Deanara Samaniego’s POV
“What happened to your face?” I cupped my face in shock as I saw Ethan putting some ice on his face. It was bleeding. “Did you get into a fight?” I asked, concerned. I checked up on him from head to toe. There’s blood on his shirt, then his left eye was bruised, while his lower lip was bleeding.
Damn! What the hell is he doing? Since when did he likes fighting? I cannot believe he go home with this. He should know better to take care of himself. He didn't even bother going to the hospital.
I checked his whole body again...and also the back of his head if there's some bleeding...and some hidden parts that needs attention because if he's hiding it...it could be worse. I prayed whoever he's fighting for is still alive. Ethan is also a taekwondo player. Well, he can protect himself but it doesn't mean he should get into a fight.
“Who did this to you?” I asked. My gosh! He’s in pain. He needs to go to the hospital. "Seriously? What happened? Who started the fight? Did you seriously pick a fight with some stranger? Come on! What happened? Tell me and don't just stare at me!" I said, impatiently while still waiting for him to say something but he remained silent.
What the hell! I felt like breaking his neck any moment. I want to kill him now...of course I am kidding. I am fucking worried now and I don't want him to be in pain and I don't know what will happen if something bad happens to him. I lose Mattel...I lose Gray...them him? What now? What am I supposed to do?
“I’m fine.” He replied, not answering my question. He picked up the ice pack and put it in his face. He was so pissed of. Well, he has mixed emotions and I don't know what he is really feeling right now. Although, I could sense that someone has really pissed him. I just hope that someone is really fine.
“Fine? Look at you! What happened?” I pulled the ice from him and grabbed his hand. I searched for the medicine kit to apply some cream on his face. “What happened? We were just fine a while ago.” I rolled my eyes.
I hissed. We came from the hospital for Sae’s check up and he told me he’s going to run some errands so we got home before him. I didn’t know this is the errand that he is going to run. I can't believe this. I should not have let him there! Why did he even let someone punch him.
“Seriously? You are not going to answer me? Ethan! Did you pick a fight or what? Should we report them to the police? Come on! I deserve an answer, Ethan!" I raised my brow. "You are making me worried and I hate when you are not saying anything because that made me think there is something wrong. You have to tell me what's wrong!"
“Ouch!” He reacted when I pressed the cotton on his lower lip. I am getting pissed at him. I really don’t like when he gets into a fight or when anyone I am close with gets into a fight. I am going to punch if he'll not say something. Why is he keeping it? Ugh! This is getting out of hand and I just hate him!
“What? You are not going to say anything? You are just going to pretend that you didn’t hear it?” I groaned. “Come on! We are no longer kids. What happened?” I poked his shoulder. He looked at me and I could feel that he was thinking if he is going to tell me what happened or he is going to hide it. Seriously? What happened?
He sighed. “I got into a fight.”
“Why would you get into a fight? The last time I checked, you ain’t that bad boy next door. You don’t just get into a fight. And, obviously...you got into a fight. What do you call that? Playing?" I rolled my eyes and sarcastically told him. "Ugh!"
“I deserve this.” He simply replied. I looked at him. He is definitely hiding something and I just don't know what he is hiding from me. Seriously? He is hiding what? What happened? Tsk. I hate when he doesn't say things to me. You see, he isn't obliged to tell me everything because we are not together. Well...we just happen to spend a lot of time with each other and we lived together...but we are not really together. And, I am not asking him to tell everything...I just want to know what happened and for him to tell me a lot of things that matter.
I've been lied to by many people a lot of times and that didn't end well. I don't want it to happen to us knowing that we've known each other for years. And, of course...we will continue to spend time with each other so I guess we need some honesty in there. But...why is he not giving it to me now? I wondered what happened.
Ethan is not like this...most of the times...he will tell it to me and he doesn't lie. What makes him lie now? Perhaps, he is protecting me from something.
