Isaac's POV
Before he could say a thing, the kid approached him calling him daddy. Damn! It should be me and not Ethan.
“Daddy! I missed you so much!” He hugged Ethan. It pains me to see that. It should be me. Why? Why did Deanara do this? Ugh! I hate it.
“Hey, how are you, my little boy!” Ethan smiled at him as he kissed the top of his head. “How’s your flight?”
“I am kinda tired, daddy! Can we go home after this?”
He nodded. “Sure.”
“Oh! You’re the guy earlier. Hmm…do you look a bit of daddy and a bit of me which is strange. Am I right, daddy?”
I want to say because I am your daddy right there and then but I decided not to. I don’t want to surprise the kid knowing he doesn’t even know me.
“He’s my younger brother. You say hi to Uncle Gray…” Ethan introduced me to him. Just then, his phone vibrated.
“Hello, Uncle Gray! I am Sae.” He smiled at me as he held out his hand.
I accepted it. “How old are you?”
“I’m five years old.”
“May I ask when is your birthday?” I smiled at him. I want to make sure that he is mine.
“June 11,” he answered.
I nodded. Now, I need proof…better proof and I need to talk to Deanara.
“Let’s go, Sae. Mom said she has an emergency in their company so we need to go without her.”
“What?” Sae pouted. “Does she need help? Should we go to her?”
“No. She’ll be fine. She can handle herself and she wants you to rest. She’ll get mad at you.”
“Okay.” He’s so cute. “Bye! Uncle Gray! I see you some other time.“
“Yeah.” I brushed his hair and smiled. “I’ll see you too…” My son.
I didn’t believe that Deanara had an emergency in their company because it’s lame. The last time I checked they had a branch here in the country, but it’s not yet even opened. What could be the problem now? And, does it have to be now when the sun has already set. I know her. If she wants to actually run from me, she needs to think of a better reason because I am sure she just wanted to get away and I am right…
I saw him waiting for a grab. I watched her and followed her until she stopped by a bar. She’s not in her usual self and she isn’t paying attention to her surroundings. Damn!
Instead of approaching her, I decided to watch her from afar because I know that she wants my space. And, I just can’t ruin it for her. So far, she’s just drinking lighter drinks. She cannot even notice that I am here near her.
What is she thinking? I want to know. I want to talk to her, but I am afraid she’ll just go and push me again. Honestly, all I want is to look at her because through this I can be with her…even from afar because I don’t know if she still wants me.
A lot of things have happened and changed in the last few years. My feelings didn’t change, but I am not sure about her knowing she’s been with Ethan for the past years…they have a son, apparently that’s why they want the whole world to know even if I know that he is my son. It would be for another story. I am going to prove that he is indeed my son.
She’s been there for hours. She’s not drinking heavy drinks and she was staring at her drinks. She checked her watch and that’s the time I know she’s going to leave. But, not on my watch. I still have a lot of things to ask her.
I gathered all my strength and walked towards her. I held her wrist.
"What are you doing here?" She was shocked to see me.
I wrinkled my brow. "I should be the one asking you that!" I clicked my tongue. Why is she drinking instead of going home?
"Let me go!" She pulled my wrist away from me but I held it tighter because I didn't want to let her go. "Gray! You are hurting me!" She raised her voice as the crowd started looking at us. "Don't make a scene here."
"You are the first one who made a scene. Have you forgotten about it?" I glared at her. It was her who did it first. I don’t think she’ll ever forget that or she should not be thinking that I have already forgotten about it because I did not. I fucking did not forgot about how she said yes to the whole world when Mattel propose to her.
"Now, do you want them to recognize you?" I sarcastically asked. Honestly, this isn’t what I want to make her feel because I want to hug her and make her feel love…but I just couldn’t. I couldn't hide my emotions and pretend that I don’t hate her. Yes, I love her but there’s a part of me that wants to show her how much she hurt me. I think I deserve to show it to her even for a second.
"I am pretty sure people still know about you even after Mattel's death. How long has it been, babe?" I mocked. I saw how sadness and hurt crossed her eyes that for a second I wanted to get back those words, but I couldn’t now.
"Gray, what do you need? Let me go!" She pleaded as tears started to fall from her eyes.
"We need to talk!" I demanded. I think I deserve that. "I think I deserve that after you left years ago, Deanara. Even until now…you won't still give it to me?"
"Gray, we don't have anything to talk about…so I appreciate you letting me go or I scream for help and make sure to get the police to put you in jail." She warned me.
I faked a laugh.
"Can you put me to jail?" I smirked.
"I left you Gray. What makes you think I can do that simple thing when you keep on harassing me?"
Ouch! That really hurt. Damn! In this game, I always lose when it comes to her…and I can never win if she’s the topic.
I sighed. I let go of her because she’s already hurting. I want to hug her…but I know she will push me away. What should I do?
"Gray, that was years ago. I have nothing to say," She smiled a bit. "You're ruined me and for the past years I am healing myself so can you please just let me go…and just stay away from me…because I don't want to see you."
This is it. That must be the reason and I hate it because I know I was partly to blame or maybe all the blame is really on me because it started with me. I really have to clarify these things because if not…I am going to regret it. Deanara, why can’t she listen to me?
