When I walked to the kitchen, I saw Mom cooking breakfast. She still didn't look so good. Dad was nowhere in sight.
"Good morning."
I smiled at her, hoping that it would somehow cheer her mood. There's nothing good about Monday morning, to be honest.
"Morning Rose" She smiled back. Although I know, she forced it. "How are you?"
"Good. I guess." said as I stared at her. "How about you?" I was waiting for her response. She turned around and smiled. "Great!"
Why does she have to fake it? I didn't want to see her cry any more. I grab my bag and hug her, saying goodbye. She just smiled. forcing herself to smile. I'm taking the bus today. Oh great. Well, at least Monday didn't suck that much. I would still be able to meet Nicolas. I can't stop thinking about what my dad said to my mom.
"I should have known that marrying you was my biggest mistake."
I was wondering if I was one of his mistakes. I started to wonder if they really loved each other. Seriously, it's hard to think. It's making me want to cry. I can't cry right now, not in school. not in class. Especially when there's Nicolas. I don't want him to think I'm such a weak person.
What was your biggest blunder?
"Rose? Are you listening?" I heard Mr. Donald say, I notice everyone is staring at me. I said sorry. He just glared at me. Seriously, I think he hates me ever since the first day I was in his class.
At lunch, Bella didn't ask about my parents. I knew she didn't want me to think about my family. Because if I do, I might cry. To be honest, Yes, I'm a crybaby. I cried easily and got hurt easily. That's just me.
"So... how is it going between you and Nicolas?" At least that makes me happy. "I think he's... okay... I mean, does he smile even more?"
"I could picture you together in the next ten years. Wow." She said, while imagining that I don't even know. Ten years, huh? That was a hell of a ride.
I was actually looking forward to practice. I can't wait, honestly. When the school bell rang, Bella and I said goodbye to each other and went to different classes. For me, I'm ready for literature. When I entered the classroom, I noticed Nicolas in the back seat listening to music. As usual, Also, Caleb smiled at me.
I smiled back at him. I took a seat beside Violet.
Miss J said that she was excited about the theatre festival. Wow indeed, I'm nervous. She kept talking about the practise later after school and said that we all did great. Why, thank you. I once or twice tried to have a look at Nicolas. He was listening to Miss J and his songs while tapping on the table with his finger. I wonder what he is listening to? He caught me looking at him. He smirks, and I look away. Okay, That was new?
The class was okay. Miss J said that today we're going to practise Laura and Jack, I mean, Caleb. The friend who likes Laura Also, Daniel. The scene where Daniel saw Laura and Jack hugging and he got jealous. Laura was not supposed to see him. Jack was the one who was supposed to see Daniel and make him more jealous by kissing Laura.
Wait a second. Are we really going to do the kissing scene?
It felt like someone had read my mind when she said ..
"Are they seriously going to kiss?"
And the boys in the classroom cheer. Miss J just chuckled at them.
"Why, of course! They do."
I was frozen. Why now? I noticed Caleb staring at me and shrugged. Oh God. I think Miss J noticed my uneasiness.
"But at practice, Jack could kiss Laura on the cheek if he wanted." She added
Phew. That's better
"But what if Jack wanted to kiss her on the lips?"
I turn my head toward Caleb, who asked that question. What the heck? I heard some boys whistling and girls chuckling. This is not fun. Nicolas will be there! Oh no, I don't want him to see me kissing him.
"Well, it's up to you."
"You can kiss her anywhere you want."
And when she said that, It felt really weird. They talk as if I wasn't there. Caleb nodded, smiling. What is he up to? I noticed Nicolas was paying attention. He noticed me staring at him and raised an eyebrow. And the rest of the class is me being annoyed at the boys who keep teasing me about the kissing scene. I was hoping that Laura and Daniel would do the kissing scene, but it was so long to wait for it. But the class ended anyway. I don't want Caleb to kiss me when Nicolas is watching. Seriously no. What will he think? Will he hate me? Okay, that sounded really weird because I'm not even his girlfriend.
When I was walking towards my locker, I saw Nicolas walking to his next class. I can stop myself from smiling. I walked to his side 
He looked startled. And annoyed?
"What do you want?"
He glared, Wow. Somehow, this glare hurts badly. I wonder why. I tried to fake a smile. I tried to remind myself that he's always like that. But today, it really hurt me a lot.
"Why are you mad?"
I smiled at him, trying to push the negative ideas in my head. He was irritated. He turned his head towards me. Some people were already staring at us.
"Don't touch me."
What? I was confused. I really am. Our shoulders just briefly touched as we were walking and he got mad. I smiled. Trying to fake a laugh
"I made a mistake by talking to you."
He said, glaring daggers at me. I was really, really, REALLY offended. He reminds me of my father.
I had enough.
I seriously wanted to cry.