“What do you mean by that?” I scoffed. Still, even if he deserves it, it’s still not okay. We don't deserve to be hit or punch by people. Yes, some people are asshole but I think it should be karma that will have to serve them and not us. Really? We should stop saying that we deserve to get hurt by people we hurted...I mean...yeah at some point...but fine! Yeah. I don't know. I should not be the one talking about it because honestly...I want to hurt Gray and I hurt him back. I am not in the position to talk about it now.
“Well, not really deserve this but I did it for you.” He smiled a little. There was sincerity in his eyes and I could feel that he doesn't have any regrest. He is just sad. “So, it doesn’t matter.”
“Tell me what happened!” I said as I continued tending to his wounded face. I checked his body and there’s some bruises on his stomach. "Why? Why do you have to do this for me? I am not asking you to do things for me. You should not have picked a fight because of me."
I asked him to lie down as I called for some doctor that could do home service to check him because he will not agree if I bring him to one. And, he’s still fighting over me but I didn’t let him get me. I am the rule here and the rules say he needs to see a doctor. Although, I am overacting but I am not sure what happened to him so I need to be sure.
“You can’t hold nor touch or see Sae unless you tell me what happened!” I ordered him. "Do you want Sae to look at you like that? Ugh! I don't want him to grow up thinking that fighting is okay when it is not!"
“That’s unfair! I want to take care of Sae.” He protested. "And, he's a newborn. He doesn't know anything about this and seriously...I am not going to teach him bad things!" He defended himself.
“How can you take care of him when you cannot even take care of yourself?” I rolled my eyes. “Do you think fighting is a nice thing?”
“They were talking about you,” he sighed, which made me stop.Ethan was starting to get serious and mad again. “And, they were saying bad things about you. Those people were saying bad things to you and for once, I didn’t start it. They were strangers standing behind us...watching us and the started saying things that---”
“You should have let them go.” I heaved. I shook my head. Even though he was protecting me, I don't want it if he'll end up hurting himself. “You don’t need to pick a fight with them. Let them think whatever they want to think.”
“No! I cannot let them think what they want to think. They said you were a flirt. A timer. And, they even mentioned that you just used Mattel to hide our relationship. Damn! I shouldn’t be saying this.” He said, calming himself. He closed his fist and I know he was really mad. Although, there was something in him that I couldn't figure out. It seems like he is mad of something else other than that. What is he hiding?
I smiled a bit. There’s no need for him to say it because I already knew that. People talk...and I heard them. This isn't a big city or a town and I have a lot of ears that would tell me things.
Mattel died a month ago. It was something I expected but still couldn't accept it and when it happen...it really killed me. I thought I already know the pain but it's an understatement. I don't know what to feel. It killed me. Damn! I couldn't cry and couldn't even feel sad because I don't want Sae to be affected. Mattel's gone now.
And, the world mourns for his dead and is still mourning. After he died, I gave birth to my son...and it’s clear from the very start that he isn’t Mattel’s son. We might got married and the world knew about it, but we never did. I only gave myself to one person. And, he’s not here with me. I left him.
It was Ethan who was with me when I gave birth to my son, Sae. At some point, I want Gray to be here but it’s not his business anymore. He cheated on me, so he doesn’t deserve to meet his child. I think he is now happy with Vivian and their kid. I want Gray to witness it, but then again it's not his business anymore and I no longer wants to deal with him anymore. I just want to find myself again...and be with my son. I don't need him.
Ethan wanted to give my son their name, and so he did it. He acknowledged my baby so he could use their surname. Well, that would be a complication if Gray finds out but there is no way he’ll find out about it. I don’t have any intention to return to the Philippines and I am already a citizen of Spain. What’s left in that place right? Nothing else. So, Gray will never meet his son. And, what will Gray do? Fight me! Hah! The nerve of him! After everything and I don't think Vivian will let go of Gray. I am not sure what happened to them.
I decided that Ethan...yes, it was kinda unfair but Ethan could help me with my son. Well, I don't know. Maybe it was also the fact that I want my son to hve a complete family which is kinda wrong of me. Fine! I don't know how to undo what I had done.
The issue began when people saw my son who definitely looked like Ethan since they came from the same genes. He does look like Ethan, but if you look closely he looks like his father...Gray.
