I was still in shock concerning the News about yesterday's night, I was like, how was that possible?, how did it happen?.
When the called last night, they made me break down in tears concerning the allegation they've charged against me, concluding that I would be missing out on the competition list concerning what I never did. What could've happened?, did they plan this?, to remove me from the tournament intentionally?, there's no way I'm going to let this slip me by, not with the competition almost at the corner and I was supposed to be traveling on Thursday.
I decided that I've to call Dad first this morning and report to him the situation that just came up. I spoke with him for a long minute, turns out he was already planning on calling me before I did, he said that he could have called last night, but he possibly knew that speaking to anyone is not what I would be open to, not with all those emotions washing over me last night.
I told him that all the information they've given in the news was a lie, they're just trying to frame me, trying to take me out of the tournament by any legal means, but this?, This is too much, this gets you banned for a long time, stalling the progress of your career.
I received so many calls from different angles that I decided to turn my phone off later. Just like Dad taught me, always be ready, there are always the good times and the bad times, when you're seeing going, mind your reactions, when it's bad, also mind your reactions, I guess I will just have to wait until Wednesday, when the Court hearing would be happening.
Jade came back home, having slept out of home, probably at Cameron's place or at the hospital, she had that look of what's going on?, she came to me the moment she came in and came to give me a hug, knowing exactly what I'll be going through right now. I broke down again inside her arms, letting go of my pains, crying like a baby, wishing this never came to me, how can they do this to me?, How could they accuse me of such a thing?, Why should I be charged with doping when I have never got anything to do with hard drugs or performance enhancing drugs.
It's Wednesday already, I've successfully removed myself out of the social media world for the meantime, knowing that there would be so many bad images about me there. I just want to live my life out of this controversy, despite the fact I still believe I'll find my way back into this tournament, I have to first go through this setback.
Arriving at the law court with my Dad, he's my manager and also my Dad, so he's the one handling the situation for me, with his cold expression towards this kind of things, it's a huge advantage to help me avert this, his movements directing me on what to do about this. Reporters were crowding the area, blocking the entrance, wanting to fish out something, anything at all that they'll use to get fame for themselves.
Seated in the counter area, I was here to answer questions, so this time, it's now all me, fighting for myself, Jade was seating in front, right by the side of my Mom, my brothers were here, to show me support, believing I'm innocent of the charge against me, despite all the evidences pointing at me, evidences I never knew how they came up with it.
It was me against the TADP, a kind of case an individual has only 1% out of a 100 in winning. Can I come out as the victor in this?, I don't know, they're here to bring me down with something I never did, and I am here to fight myself up, more like I was trying to carry a ten story building placed upon me, sounds impossible.
After about thirty minutes and their evidence haven't been proved wrong by me, despite trying hard to answer their questions, yet it was like I was playing a chess game, not with one opponent, but an opponent with many advisors behind, everything they've been asking me has been going against me, they no longer see the hardworking young girl who has been trying to take the game by storm, all they see now is a cheater who has been enhancing herself with hard drugs, that's when I did something I've never done before, something I never believed that I would ever do, despite backing myself up with prayers, I was at the breaking point now, I looked my Dad in the face, who gave me this sad smile that no matter what, he's proud of me, I gave up.
I hid my face in my palms, breaking down in tears, with everything coming all at once, I squatted down, hiding myself in the counter as I began to weil like a baby, they never stopped with the questioning, as if they never cared, I'm at that point where I can't outrun justice. I can hear the sound of arguments going on, like some people were fighting, I can hear the voice of my Dad, asking them to leave him alone, holding onto the top of the counter and taking a peek from the top, coming out of my counter shell that I used in hiding from all those eyes, I can see my Dad, he was struggling to get to me, but the securities were pushing him away, knowing that he's action right now is against the law, he's willing to break that law just to get to me, but they were dragging him away, ten men against one, knowing he couldn't make it to me, yet he never stopped fighting just to reach me, but it all seems impossible because at this point, it was we against the world.