"See you around."
I smiled at him and turned around. I can't face him. I heard him sighs. He seriously doesn't have any heart at all. I can't control my feelings. Tears started falling from my eyes. That was when I saw Bella.
"Hey!" She greeted me but frowned when I suddenly hugged her. I cried. "What happened?" She looked worried.
He hurt me a lot.
I was really thankful that there was nobody around. I don't want them to see me cry. It hurts. I didn't care if I was late for practice. I don't want to see him. I can put up with him annoying me, but this? This is too much. What the f*ck is his issue? I told Bella about earlier and she just kept quiet. She told me to stop crying, but I just can't.
Thinking about my parents is hurting me enough. And now him? I'm so fed up with his drama! Bella managed to calm me down. She really is a great friend.
"You sure you don't want to skip the practice?"
I nodded, saying that I was okay. She said goodbye and went to her mom's car.
"Just ignore him. He's not worth it. Not anymore."
I tried to keep it in my mind. But it hurts. When I reached the auditorium, Miss J, surprisingly, didn't get mad at me. It feels like she knew I'd been crying and she decided not to question it.
"You okay? Your eyes look red." Violet said. I told her I was fine. "Hm okay."
I don't need anybody pitying me.
"Okay! Let's have Laura, Daniel, and Jack on stage. Hurry up now." Miss J declared
I sighs. Ignoring him isn't that difficult, is it? Plus, we have been like this for about a year. So I think I'll survive.
"Hope your boyfriend didn't get mad when I kissed you."
Caleb said while he walked beside me to the stage.
"He won't. I'm Laura, not Rose."
He smiled widely.
"Well then, I'd be honoured to kiss you, my lady."
He said, using a British accent. He sucks. When we were on stage, it was the scene where Laura and Daniel have an argument. Wow, it makes me want to cry again.
"Daniel, Jack is just a friend."
Laura, or so I said to Daniel. I seriously wanted to punch his face. I don't know why. Daniel rolled his eyes. It reminds me of someone.
"Whatever, Laura. I've heard that many times."
The scene kept on going and going. Daniel decided to leave Laura. It's hard that I have to cry in this scene. But I cried anyway. To be honest, this is not an act. I really am crying. When Jack or Caleb came and hugged Laura or me,
He hugged me.
"It's fine, Laura. He doesn't see what he lost."
Caleb said to me. Somehow, I feel like he meant the words to me. Not Laura. We hugged for a while, as we were told to. I miss him so much. I just need to get Nicolas out of my mind.
Then it was the "kissing" part. Caleb turned us around. He was now facing where I was facing earlier, and I was now facing where he was facing. That's when I saw Nicolas standing there, staring at me. I didn't look away from him. Neither does he.
"Your boyfriend looks angry."
Caleb whispers at me. He chuckled. I think some of the students gasp because the "whispering" part is not in the scene. But Miss J just shut them up. The way Nicolas looks at us is weird. He looks annoyed. but when I remember what he did, the thing he said to me earlier, I don't know what to feel anymore.
"I made a mistake by talking to you."
He thought it was a mistake, huh. I'll show him his mistake. I look away from him and focus on Caleb. He leans in. I don't feel like stopping him. I'm Laura anyway, so why can't Jack kiss me? It's just an act. Yeah, I told that to myself every second that Caleb got a little closer.
"I miss you."
Caleb said before our lips touched. I closed my eyes as I felt tears starting to fall again. I miss him too. I heard people clapping their hands. Caleb and I pulled away from each other. He was blushing. As for me, I was trying to wipe off my tears.
"Wow, you look like you are actually crying! Good job, both of you."
Miss J said, congratulating us. I was actually crying, but I think I don't need to tell her all that.
"How did you cry I mean, that was really good!" Violet said excitedly, "You guys look so real! Oh god. Maybe Caleb should be the hero,!" she added.
Yes, wow, I cried. I was trying so hard to smile. My cheeks are hurting. I just want to go home. Caleb? As Daniel? No I didn't see him as Daniel. Just no. He doesn't even say anything. Not even any "you did good" or anything. He doesn't even look at me. So this is supposed to happen now, right?
Nicolas freaking Flynn, seriously, will be the death of me.
Miss J said goodbye to us and dismissed us. saying that we'll see her again on Thursday. Thank God it is finally over. Caleb walked with me.
"Wow, you're trying on Rose now, Jack."
I heard someone tease him. Basically, Laura never liked Jack back. The same is true for me. I will never like Caleb Martin. Not this time. Not again. We talked about the practise earlier. He kept on talking about the kiss we shared. I was thinking Is Nicolas looking? What does he think about that? I hope he doesn't get the wrong idea about me liking Caleb. Just no. What does he feel when Caleb kisses me? Certainly, he felt nothing. He never liked me.
Wow, that hurts.