Speaking of your best friend and also worst nightmare, it's your memory, it's been already two weeks since that incident, yet I still live in my memory, those happy days flashing before my eyes like I can't seem to deny that all that happened. I hardly come out now if not for training, because of him, I decided to take a break on Monday trainings because that's the only time he usually shows up at the court, I blacklisted his number, not because I hate him or anything, no, it's just that I wanted to forget him, like my Dad said, time heals all wound, so I have made up my mind to sit this one out and let it be nothing but memories.
I believe I've been hiding my breakdown perfectly well because Jade never seem to detect any change from me, I pretend to act all lively around her as usual, not too much though, because when she sense it, she will definitely know, I'm not pretending to act like myself when I am not myself, I'm devastated.
The first week, it was hard to write down words, because any time I try to think of what to write, only one memory is there to hunt me, but after a week, I am now back in writing down my normal word counts daily.
I just finished with today's work when my phone lit up, I checked to see the name and it was someone I wasn't expecting to reach me, especially not by this time of the day, it's the Coach, I wonder why he's calling. 
“ Hello....”
(“ Hello Benny..... I wanted to ask whether you can spare me some minutes tonight?.”)
“ Is there something wrong?....” I was curious, and had to ask first. I can hear his sigh over the phone like what he was about to say was hard for him to express. 
(“ She came back, asked for my forgiveness and also said she wanted to reach you too, not through call, like see you physically.....”)
Oh, it's the girl, my teammate who called me a whore. “ There's no need to meet Coach, I have already let that past me, if she insists on apologizing, you can give her my number, no need coming from here to there just to listen to an apology....”
(“ I could've agreed with you, truly.... But with the tournament just around the corner, I believe it's best you guys speak closely, like face to face, because if it doesn't happen now, then the next time you guys might encounter each other, the pressure might still be there, hiding behind those fake smiles, you know..... and considering the fact this game has an effect mentally, I suggest you guys meet today and let it all be in the past.....”)
Yeah.... That's a huge point he gave there, since today is weekend, maybe it won't hurt sacrificing my peace and stepping out there, get this shit done with and return to my comfort zone, where no one can possibly hurt me again mentally and emotionally.
On getting to the location where she had wanted us to meet, we saw her standing with her double in the court, she was also invited, so the whole team can settle the dispute, that's so thoughtful of her, I guess someone might've talked sense into her. On getting close to them because I have arrived together with the coach, she was wearing this smile on her face like she really wanted to cool down the pressure of the moment.
She opened the nylon bag she was holding, gave Coach a beer, as well as her close partner, she took water and also offered me water. “ Coach told me that you only drink water, so I believed I have to offer you your special, and the fact I am here for the apology, I believe I should drink water too, just like the person I owe the apology to.....”
“ No.... You don't have to...” I tried to tell her, but she interrupted me.
“ I insist!...”
Knowing that she wasn't going to back down, I then decided to keep my lips sealed and allow her do what she wanted. I can tell that she wasn't really genuine with this, maybe Coach was the one who talked her into apologizing because of the tournament around the corner, the tournament which would be resuming a week from now, have already booked my flight, prepared myself for travel and waiting for my accustomed date.
It really went well, just like everyone might've planned it to, I was never going to say no to her apology, whether fake or real, all of us here knows that the tournament is priority right now and we shouldn't joke around with it. After the meeting, I left for home, knowing that every beef with her has been sidelined, at least for the meantime, just have to get ready, both physically and mentally, waving Aiden's memory aside because they're going to wear me down if I continue thinking about it.
It was early morning on Monday when my phone lit up, my travel was in the middle of the week, so I was wondering why the TADP are trying to reach out for me. They've already taken samples already, and the results came out that I am clear, not that I ever use hard drugs or something, but with them calling now, I wonder what's going on.
After I have given them another sample to test on, because they've required for it, I waited at home under my roof to hear from them again, so I decided to at least take some time to watch the News and the French open tournament highlights.
( There has been an update that Miss Benny Williams, former Wimbledon champion won't be participating in this year tournament for the French open, having violated the WADA code and would be summoned for a court hearing.)
My phone lit up immediately, it was them again, the TADPs.