"Let me explain." I pleaded. At least, I deserve that.
"I don't want to hear it, Gray. Just save it. I am happy with Ethan now…So, just pretend that you didn't see me again."
Is that true? It broke my heart. Damn! Should I believe in her? She’s lying. I know she’s lying. She’s happy with Ethan, maybe, but I know she’s happy…more happy when she is with me. And, I am sure of that. Why? Why is she doing this?
"Aren't you going to explain why?" I asked, looking straight at her eyes. "Why, Deanara?" I couldn’t hold my tears anymore and they kept on falling now. I have been hiding these tears for some quite time…and now they are falling apart.
It hurts. It fucking hurts that I couldn’t breathe. What happened to us? We shouldn’t be miserable like this. We should not have ended up like this if we both listened to each other. We didn’t listen. She didn’t let me explain and I didn’t explain my side. I should have done that. I should not have let her go.
Although, I know that during those times…our relationship is no longer healthy and we could not work it out. It was Vivian. It’s my fault. She was right. I kept on telling her to stay away from Ethan because I was afraid that Ethan might do to her what he did to Vivian. But, I forgot to reflect and see myself. I am with Vivian…and yes we are friends…but she was already an ex I should have removed from my life even before…I should have done that but I didn’t. It was so unfair for her that’s why I couldn’t blame her. She was so patient with me…and I wasted it. I wasted her trust.
It’s my fault. I should be the one to get all the blame. But, she should have told me so I have clarified it and we didn’t reach this point. She should have told me her feelings, but she left. I hate her…but at the end of the day it’s still her.
"Don't pretend like you don't know why, Gray?" She shook my head. "I am tired. So, I need to rest. Nice to see you again!" She walked away.
But, I am not letting her go away this time. I had enough of this running. I need it done now.
“Sae is my son. Am I right?"
She froze. I know her. She’s not good at lying.
He knew. He felt that. But, of course, I am going to deny it.
"He is Ethan's son, Gray." She said, without looking at me.
"Sae is my son!" I raised my voice. Damn! I am fucking mad at the world because it’s letting us experience all of this when we could all be happy.
"I deserve to know that, Deanara."
"He is Ethan's son."
She ran away.
And, I stood there…not knowing what to do.
If she’s not going to tell me…then fine! I’ll do my own research and catch her off guard.
I drove without destination just to clear up my mind until I got tired and went back home. Although, I am no longer staying at my condo unit because I bought Deanara and Lyuna’s old home before. Not really bought because Lyuna doesn’t want to sell it so it was like I am taking care of it. I am taking care of their house while waiting for my home. I have been staying there for years, though I didn’t change anything. I liked it that way and hadn’t also moved things especially inside Deanara’s room because it still has her scent. I usually sleep in her room while my things are in the other room. I missed her so much and it’s the closest I can get to having her.
I stopped my car outside when I saw that there’s a light on in her room. I am pretty sure it’s not Lyuna because she isn't from the country. She was busy managing her business and they had expanded in another country, so she isn’t here. It’s been a year and she left the house with me. So, I know there’s only one person that could be inside right now.
Who would it be? She has keys to her room. So, I know it was her.
My heart was beating so fast as I went inside the house, trying not to leave any trail and be quiet as much as possible to not disturb her. I don’t want her to go out and walk…and leave me again. At least, we are now in the same house. We’re close yet so far.
I sat on the sofa and listened to her. But, she was so quiet inside. I thought of a lot of things as I sat there until I felt that she turned off the lights. It took another hour for me to gently open the door of her room and check if it was really her.
I melted upon seeing her sleeping so soundly. I stood there…at the door…for a minute watching her sleep because I am afraid that one wrong move will wake her up. Damn! I wanted to touch her but I couldn’t. I want to kiss her but she is no longer mine.
I left and stayed in the other room…but I was awake the whole night. I did not have a proper sleep thinking of her. It was already morning. I finished cooking before she was even awake as she did not realize that I was here. Thankfully, she doesn’t have any idea yet that I am here.
I was standing near the door. It’s very quiet that I could hear her voice from the inside talking to someone, perhaps it was our son. She put our son, Sae, on speaker so I could hear him from where I was standing. I hate how I am such a stalker now. I leaned on the wall and listened to them.
[ Mom! Good morning! Are you coming home today? ] My son is really energetic and he’s so cute. I remembered the younger version of me that I am sure he is mine.
[ Yes. I will be, my love. What do you want me to bring?] Deanara was still sleepy.
[ I want an ice cream. But, daddy Ethan told me he's going to buy me some before we head to the office]
Ethan? Fuck? Daddy! I should be the one he should be calling Daddy and not Ethan. I really need to do something about that.
[ Office? You'll be going to the office with him?] She was shocked. So am I. I guess…I need to start a plan now.
[ Yeah. I am so excited to meet grandpa. Can you meet us there, Mom? So, we could eat lunch together. Daddy told me he has a lot of things to do. We can just bring him lunch there. He wants some steak and me tooI!]
