I sighed and start reading all the notifications and messages that I received. I made sure, I've seen everything but I didn't reply to any. 
I looked at Xavier's profile and saw my picture with Gail posted. 
I sighed. After I finished reading the messenges and notifications, I called Xavier's number.
"Veronica, you called. Finally," he said.
I rolled my eyes even though he couldn't see me. He's been so reckless and it annoys me so much. He caused so much trouble to the point that even the ones not involved is dragged in this mess.
"I'll get straight to the point. I saw that you're having an inteview this Tuesday with the Command, I'll hoing 
you."
I didn't wait for him to react or say anything. I hunged up the call and proceed in dialing his father's number.
"Good evening, Tito."
"Veronica, I'm glad you called. Where are you? Are you okay? I'm sorry for my son," he said continuously.
I honestly don't have sny problem with him. And as much as I don't want to put him in between me and Xavier, I don't have a choice. He's the only person who could help me.
After reading all the messages and notifications that I got because of this issue, I've decided to finally face them and answer their questions already. And Tito Felipe is the inly person who could stop Xavier from coming at me once I joined the interview for their band. Aside from that, I'm sure Samantha would be there. I don't want to cause any more trouble and scene so I need Tito Felipe's help for my protection.
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Tomorrow is already monday and I've planned to go to work. There's no sense in running away from this situation. I have to face this and if Xavier won't put an end to this, I'll do it. 
I sighed heavily. 
"Can I ask for some favor, Tito?"
"Sure ija, what is it? Just tell me. Where are you by the way? I tried visiting you on your apartment and to your friend's house but you're nowhere to be found," he said a bit worried.
"I left to think for a while Tito. Hmm, the thing is, I'd like to ask some of your men to maybe protect me. I'm planning to attend the interview for Xavier's band," I stopped for a while. Hesitant if I should say it this way but at the end, I still decided to. "I just need some protection just incase this thing will get worst."
Although I know he wouldn't refuse my request, I was a bit shock when he agreed without hesitation. He asked for my plan and agreed to it right away. And after our call, I proceed on calling Rica to update her. But unlike Tito Felipe, Rica doesn't agree with my plan. She thinks my paln is too risky. I didn't change my mind though, so we just agreed that she will pick me up with Finn tomorrow. 
I settled with that. After all those planning, I decided to sleep to avoid thinking some other things.
I don't have the strength to to think of it. I'd be in so much pain and I don't think I could get through this issue if I'll dwell on what Lucas and I have.
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Yesterday was exhausting, Rica and Finn fetch me up here in my apartment before going to work. A lot of media are waiting but the company manage to prepare security for me. I didn't answer any of their intrigue. I manage to work peacefully with my team, they are shock that I suddenly came back to work but they didn't bother to ask. I also manage to act normal like nothing bad happened, like I'm not in this kind of situation that somehow made them worried but it made me forgot about my longing for someone. And I don't want to bring him up with this, I'm choosing to set him aside because I don't think I can handle the pain he's causing me. 
I sighed and look at my reflection. Wearing my simple black off shoulder top and a denim pants with my strappy black sandals and my hair in low ponytail. 
I came home yesterday with Finn, Rica have some works to do that's why she couldn't come with us. 
Gail is waiting for me when I came home, she looks angry about my sudden decision. But then I don't regret it, I purposely didn't tell her my plans because I'm sure she won't let me do it. So we had a little fight and she left seriously angry at me. I didn't mind though, if this is what it needed so I could do my plans; then fine. 
I didn't mind her getting mad because I'm sure if she knows my plan, she wouldn't agree to me. She will surely do everything to stop me. I'll deal with her after ending this issue.
I breathe heavily before getting my bag. I was greeted by the bodyguards prepared for me by Tito Felipe.
I remained quiet. I was informed that they already know what to do so I didn't have to ask them to bring me to the venue. They seemed prepared for this and that comforted me even though I feel like my heart is exploding out of nervous.
I dialed Xavier's number. When he answered, I didn't wait for him to say something.
"I'm on my way, I just want to clarify to you Xavier, that I won't be coming to your interview to agree agree with whatever you said last time. Like what I've texted you earlier, I'd be there to end this. You have to take back everything that you said and if not, I'll do it."
I didn't know where I got my courage but I said that really firm. I sighed, maybe this is because of what happened to Pangasinan or just because of everything shit that I'm going through that I feel the need to end this. I'm tired of allowing them to hurt me. I'm tired of giving them the ability to take advantage of me. 
And shit, I'm tired of asking for love. I'm tired of hoping and believing that there is. I'm tired of being the person to sacrifice for someone else's sake. 
If they couldn't see my value then I won't push it to them. I'll cherish myself. I'll take care of me. I'll handle myself. 
I'm done. I can't let them use me anymore. I can't let them take over my decisions and my feelings. 
If love isn't really for me; I won't push it anymore.
I heard him sigh but didn't feel anything. I'm so done with all this, "Please don't do this, Veronica."
"If you haven't done this, I don't have to end up doing this to us, Xavier. You know that."
"Please, dad will be furious. Just give me time. I'll fix this," he said.
I can't let this pass, if this will end I want this issue to end now. I can't let this chance slip off. 
"I'm done giving you so much time and chances Xavier. And yes, you'll fix this. You'll do it today," I said and ended the call.
I could feel my body slowly being numb. I've never been this angry before. To the point that pain isn't too painful to bear.