So with that, people started assuming that I cheated on Mattel, that all along I am cheating on him and I don’t even deserve him. Honestly, I don't deserve Mattel because he's been very good to me all these years and I wished that he's now happy wherever he is. You see...it's very hard to just get out from his shadow after we got married because people and his fans just won't leave me alone. Now, they won't leave Sae alone. I just need a peaceful life...and I hate how this whole thing is a mess. I somehow regret letting Mattel introduced me to the world, but it's done.
It’s been going on for weeks and I don’t know, I let it go because it’s not real. I just don’t want to pick up a fight because I don’t have the energy to fight or argue with people. I just want peace of mind and I went here in Spain to get that, but people always have a say in someone’s life. Damn! I hate it. Why do they have to talk about someone else?
“Can we…” I paused. I have been thinking of this for some quite time and I don’t know if Ethan will agree, but he doesn’t need to agree. After all, we aren’t his obligation. He shouldn't be doing this and I should not be letting him to do this...but what can I do? Ethan also needs someone by his side.
He loves Vivian that much...and even if he doesn't say it...I know he's still cry at night when he thinks of it and he was still hoping that everything would go back to how they used to be. I also don't want him to be left alone...when all the people around him had left him. We just feel the same way and I know the feeling when there's nothing left for you because people kept on getting things away from you.
“My mother is still the one managing the company because I told her I want Sae to grow up with me for a while before I start working again,” I started as I helped him with his shirt and gave him water to drink so he could take the pain reliever.
“And, because of that I decided that I want to move to another place,” I looked at him while he was waiting for me to say something. He’s been very nice to me all the time and I don’t know how I am going to give it back.
“Move to where?” He asked, confused.
I shrugged. I am not sure but somewhere that's really friendly for me...for us. Somewhere that can let us start a new life. Somewhere that doesn't have any trace of the past. Anywhere that will not remind me of the past.
“I haven’t thought about it yet, but Spain is just too small for me. I mean, a lot of people know me here and I can’t move on my own because there are too many eyes so I am thinking of moving to some place where people don't know I exist.”
“Is there a place where people aren’t aware of Mattel?” He raised his brow.
“North Korea?” I said which is true. “But, we cannot go there, you know.”
“Okay. You can think about it and I’ll prepare everything. I’ll tell your mother to look for someone to replace me so I could--”
“You would go with me?” I raised my brow. I was surprised. Why would he go with me? He should not go with me. He has his life.
He nodded.
“Who’ll help you? You cannot do it alone, especially in a foreign country. Sae is just a month old and he’s not someone else. He’s my nephew and I also want to explore the world.” He told me.
“Are you sure about it? Shouldn’t you be back in the Philippines to manage your company?” I remembered how Gray hated managing their company and now that Ethan is with me then he doesn’t have any choice but to manage it.
“Sure. Don’t worry about our company. There are a lot of people who can manage it. And, you know…” He didn’t continue his sentence but I know whom he is talking about.
How is he? I hope is fine even though he doesn’t like to manage their company. He’s probably happy with Vivian. I don’t know and I don’t want to know because that would just ruin my mood. I am happy now and as much as possible I no longer want to think about Gray. I am moving forward and moving forward doesn’t include having Gray in my life.
“Where do you want to go?” Ethan asked when he saw that I was already spacing out. “What are your plans?”
“I don’t know. Do you have any suggestions?”
“Let’s think about it.”
For the past months, Ethan and I arranged the papers so we could move into another country. We searched for places and checked out if it would fit the both of us and also my baby which is Sae. It was hard for us to find some place for that purpose knowing that it was easy for me to be distinguished by people because of Mattel.
“Are you ready?” Ethan asked.
He was carrying Sae while I was holding on to our things. We were waiting for the private plane that will bring us to our new home.
“Yes. Are you sure you didn’t forget anything?”
He nodded.
“Yeah. I have you and Sae with me. The rest, I can just find in Finland.”
“Finland…” I smiled.
Yeah, that’s where we are going to start a new life.