Ugh! I hate it. Why am I even listening to this? I hate how they sounded so happy like Sae doesn’t need me anymore. I hate it. Damn!
[ Oh] That’s all she said. What is she thinking? Is she thinking of me?
[ Are you okay, Mom? ] Sae asked when Deanara fell into silence. [ Are you listening to me? ]
[ Uh. What did you say again? I’m sorry the signal is kinda poor here. Can you repeat it again? ]
[ Nothing, mother. Just take a rest and we are going to see you later, okay? I am going to introduce you to Uncle Gray. Although, do you already know him? He told me he knows you.]
I smiled a bit. I do not just know her…she’s my whole world.
[ Did Uncle Gray tell you anything else?] She is panicking. I smirked. Is she afraid I would find out about her lies? Well, she should be ready about it.
[ He asked me about my age and my birthday. And, also my real name. Why? Is there something wrong?]
[ Nothing, dear. You should prepare now. I will see you later. Okay? I love you.] I felt like she was moving from the bed.
[ I love you, mom. I'll give the phone to Daddy!]
Ethan? Tss. I hate the name. I never thought I would hate Ethan this much.
[ Do you want me to pick you?] He sweetly said. Damn! That should be me.
[ No. I'm fine. I'll take the taxi. Take care of Sae.] Good to know. Ethan doesn’t need to pick her up because I am going to drive her.
[ Okay. I'll see you later. Let me know if you are already in the office.] Ethan said and finally the call ended.
I stood there waiting for her next move, but maybe she laid in bed again. It took another minute before I could feel that she was walking…maybe fixing the bed…and she’s opening the closet. Until I heard the shower.
She’s taking a bath now and in a minute…she’ll show up. I am going to see her now. I’ll be able to see her now…and can I hug her? I really want to hug her. Damn! I am counting the time…and was actually looking at my phone to kill time and to think of what I am going to tell her because I have a lot and I don’t want to repeat myself again because I know that she is going to lie again.
I need to work on the evidence because Deanara will never let me have my kid unless I showed her that I know the truth. She is determined to lie and I don’t know how long she is going to keep that up. It’s Sae that I am thinking about because it might be too late for me now to have him on my side when all his life he’d known Ethan to be his real dad. They seem to be very close and even though I hate Ethan, I know he’d been a very good father to Sae. But, it’s my son and I don’t want to share my son to anyone as selfish as it may be so we need to settle this. I’ll let it go for now but surely…I am going to show Deanara that she made a mistake in hiding my son. If we need to go to the court, then we will go to the court. There’s no one who can stop me now. I am determined to have my son now.
I kept my phone in my pocket with my hands on it when I realized that she was now opening the door. I don’t know. Should I smile at her? She’d probably scream upon seeing me? I don’t know. I liked all her expressions and each day I am falling in love with her.
I decided to just look at her seriously because I want her to know that I am serious about taking my son from her and this time…I don’t care if she will choose me.
"Gray?" She blinked. She’s cute, making me want to pinch her cheeks as she widens her eyes. Still, I couldn't believe that I was in front of her now. Me, either. I couldn’t believe that after years I am going to see her again…because I thought that I was never going to see her again. I thought that destiny had forgotten about us and that we are not meant for each other. We are just strangers with memories. We shared beautiful energies but it had to end because we were never really for each other. That’s what I have been telling myself for the past years so I could move on and go on with my life.
I tried to, I did everything to forget about her. But, even in my sleep…it was her…and it will always be her. No matter what happens…it will always be Deanara and I had promised myself that if we can no longer be together again, then I would end up alone. I would grow old…alone…without anyone by my side.
Seeing her now…I know destiny wants another chance for our love story. I am pretty sure that destiny is telling me to make it right this time. Destiny is telling me to choose her…and to make her choose me. It’s now or never. I don’t know if I will be having this conversation again. I am not even sure if she is going to stay here in the country or if it's just temporary. Although, before that…I will surely make her permanent in my life.
I won’t waste another day. I won’t go home without her. It would be hard because she’s so stubborn but I am sure that she'll tell me. And, she can never hide the truth. Her mouth can lie, but her eyes couldn't. I know those stares...because it's also the same stare that I am showing her. I longed for her and I know she longed for me.
So, yes. I decided to make her my wife now...and it last forever. I am not going to let her walk away from me again. I am going to make her mine even if it means I have to compete with my brother again.
"What are you doing here?" She asked as she shook her head and couldn't believe that she saw me. Well, I am still handsome as ever.
"I live here." I shrugged and told her as she continued to circle her mouth like I said something that's really impossible.
"This is my house!" She protested.
"I bought this one." I simply replied. And, I saw her wrinked her brows.
"I didn't consign to that agreement! I need to call Lyuna!" She faced palm.
"Sure..." I grinned. "But, before that...do you want to eat with me and discuss things we should be discussing?" I glared at her.
"I am telling you that Sae is not your son. He's Ethan son. Isn't it obvious that I cheated on you that's why I left? What else do you want to hear?"
"Do you love me?"
I dropped those words.
She paused. Her lips parted and was about to say something...but decided not to.
"It doesn't matter anymore, Gray."
Liar.