bring her anywhere and she'd have the perfect fit for it. Formal, casual, swimming, hiking, gym, anything. She has it.
"Whatever! You should just be thankful I packed it for you. If not, you'd probably just bring some pair of clothes," she teased back again. I laughed because of how she said it. Very competitive as always.
Well, I couldn't argue. She's right. If I were to prepare mg things, I'd probably just bring two or three pairs of clothes. 
We teased each other more until we decided to sat bear the shore. Just enough to not get wet by the water. The air breeze is getting cold, sign that the night is getting deeper. Gail felt sleepy afterwards.
We walked back to the house. We were both silent but in different reasons. She's quiet because she's sleepy. While I'm quiet because I'm starting to wonder of those things again. 
We saw Denden, the little girl, watching on the television when we entered the receiving area.
"Denden, where are the others? Aren't you going to sleep?" Gail asked even though she's ready sleepy.
"They're on the study room with my grandparents. I'll sleep when they returned. Why? Do you need anything?" she asked respectfully.
I smiled at her and shook my head, "Nothing Den. Go on, continue watching. We'll just go upstairs. Don't stay up too late," I said.
"I won't, good night."
Gail headed directly to her room and I did the same to mine. I was already in my bed but I couldn't sleep. I feel the cold air that comes from the window and the aircon of this room. This should make me sleep well but I couldn't.
It was a struggle to ignore the unwanted thoughts that I have. But I pushed myself to think of something else so I wouldn't dwell on it. 
This is the only time I felt scared to be hurt because of love. I have known love and pain for a long time. I'm used to it. But right now, I feel scared. I feel like I couldn't handle it anymofe. Especially it would be because of him. Not him. 
Not Lucas who made me feel that I'm worthy to love. That I am deserving of a love that reciprocates. 
I sighed. I'm too scared now. Knowing that I have really fallen in love already with him. And after Lucas confessing his feelings for me. I'm scared to get hurt. I'm scared to kmow that everything he said isn't true.
He has given me chance to hope for love again. He showed me that I am not hard to love and that I don't deserve to be left alone. And everything that he made me feel, he gave me hope. That made this all scary, I wasn't sure yet but I can feel how much it would break me.
Someone knocked on the door and open it after a while. I look at him with a weary eyes. He's serious and a bit worried as he walk near me. 
He sat beside me, I moved a bit to create space between us. He faced be, questioning my sudden move. I sighed. This is not good Lucas, my feelings for you is scary. It's still unnamed yet it feels this heavy, something I never felt before.
"What is it? What are you thinking?," he said. Still looking at me intently.
I shook my head and look away, "Nothing."
I heard him breath deeply but didn't say anything. I don't want him to know what I am thinking. I'm still scared.
"You should sleep now, I'll stay here until you feel asleep."
I looked at him and memorized every inch of his face, "You don't have to do this Lucas."
He nodded and smiled at me, "I know but I want to."
He stood up and guided me lay on mt bed. He even arranged the blanket for me and turned to the window to close it. He came back and held my hand. I dint say a thing and just closed my eyes.
I have so much fears right now but all I wanted is for him to stay beside me. I feel like if he's not here, I'll lose him permanently.
I couldn't properly name my feelings for him but I'm sure this is different from what I felt to Xavier.
This is different. Way different. This thing that I have for him is deeper and more intense. It's massive and it makes it more scary because of that.
I sighed and held his hand tighter. I don't want to lose this.