Sunny
Tomorrow morning, Steven messaged me that he would not be going to our class today. His mother forced him to rest more and just attend school on Friday.
But he told me to wait after class, at the university's gate. He will fetch me.
After reading that message, I immediately and excitedly got out of bed and prepared myself. I do not know why I am excited suddenly, but it makes my heart full at the same time.
I do not know what's with us, but I like it.
"Sunny to earth!" Shiela yelled next to my ear. "Gosh, back to the reality, Sunny. I have been calling you for the nth time." She added.
I smiled at her. "Sorry." I told her.
She sat beside me and looked at me thoroughly.
"What is it?" She asked. "Tell me. Right now, right here." She said this with determination.
Should I tell her?
But I am scared about her reaction.
What if she thinks of me differently?
But...she is my friend too.
"Sunny, stop weighing things in your mind. Just talk it out. I am your friend." She said
She can literally read me. I could not hide any secrets from her.
"Shiela..." I called her name.
"What? I am listening." She answered.
I fidget with my hands out of worried. "Do you think I can like someone this fast after what happened to Jake and me?" I asked her, almost whispering.
My head is laying low, so I can not see her reaction. I am scared and worried at the same time.
I slowly lifted my head and saw her reaction.
Her mouth was wide open, as well as her eyes.
"W-when?! Who?!" She questioned eagerly.
"N-no. Do not misunderstand me. I am just merely asking." I managed to reply.
She approached me closely. "Is it Steven?"
"HOW DID YOU KNOW?!" I asked, surprised. "AM I REALLY THAT EASY TO TELL? WAS IT THIS BAD ALREADY? WHAT SHOULD I DO?" I asked worriedly.
LIKE, HOW COULD SHE TELL THAT WHEN I AM NOT HINTING HER ANYTHING!
THIS IS KILLING ME!
Shiela quickly hugged me. "You can! You deserve a better man!" She said. "And Steven is much better than your ex-boyfriend." She added, whispering back at me. "Tell me the story, I am so late about your love life." She added.
I guess, I need to share this and get some advice afterwards.
"I think I am starting to like him." I started sharing. "I do not know when, but I can tell how. I might have been avoiding it and trying to bury the fluttering I had been getting from him."
"I started to feel it when Jake and I were still together. It's like my attention turned to him. That is why I do not mind Jake being busy because I know there is someone who I could hang out with."
"But when I learned about Jake cheating on me and saw the kissing right in front of my eyes. It hurt like hell. Maybe I just like the thought of him being with me, because Jake was not able to do that."
"After our break up, we were always together and I could not help but compare him to Jake. I have many questions about Jake and I's relationship. Why am I getting happy with him when Jake was not able to do that when we were still together."
"I tried my best to bury it deep, but why am I looking at him differently now?" I asked. "Why can I not think of looking at him as my friend anymore?"
Shiela gently squeezes my hands. "Are you sure that you like him? Or are you not making him your rebound?" She asked back.
I shook my head. "I never thought of doing that to him. He is a great friend to me and treats me as the person I am. I feel more comfortable around him, I can say whatever to him and not limit myself by acting like I am a shy woman or a sophisticated one. Jake likes girls who is very sophisticated, so I tried my very best to show him that I am. But to Steven, I can show what I really am." I replied.
"How are you sure about your feelings now? Like, when did you realize that you really like him?" Shiela asked me again.
I sighed. "Last night. When we held hands―"
"YOU GUYS HELD HANDS?!" She was surprised. "WHEN?! HOW?!" She said excitedly.
"While we are watching drama in their house, I visited him in the hospital, to check his condition. The doctor said we could go home. We headed to their home, and that's why we ended up watching drama." I replied.
"He suddenly held my hand and started squeezing my little finger gently."
"When we were walking home too, he held my hand again."
"Does it mean that he also likes me or that he is being friendly to me? I do not want to have high hopes. I am also afraid it will ruin our friendship." I shared my worries.
Shiela shook her head violently. "No, no! You got it wrong there!" She said. "There is no man who will do that to a female friend, remember that. There is a friendship line that you must not across. You should try asking him. Ask about your relationship." She added.
"W-what? That fast?" I asked, panicking,
"You guys held hands while walking. Why hesitating now?" She responded.
"Because I am still unsure of my feelings and I do not want to ruin our friendship." I answered honestly. "Like would I get a chance? He is too handsome and his family―"
"Do not give me that bullsh*t, Sunny." She interrupted me. "Be confident! You are pretty much like me!" She added. "He is not going to attend our class today?"
I shook my head. "Auntie forced him to rest, but he said that he would fetch me later." I shared.
"OMG! THIS IS GOOD! I SUPPORT THIS SHIP! GO ON AND CHASE YOUR MAN!" Shiela replied happily. "This is the greatest sign to take this chance, Sunny. Trust Steven." She added.
I nodded. "I will, thank you." I told her my gratitude and we ended up hugging each other.
Now that I shared it to Shiela, I felt relieved.